in my place...

*coldplay... good stuff

today was boring boring halloween. yea dude, holidays are becoming more and more overrated and just not as fun anymore!
school. boooo. got to school relaly early actually. 1st. supply teacher. finished a lot of data work. 2nd. strings. worked on stupid quartet. we're sounding really good. 3rd. lunch. raped those stupid limits. got sooo much calc and limits stuff done. 4th. boring boring theory. omg we got back 2 assignments, and well soo far all the other assignments ive been getting back are really good. but these 2 were really really bad!!! oh man!!! i was soo shocked!!!! i really hope it doesnt bring down my mark. cuz it was doin pretty good before... 5th. boring. just took notes.
afterschool. got home. ate a bit. lol sooo sorry chraysee. i came at like 5:46.. hahaha sorry.

went to church for halloween carnival kinda thing for lil kids... it was surprisingly really tiring...
i had this lil booth where there's this kind of glass jar.. and u fill it to the top with water... and then the kids gotta as many coins as they can before it over flows... and ohhh man.. it ranged soo crazily.. 2 kids got 25 coins.. and some got like 1 or 2... i ran outta tickets to give them, sooooo many times... and i felt really bad.. cuz pastor wes came to my booth 3 times tonite. and i wasnt there and he had to look for me! ahhh felt sooo bad... 1st time, i was looking at other booths, 2nd time i was taking a break, and 3rd time i was away playing basketball!!! :( i felt sooo terrible... anywaze soo many kids kept coming to my booth, cuz it was kinda easy to win tickets. but i couldnt really make it any harder.... anywaze.. it was kinda fun... wel;l my booth was boring. but the night was fun. got to talk to chraysee, jen, jes, helen, krystal, marie... and we got to just like chill out after it was all done and relax.. cuz it was soo tiring...

then after chillin for a bit.. me and eyen headed over to mike's for a tiny bit , and i helped eyen get some wedding presents still. sorry eyen for knocking everything down in the elevator.. ! anywaze.. then just got home. ate some food. bloggs and msn. and that's my day...

it's only monday!!!! weeek plz go faster!!!!!! tuesday sux. nothin to do. wednesday at least it's short day and there's basketball at church, thursday, OC's back!! and friday, KYRIOS. everything but tuesday!!! geeez stupid tuesday!! ugh.................... anywaze lates...

on my own...

on my own* - hedley... good song..

oh man i AGAIN, wasted another saturday... accomplishing nothing. omg. sunday. hahaha i rmb'd the 1 hour back(daylight savings) lol. eyen didnt. hehehe. service was good. good msg by kinson, i took soooo many sermon notes! tori. for worship, smile more, enjoy yourself. enjoy the time of worship for God. smile~! oh yayyy i got my Life of Pi from derek a.k.a moses. thanx so much! u saved my life... now to make enough time to read it... oh and thanx mat so much for your data notes... :)
anywaze... after chilling in the gym, sunday school. we made boxes, and kinda talked about evolution/science vs. creation. but it was really brief. and it was more share any stories about it, wat have u dealt with in your own life.. umm.. soo it wasnt really....informational... but then again, i havent had anytime to read those stacks and stacks of handouts. i dunno. just me and that sunday school course, isnt working out too well soo far...
chilled with eyen a bit, talked to chraysee for a bit. then had to go for lunch. kinda boring... ate at some shanghai place at metro. the orange one on the courner... mehhh.. just with my parents and their friends, this other couple. really boring tho... home now. and just got tons of homework

ok im gonna try and do what jaNICE is doin. stay aaway from MSN. make signing into MSN a minimum. cuz im always on, and it's a huge distraction from work, and stuff, and ESP. since my math marks are at a bare minimum, like the marks are barely over a pass. i really gotta start trying even harder in math. so guys., if u wanna reach me, dont msn me anymore.u can email, gmail or call my home number. my stupid cell phone isnt working still. ok? so yeah if u see me on msn. kick me off!!!

hate it or love it...

oh wow. there's soo much to talk about in these past couple days...

thursday. had orch rehearsal at 7:30 got there at 7:42 and there's a sign on the door that says the door will be locked at 7:40. so i couldnt get into rehearsal...so i walked around looking for anybody...nobody..so then after a long time, i watched some of the ball tryouts, then i did some math. 1st. period. nothing. supply teacher..absolutely nothing.. 2nd. went to get a flu shot, then i had lunch with my mom, then came back for my 3rd. period lunch. and i played some geetar.. 4th. and 5th. we watched this "independent canadian" film by Reel Canada. one of the main actresses that was in the film, graduated from our school. and she actually went to mini claude as well. that means she went to the same school i went to (claude watson) from gr.4 - gr. 8 then earl haig... the movie was soooooooo complicated and confusing.. it was kinda up north about this huge school bus accident, with all these kids in the bus and the bus drives off this hill, and then into a frozen lake, then it collapses, and alotta ppl die. but the main actress girl, survives, and there';s this whole thing about lawsuits and stuff, it's sooooo confusing... afterschool. i played some ball, and i watched some survivor, and maid in manhattan... dont rmb what else happend that day...

friday. ok i have this calc quiz at 8am, so i wake up at 6:15am, get ready and stuff. it's pitch black and freezing cold. like -5 degress, im exagerrating a lil. but still freezing, did my calc quiz at 8.. but it was sooo hard.... and i really need to start geting good marks, but i didnt do well at ALL on this quiz:( the questions on these calc quizes and tests are always like things i dont understand and like 500000000x harder than any homework question... hopw am i supposed to answer these stupid calc quiz questions?!? ughhh. 1st. data. 2nd.united way week carnival. um nothing really to do..kinda boring. forgot my wallet, so no money.. i had to help with my booth, and it was soo gay, nobody even came ..it was candy guessing. and nobody did anything, and my partner didnt even come, so i did it myself, wlel i just sat there by myself. and the ppl were supposed to do it after my shift never came..so i was there bored outta my mind for soo long. then finally i got outta there and played football with some of the crew. then we had lunch and actually i played geetasr and stuff, and actually, first timefor everything. i met this girl, leslie, and she's in gr.11 and found out she goes to First Alliance Church, down the street from t3c, this is at warden and finch, near bridletowne.. and so me, her and alison are like singing worship songs in our hallway, during lunch. pretty cool. 4th. really boring. 5th. also really boring.. afterschool.played a lil more football. then went to wendy's with terrence and jerome jerry gibson a.k.a jamie. lol then went home...
got to church for smallgroups... mike got a new car! um first we moved the 3rd floor sofas into our old sunday school room, and then we read the metro (newspaper) suppose to learn about current events. but that didnt work too well, i thot. after a hard stressful, busy week of school, and expecting us to read the newspaper on a friday night? kinda didnt work for me... and then there wasnt really much discussion about it afterward.. so to be honest, i kinda found that pointless.. then we couldnt get a tv/dvd so we couldnt watch a movie.. so we "got to know each other" more like me and jen asking everybody questions... school, grade, siblings, post-secondary school/future, and stuff.... then we finally got a tv, and we didnt even have enough time to watch a whole movie... everyone seemed to wanna watch the movie "family man" with nicholas cage.. about this business guy who wakes up at a suburban home with a big family or somethin, and just like a change in lives and stuff. but for some reason, ken picks a movie he brought in, about japanese ppl and a radio show. very very confusing. hard to follow. kinda.... not interesting... and i saw other ppl sleeping way before me. i saw kevin, and jen sleeping, and then after a long time, THEN i fell asleep. and tim did too. i was definitely not the only one OR the first one! then afterwards, me, jen, jaNICE, miriam, tim, derek, kenric and some other ppl we went to wendy's. me and jen were listening to miriam's mp3 player on the way there. and she has songs u'd never think she'd listen to...sorry miriam!!! but it's soo like diverse and strange, coming from miriam's mp3 plaer. she had like r&b songs, she had like sean paul, she had like the killers, oasis, MY HUMPS!!! BLACK EYED PEAS!!! wow.... anywaze, we got to wendy's and jaNICE was playing all these cool songs on her geetar, that's right, IN wendy's. and we talked about alotta stuff. lol. kenric brought up these discussions about relationships, and prom and post-secondary. it was funny. then later, chris, nix and tamryn (i thjink her name is) came and yeah then soon enough i left..

got home, and watched the movie, EuroTrip. which was really funny. hilarious.. that freaky guy that keeps coming into their train booth, and he's like perverted and he keeps saying "OHH...MEEE EXCUSEEEE..MEEE EXCUSEEE.." it was sooo funny. scooty doesnt know!!!!!! oh and kristen kreuk is in it too! but only for like 2 mins in the beginning...

saturday. today. woke up at a nice 1:00pm. ate lunch. then i went to woodside mall looked at some stuff. planning on coming back to the mall later and buying stuff.. then i go to the library, looking for the book i need for english, and i check and it says in almost every single library, they DONT have it. like the book is supposed to come from the publisher but the libraries ahev not received it!!!! ahhhhhhh does anybody have the book "Life of Pi" that i could borrow? THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!!! then after, i went to Scarboro Town Centre... had the hardest time finding the Rogers store. to fix my cell phone.. and the line up is huge. when i finally get there, the guy looks at my pohone trys to figure it out, takes out the sim card and stuff, then he does something, then he says Your SIM card has been "Used Inappropriately" then im like WHAT THE.. then he's like it's improtpley used.. and im like WHAT THE... and then he's like u need to get a new sim card! for 25 bucks.. and im like WHAT THE.... SOOO NOW, i hafta get a new sim card for 25 bucks for NO reason.. stupid gay cell phone. i hate you. then i went to foot locker and bought some shirts, then walked around, and i saw jen, and she was alsoat STC buying stuff.. then i went to champs, and i bought alotta baller bands.. cuz it was packs of 3, and buy 1 pack, get one free. so ok!!!! um.. then didnt see anything else.... then i went back to woodside, and everything was closed!!! and i couldnt buy more stuff, stuff i planned on buynig!!!! :( awww mannn. i want new clothes. and they were cheap too. at the score.. ugh... and that concludes my saturday..well it's like 7:03pm, and im just msning, blogging, and gonna eat dinner and do homework, so that's my sattaday. crap. only one more day of the weekend:( was this like the longest week or what? and dont u think weekends should be longer!!!! at least this one is one hour longer :( not enough.. i hate school, homework, and my stupid cell phone...

trouble...

trouble by coldplay....
oh also...hero by chad kroeger of nickelback..from spiderman 1!
good songs.

ohhh man. remember that math contest? i do 4 out of 6 of them, and i get a 100% quiz mark? OHH MAN.. i thot it would help me in data and calculus..turns out. I HAFTA CHOOSE ONLY ONE COURSE. the quiz mark can only count in one of my math classes!!! what do i do? im doin terrrible...prettyy ,much equally terrible in those classes... wait which one should i do...calc is sitting at around 68-70 and data is at around 50-65.... now i can either boost up my calc and have a bad data.. or up my data...so my lowest mark isnt as low as it could be... im starting to think i should use this mark in data, cuz so far we';ve only done 1 quiz and 1 test. the quiz: 40% and the test: 66% therefore it's really really low.. on the other hand calc... i have a couple quizzes.. 40%, 50%, 80%, 90%, 20% and i have a test at 68% and i have some extra marks like my math poster which i got a level 4... soo i think calc isnt as bad as i think it is.. so maybe i should try and up my data mark with the contest. i got soo jipped,. (i think it's actually 'gypped") it was supposta help BOTH classes! awww man.

another bad thing.. my mom got mad at me cuz i didnt show her a sheet about parent teacher interviews and she found out from a school council-parent informative email or whatever. so she made me go around today asking for interview times.. and i have a feeeling, im gonna get in trouble regarding how bad my maths are doing.. hopefully i'll try and sign up my better classes at the end of the interviews.. so they will leave the interviews on a good note with one of the good teachers and one of my good classes!! plz pray that i dont get in trouble.. and if i do. plz just pray that they will be kind and understanding about it... cuz im gonna now start to go on msn less. gonna try and not sign onto msn until i finish my homework...or until like 9 or 10pm. i did that yesterday. and it was soo good. got a lotta work done! sooo hopefully my math marks will start to do better. oh man. but there's soo much school work to do. gotta read soooo many novels for english in such a short time..and so much homework, drilling, and studying for data and calc. OMG. HELP ME! should i get a tutor?? i dont really want to... but everyone's saying i shoiuld. and i have a feeeling it will be really beneficial. but i dont wanna..... what should i do?

anywaze. today. sucked. 1st was stupid and boring. 2nd. strings. boring. 3rd. lunch. played hand ball. 4th. theory.. really boring. 5th. mod west. boring... then i went to afterschool extra help for math stuff. im sorta getting it all now. sorta understanding everything....it's comin along..just really slowly. math is soooooooooooooo hard... ughhhhhhh.

i went to ball today at church. first there was only me, k and eyen. and i thot aww man not another night with like just a couple ppl! then aaron and sean? or shawn? came and chris came and marty came and some other guy came. and we were able to play 4 on 4 full court! havent run full court games in soooo long. then we played elimintation. where rebounding weas just crazy., where everyone has good rebounding skills except for me. the worst hops ever. but i somehow managed to get past the first 2 rounds... but i suck at basketball. tremendously...omg. missed soooo many easy baskets..and i just make soo many stupoid decisions. just like stupid terrible passes. intercepted passes, stop my dribble, lose my dribble, and lose the ball trying to do too much. ughhhhh i hate when i play like this....makes me soo mad at myself that i suck soo much. when it comes to outdoor ball. it's soo much better. i have more confidence, i have handles, i have better decision making, it's just soo much easier when it comes to streetball. i just suck when it comes to ball at church. i wanna practice. yeah as i was saying it's been so long since i played full court game at church. and all that stuff. my feeet were killing. like the skin on the bottom of my foot, like near the ball of my foot. it feels like that skin is gonna rip off... like the skin is soo like worn out, it feels all hard and it's like no longer skin. it's like..i donno like a blister kinda thing.. it's disgusting and my feet hurt! i need to pick up ball again....

my geeetar got fixed! now during lunches, kalun can teach me crazy stuff... anywze nothing more to say. signin off. laters.

all these things that i've done..

again, another song by the killers. what the killers are good. well half of their cd :)..lol. i hope i havent used this title already...

man there's sooo many blogs to read and to comment on. in total in takes like a solid hour. to check everything. comment and then blog MY day. ahhhhhhhhhh

well today.. again pitch black in the morning. stupid shorter/darker days..
1st. really boring. student teacher talking about printing press and colour separations and offset press and stuff. kinda boring. looked thru caileigh's iPod nano. it;'s soooooooooo small. i still like mine tho :)
2nd. lunch. i think back to it. i dont remember what i really did. just ate the lunch with the crew.
oh man i put on my contacts.,...at lunch it toook sooo long and my left one would not go in,m and when it finally did, it like hurt and felt uncomfortable all day...
3rd. talked wit shak, mylonas, and chapface, about like the NHL and all this other stuff. lol wow i just realized i used to be into hockey a lot more. i was pretty into hockey before!
4th. calc. got my quiz back. 20%!!!!!!! im doin soooo bad in calc.... ok and i dont rem. if i told u already but if i do 4 out of 6 CNML math contests, it counts as a 100% quiz mark added to my data mark and my calc mark. so afterschool. i did the contest. WOW soooo many ppl were doin it. it was soo packed in like 5 rooms! there was 1 extra person so the student teacher said one person has to leave... and nobody volunteered to leave. so he got a dice or a coin or something and threw it up and caught it.. then that chose one side of the class, then he did this really fast repeatedly. throwing it up, and it gives like the outcome. so he's like ..ok this half of the class.... ok this row..ok this seat. you. u hafta go. sorry. bye! lol it was soo funny cuz he did it all soo fast. and that person ahd to leave... lol. anywaze only 6 questions. wow i suck at math but i think i got 5/6 on this optional math contest! feeel so proud. but it sux. how is one 100% quiz mark gonna help fix my 3 failing calc quizes and my data mark.. im doing sooo horibble in data and calc! omg.
came home after eating a lot at wendy;s. then actually did homework right away away from the computer. felt good. got a lotta data homework done. fell asleep. so decided to go and take a nap. woke up. ate dinner. watched this prison break -behind the walls..kind of interview with all the cast and talk about the show and the characters and the plot and what's gonna happen.. it was pretty cool. then watched some friends and watched some supernatural. supernatural...seems kinda a stupid show. well the whole concept of the show is kinda stupid... then after that.. i just msned and blogged for sooolong. well that includes checking and commenting blogs. took so long to finish. ugh anywaze there im done.
man tomoro apparently there's sr. boys basketball try outs tomoro at 6am!!!! are u insane?!?! i'd hafta wake up at 4:30am!!! omgoodness.. not goin to that! sometimes i wish it was where albert campbell is. 2 sec. away from my house. so it's soo much easier. i would be able to sleep longer. get to school really fast. no buses or subway... woodside mall is NEXT door and lunch would be way better cuz it's first of all better. there's ACTUALLY brand name places at the foodcourt unlike the crappy civic center foodcourt at north york civic center.. and the food is cheaper. and everything would be so much better. AND i could TRY out for the team, and then get cut cuz there's sooo many good black ballers. not trying to be offensive., but i know most of the guys on the campbell team, and they're all black. and they're all msotly good too. stupid earl haig. sooo far away..... lunches suck.... expensive..no parking anywhere near there.... stupid school.... ok im done. plz if ur gonna comment. plz comment more than 1 line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLZZZZZ

somebody told me...

somebody told me - the killers....

these songs that im listening to at the moment are always perfect blog titles. cuz like ive been getting alotta advice. if u havent been reading my comments and such. thanx everybody. seriously. means a LOT. so it kinda works..somebody told me... as in like ppl givin me advice. good song too.

ok, so like last nite, if u ahvent read in my xanga. i went to bed at like 10:20 which is extremely early comapred to my normal sleeping time. like 1, or 1:30 or 2...etc. but yeah slept early.. and when i woke up, pitch black outside and i was stillllllllll soooooooooo tired. i dont understand how sleep works! stupid sleep.

got back my data test. :( i tried so hard... and got soo far...but in the end...i only got a 66...%
on the contrary, i dont know how, but i keep getting all these good marks in music theory/harmony. even tho i learn the stuff at lunch LITERALLY the period before class starts. hehehehee dont know how i do it.... doin good in mod west too. so far our mark is based on 1 test, which i did very well on, AND well comapred to everybody. but God said dont compare. so i shall not. but i already have. ok stop talking!

played basketball in the rain afterschoool......so nice..relaxing..fun..calm...just perfect. i luv it. i miss basketball..... and warm weather too..... :( wasted tonite.... tv. msn. blogs. dinner. vio lesson. smallville. which was SOOOOOOO cheesy.... by the way...anybopdy who knows superman stuff.. does anyone know of a DC superhero named arthur curry who is a really good swimmer? cuz im assuming that's a DC marvel comic-superhero. like "the flash" was on another episode. couple seasons ago.. but the ending was soo terrible worst acting/cheesiest ending ever!!! omg. i wont even tell u. cuz it's just so garbage. ok i will tell u... lois lane liked this "arthur curry" guy a.k.a "AC" and then he leaves. and lois is like i dont think i'll ever find a guy like that who wants to save the world... and then clark goes "dont worry lois, im sure ur gonna find someone who's even more special" and then he puts his hand on her shoulder... and the camera zooms out... sooo stupid!!!! and cheesy! and corny! corn and corn alone day!!! (jaNICE!) wave o' babies..

anywaze thnx again to everybody who commented.. preciate it.. really. hopefully everything turns out for the best! so thanx...keep oncommenting:) it makes my day!!!! BUT THEY HAFTA BE MORE THAN 2 LINES!!! AHEM*COUGH*TRACY*AND *AMANDA*COUGH COUGH! take cares.

iris...

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls

just a song that i was listening to.. this weekend... i waste sooo much time.
saturday. woke up at 12. went out to eat lunch with my sis, dad and grandma. came home. wasted the whole day with msn, blogs, tv, geeetar, everything BUT homework... talked to tori on the phone for a while. thnx tori. then played basketball in the rain for like 15 mins. cuz it was freezing, and wet. ate dinner. wasted more time. then finally got a lil bit done. mathew helped me/teached me calculus. and i understand it now. i just need to do more than half a question now...
sunday. youth sunday. woke up at 7:30 to get ready to be at church by 8:15. drove. picked up pablo. practiced a bit. then we went to the sanctuary. got ready. no mic check tho. we had so many ppl, that we had to split up our group, so that we entered the stage from both sides, just to be balanced.. we did good. i dont know bout everybody else. but i had a good time. i enjoyed myself. good time of worship. i was calm, chill and happy. got thru all the songs..dont think anything BIG happened wrong.. well except. electric geeetar drowning out my lil solo-entrance that i practiced soo hard on..but whatever. good msg. by eyen. about being single. and about couples. "being single is a gift. a blessing, not a curse" "being single, we need to devote ourselves:body and spirit, and be concerned with the Lord's affairs. cherish your singlehood!" that was a good timed-reminder. i really needed that today. then into the gym. talked to carol and ada. and she was just givin me advice about school stuff and ppl. thnx. saw clinton and anastasia too just before i went up to sunday school. there we did this defending your faith scenario thing. man. im REALLY bad at this.. i like compltely blanked out. and ONLY had like cheesy sunday school answers, i really suck.... and i felt so embarassed too. cuz it's like how am i on SMT? i cant even do somethin like this.. yeah.. plz help me know more. afterwards. mysmallgroup and i discussed about...smallgroups.. i dunno. our smallgroup feels really weird. i guess it's sorta like im not comfortable with anyone in our smallgroup. except for maybe jen. but like there;s no real closeness or what's the word. it's just really ........weird. plz help me to wanna look forward to small groups. and for me to be a good example and for me to have patience with it. and i dunno. a better perspective... change me! then went to eyen's office. i thot he said he was free for lunch to go to wendy';s..so i waited for him. but then turns out he has this meeting there with the pastoral/deacon staff there soo.. i kind of went to wendy's with him, and then after a short convo with pastor daniel and kinson, i left. lunch at home. soo many dishes to wash. soo much laundry to do. and still so muchhomework to do too. plz help me just not worry bout this stuff. take away all my problems, pains, issues, burdens, worries and stress. help me to just work hard and get some work done. i also wanna be more independent..as a person..i guess. not like practical things.. like i can cook, i can do laundry, i can wash dishes, i take the bus everyday to and from school, not stuff like that. that stuff im fine-independently..but like just i depend on friends too much. and when it's times like these sometimes. where everybody's busy. everybody's off doin their own thing. and i cant always just expect me to always go to them. and like bother them and stuff. and i gotta just be a stronger person, like just deal with my issues by myself instead of always confiding in others. and a stronger christian. man. i havent done devos in sooooooooooo long. havent spent as much time with God as i want to. and i gotta stop stressin out and worrying. mathew 6:33-34! the jist of it is... DONT WORRY. depend on Him, and all will be ok.... i also gotta reduce my time on msn. i always have these plans in my head of stayiong away from the computer and just do hours of straight work, and then sleep early. that NEVER happens. i always manage to get distracted or always manage to lead myself back to the computer and i just dont get nearly as much work as i had planned. and that causes lack of sleep. and lack of sleep causes lack of focus. and lack of focus causes lack of understanding. and lack of understanding causes falling behind in homework. and fallign behind in homework causes more homework to do. and more homework to do causes lack of sleep! it's all a big disgusting cycle that im in. i need to change. help me. please! help me to do well in school and help me to enjoy the time more and to be a good example there consistently. and plz give me a direction to go to. show me what u want me to do in the future, and tell me where u want me to go. cuz i have no idea... guide me. please.

weapon...

*weapon - matthew good band
this song was also playing for the smallville season 2 or 3 finale, when clark is gonna do something... and then he sees lana waiting for him and he has the kryptonite key i think.. and he's gonna destroy the ship and stuff this is all before lex's wedding... and stuff. anywaze it's a good scene between lana and clark... and im trying to learn this on geetar...

my boring school day...
1st. late. pretended to work, but did my english reading (needed to read like 60 pages before 5th period)
2nd. lunch. read
3rd. lunch again. read again
4th. supply teacher in my calc. we just did work. well..everybody else. i of course read!!! i had 10 pages left.. and it was 5th period!
5th. ms. mondrow is pms'ing, and we go thru as a class up to about page 30 something.. meanwhile im on like 54..and we were supposed to read up to page 64. but then we do thios sheet where we just need to find examples of romantic/imagery in the 3rd chapter.. and then turns out we can hand it in next class. so therefore, we didnt need to finish reading it by today!! omg. wasted so much time today reading!!!!

kyrios. got there at like 5:40. practiced worship.. got soo hungry, so we got this chinese food from kenric,but it wasnt enough, so me, jen, tim and pablo go to wendy's and get some drive thru. they spill coke or icetea in my car. and it's still sticky... anywaze we get back, and we couldnt park in the same parking spot (which was really really close to the door) cuz the guy was being a jerk and there was some performance, so there's alotta cars around trying to park. and the guy wouldnt let me park back in the same spot i was before. so we hafta park soo far away.. and far away from the door too.
anywaze. p&p was ok. our worship songs.. well our youth sunday ones went really good. i thot. some of the p&p songs were a lil unprepared.. the whole time i played geetar without any plugs, wires, amps or mics. but with the help of jaNICE, we played pretty good i think. and i got thru it. and didnt get bored or anything...
after p&p it was really weird... i dont know what i did. or if it was even me. but... well i dont know what happened.. i hope ur not mad at me or anything. the whole day seemed pretty normal and fine. dontknow what happened at the end?

if only i didnt have so much work to do this weekend..........

you got me all wrong...

"you got me all wrong" by DIOS. chino-song. when ryan's back in chino with teresa thinking about his future and stuff and wanting to be back in the OC.

anywaze. 7:30 orch. rehearsal. brought my geeetar for mr. torok to fix.
1st. did pretty much nothing. then there was the UNITED assembly, which sucked ass. except that crazy geeetaring and the crazy drummer dude. everything else was just purely overrated and boring. sorry lee, but the zoom video? spoon? mehhhh
2nd. listened to all this different music, chilled with alison and jesse and others...
3rd. was gonna go to univ. workshop. but apparently it was moved.. so me,mylonas and alison went to mcD's
4th. calc. we had a quiz. and before i could finish the first question. i fell asleep. i felt like i was out for an hour, and i wake up, and everybody's still doin it. so i rush and try and finish it, which i do. but i have no idea what to do. i blanked out and i just didnt know what i was doin!! I FAILED ANOTHER CALC QUIZ!!! I HATE CALC AND I DONT GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg. so so far, 68% on my calc test, did poorly on my data test, getting it back on monday and today failed a calc quiz. great!
5th. english. mr. lamb came and taught us about analyzing films. i had him in gr.9, he was such a goiod teacher, a nice guy, funny jokes, and he knows about everything in the media. i wouldnt be surprised if he watched the OC, cuz he knows napoleon dynamite, american pie, he even watches spongebob squarepants, and is a big fan. yeah man. crazy dude. but he also gave good marks too. wayyyy better than mondrow.
afterschool. waited for mr. torok for my fixed geeetar, but it was locked up in the lil storagey-kind of room, and apparently, things in there ALWAYS get stolen, so im HOPING my geetar gets FIXED and it doesnt get STOLEN!@
took the bus with gary, fell asleep. got home. jammed with eyen, and practiced the youth sunday songs and some p&p songs. thanx eyen!!! then kinda wasted time mixed with eating dinner, teen choice awards and survivor. i REALLY NEED TO GET SOME WORK DONE.. omg. school is KILLING me. i hate school. the sad thing, is that it's only like 3 courses that are killing me. calc, data and now english... omg.

tgif. :( come sooner. weekend, stay as long as possible. PLEASE.
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i was soo hungry. so i went to mcD's and i got some mcnuggets and fries. and i just finished em... mmmmmmm soooooooooooooooo goood!!!! now to finish my english!!!!!!

grace like rain...

great song...
ok well last nite.. as i was studying for data.. i fell asleep. and i still had soo many more things to study for..but i was just like.."ok, i really need sleep. im just gonna not worry, leave it all to God, pray about it, and try my best"
so in terms of studying..i didnt exactly finish.. but my test..well it was sorta hard.. again, im not confident in what i got..cuz some questions i got, some i sorta played around with it, and put something. so i dont know if i'll get part marks or soemthin. i hope i do well! thnx for your prayers..
strings. practiced that stupid quartet again! nothing against the quartet. it;s just EVERY class. mr. torok makes ONLY our quartet practice this contemporary piece!!! ahh. on a good note. alina's playing cello now! she's the really really good gr.11 cellist girl. (she's kinda better than gordon, our gr. 12 cello player..) she slowly got kicked off of cello and she was like our quartet-conductor. but today, with some pressure from me, we got her playing agaiN! yay
lunch.. oh man. everybody was working soo hard on the theory assignmnet due the NEXT period. and i didnt get it. so while everybody's working hard on this assignment..im sitting there..not knowing how to do any of it. after a long time, i start doin it, and i start getting it really fast. then we hand it in, in class..and we have a quiz. and u know what? i finished it soo fast. i thot something was wrong with me. igor. who was sitting beside me, knows this theory/chord/harmony stuff really well. was still doing it, and i was like chillaxing for like 15 mins!! but thank God. we got it back..and i got 27/30!!! which is extremely good. since i just learned the stuff the period before (lunch) lol
5th. we watched a video andw e had a supply teacher. it was reallllly boring. and msot of us just all slept.
afterschool i got MAD extra help in calculus. it was helpful. i understand it more. but i didnt get enough time to actually practice and drill on questions, so i dont think im ready for this calc quiz. plz pray for me that i study hard at lunch! and that i do ok on it.

lol. i told my dad "what do u think of Laurier?" cuz as i said in a previous post. it seems pretty cool. he laffed at me, and said it's not even a good school... :( there goes the only univ. i know about! and was interested in! lol. God, PLZ help me and guide me so i will know what i wanna do, and give me a school to go to next year! not neccesarily good, or bad school, but just where u want me to go to! ok im out. yay tomoro's thursday, then after that it's friday!!!

the ghost of you...

is that already a name of another one of my posts? anywaze. im soooo dead.
today. on time for first period. didnt really do anything.
2nd. tried to do calc/data. didnt get anything done
3rd. same thing. and lunch
4th. calc. OMG. we had this lesson about limits and discontinuity, and i have no idea what this all is. it's all another language to m. it goes in one ear and out the other SOOO fast. and i have a quiz on this stuff on thursday!!! (goin to extra help afterschool tomoro...)
5th. we get all these assignments. gotta read 3 chapters of the great gatsby by friday, (and im already packed with other homework, studying AND i have a hard time reading) and i hafta choose ANOTHER book by thursday. and then read it super super fast. the great gatsby has to be done by nov. 3!!!! omg. and this other book a couple weeks after that! and then not only that. but i get this assignment where u hafta be in partners. u pick your topic from a hat and there's 2, so someone else will have the same as u.... there's this scary girl in my class. she looks so angry all the time. her eyebrows are mad looking.. she smokes and she hangs out with the gangsters and stuff, and she's just overall, really scary, appearance-wise. i said as a joke. if she's my partner, i'll shoot myself! next thing u know. SHE'S MY PARTNER!! :@ and :'( omggggg. mylonas and tony were alffing at me soo hard, and to make thiongs even worse, they're partners with each other!!!!!! omg! i know i should be more compassionate...but omg. im just swamped with stress and work and studying. and im partners with this person i didnt want to be with. probably a challenge put infront of me to face. as well. probably a lesson for me, cuz ive been saying she';s scary everytime i see her. but still !!!!! why her?! coulda been ANYBODY! there was 28 OTHER ppl i coulda been partners with. but the person i said, if i got her i'd shoot myself. i get her! wat are the chances. wow. plz pray for me that i do well on this data management test tomoro, finish my harmony assignment, learn calculus, do the homework and study hard for the test on thursday, and pray that i dont die on the way.

ghost of you is a good song to listen to, when ur just soo angry, moody, depressed and stressed...
of i forgot to add.... later on. at about 7:00 we had worship pratcice at the church. and it was just a great time to worship and get away from school stuff. plz keep reminding me that worship is a time JUST for God all about God and nothing else.. cuz sometimes i'll be worrying about what chords to play... or strumming..or just the musicality. but plz remind me it's all about God. and to just enjoy myself in worship. oh by the way. we had a good convo today..not a good/deep one. but a convo! yayyyyyyyyyyy we all good :) it's a good sign... start of a new era.........

the darkside...

today started pretty bad.
went to bed at like 3, and today i slept in soo late. i slept in PAST the time im SUPPOSED to leave my house... but somehow i got to school only 40 mins late...waiot, actually that's pretty late.. but we werent doing anything important. it was just a work period. so whatever
strings. im not the weakest link in my quartet anymore! im just saying. i got better. that's all.
theory... well pretty much 90% of the class "went to attend the Wilfrid Laurier presentation".. even tho like 20 ppl left the class, only like 10 of us went to the presentation. but to be honest, Laurier seems pretty good. esp. since it'sa a good business school. not too hard to get into. it's the only school i know about now. so i like it.
mod west test. went pretty well. i only got 3 wrong. and my mark was really good., compared the rest of the class (no offense) but i was happy

went to jane and finch. ghetto area. cuz there was this huge fight.. yeah right. no. my mom had a singing recital. lol. so me and my sister went to watch and met up with my dad and aunt. some chinese ppl are really stupid/annoying. like they dont turn off cell phones during a singing recital. and u can hear EVERYTHING they're saying. and everyone's angry at them and saying SHHHHH. but they dont shut up. or they talk to one another loudly... or just stupid stuff like that/ sooo annoying. i felt bad for so many of the performers.. but yeah. got there at like 7:15 and ended about 9:45... then for some reason we went to yonge and sheppard for some chinese.

OH MAN! it was raining soo hard, and i was driving super fast down highway 400 and 401 all the way to yonge. and it was sooo crazy. like it's really dark. there's soo much rain. and there's alotta mist coming from the cars infront.. and it's just soo dangerous driving... but i survived. lol i made this crazy turn where i changed like 4 lanes all in one turn and this is before the road splits in 2. lol that was pretty scary. cuz all of a sudden, i see i hafta skip so many lanes.. but thank God im alive. anywaze, then we had some pretty good dumplings and stuff. but it went on until like 11:00. then my sis drove me home, while my rents went to drop off my aunt downtown.

my sister's soo cool. like she's tellin me to be more independent and stuff. i feel so bad. cuz since she was young she already got a job, so she's always been workingand paying for everything herself, her car, phone bills, rent, everything. she does everything herself. soo much respect for her... anywaze yeah, she's like tellin me i should just start really learning stuff. and ask questions and stuff. cuz she said she's not with her bf anymore. well now, ex. and im assuming it was cuz he was TOOO dependent, cuz that's what it seemed like she was trying to say. but wow. they went out for like 5 years +..i dont even know. but yeah. she's soo independent and smart and stuff. her husband's gonna be a lucky guy.

anywaze that's pretty much all i hafta say. i didnt do homework at all today... well i dont really have any. but i just hope i'll be ready for my data test on wednesday. thanx for reading.. laters.

i shouldnt be posting, nor be online!

hahaa ok, i really gotta make this super quick. cuz it's 10:35pm, and i got alotta stuff to do, AND gotta sleep early too.
today . sunday. sat with chraysee and uhmanduh. wow i always thot guys had shorter attention spans! (sorry) but im clearly wrong. by FAR. in the gym.... chilled wit ada, eyen, tori, nix for a bit, janey, and some others.. sunday school. at first..it went kinda slowly. cuz ppl were talking and it was hard to do stuff. well i was talking too, but when i ahd to read. it was hard concentrating, i feel bad for the quiet ppl, who were trying to focus. anywze. it ended off pretty good. and it sorta is starting to seem interesting. defending your faith. got lunch at T&T with eyen, gary, boses, tori, and grace and then we had an smt meeting. talked bout snowcamp and stuff. im getting excited for it, actually. cuz i went 2 years ago, and i missed the most recent one... i was soooooooooooo sad i missed last year's one. but yeah. my last and second snowcamp is coming up. soo excited. then we had worship practice. it was a lot better. we kinda got thru a lot more songs. we have more structure and more ideas to make each song unique and stuff. wow, but i really suck at guitar! i dont know that many chords, and my strumming sux! eyen was very kind in offering to help me out this week. and just jam for practice. by the way, i LUV playing electric geetar. first time today, it was soooo awesome. i luv it. i want one! :) anywaze, we got a lot more done and accomplished. i just think we should practice more than just tuesday and friday! i, personally, think we shoulda chose songs that every single person knows. like there will be no hesistation and anything. well that's asking for a lot, but..well yeah. left at like 5:30, my mom picked me up, went to go pick up my grandma, then we came home for dinner, then ive been doin mad work. please pray for me that i will get my work done, and right. and that i do well on my mod west test, finish my theory assignment, and be ready for my data test on wednesday. Lord plz help me NOT to stress or worry. matthew 6:34. dont worry for tomoro will worry about itself, each day has enough trouble of its own... ok thanx a lot. hope i'll be ok!!

it's sattaday

i luv the weekends. woke up at like 1:00pm, talked on the phone wit jeSoo. ate lunch and watched the and1 mixtape 7. and it's soo cool that nixon's in the mixtape. while skip2 my lou is crossing up the professor at the ACC, nix and isaac are sitting at the baseline, first row watching. so crazy. anywaze finally got a haircut, and put on my new contacts.. i look very different. i think..... anywaze. got home. called up rayaz and we went to goldhawk to play some ball. first we played 2 on 2, then 3 on 3 then 4 on 4. but half the guys were so high they couldnt catch the ball. so most of the time the 4 on 4...it was like 3 on 2. i played good tho, so im happy. 20 assists, 5 points, 10 boards, 15 blocks. well..im exagerrating, just a little.. but the proportion of the stats is about right :) came home.. talked to manda for a bit, then i made such a good dinner. baked some pizza and fried some chicken, shrimp, potato, eggs, cheese and rice, and put on like garlic powder and some other stuff. it was sooooooooooooooo good. and i watched an old episode of smallville..but i havent seen it. so there were these 2 brothers, and one died, then ressurected, then died again. and his eyes were bleeding. kinda disgusting. and then watched the notic 2, which is actually really crazy too. vancouver ballers. but they realllllllllly good. and im just gonna start my homework now. tons of data, study for mod west test, mad theory/harmony work, & calculizzle. ohhhhhhhhh man. i shoulda done this earlier............soooooo dead

somethings will never change...

*changes* tupac. ok so recap of thursday....ALL BORING. sooo tired. orch rehearsal at 7:30am. oh yeah that morning i felt soooooo sick. tip of advice, dont drink like 5 HUGE cups of chocolate milk the night before!!! 1st. tech. pretty good. got some good marks and feedback on my assignment, and quiz. yay. and he loves my ideas for my new assignment. ok we picked numbers and each number has a different business/company so we gotta create a logo, business card, street sign and a bag for this one company/business. mine;s broken heart cafe lol. what a perfect....fit. eh? yeah ive got all these crazy/good ideas.. like i have a silouette of a coffee cup and the steam is shaped into a broken heart. ohh..too many things to name.. whatever.. soo boring without OC opn thursdays..

skip to friday. today! soo freezing in the mornings and im already wearing soo many layers! 2nd. lunch. i went with ayana to civic center for lunch. met up with the guys. and miya and ian bought apple pie and didnt want anymore, so they gave it to me. then we went to buy lunch. then sat with charmaine, scout, caity and kristen. and had a funny but weird convo about diets and vegetarians and different types of eaters and such.... then we went back to school and played some football. that was fun. then carried onto my 3rd. spare or my 2nd lunch! and then spent most of this period playing handball with the music majors.

skip to afterschool. i bus home. and i get home at 5:00. and im supposed to be at church at 5 to practice for youth sunday. anywaze i get there at like 5:20 and luckily not that many ppl were there, and they didnt start yet. sooo yeah but my bad.. too be honest, we didnt accomplish that much. it's a lil chaotic. well sound wise. but that was just cuz our guitars werent plugged in today. but i couldnt hear anything!!!!song-wise. i dunno. seems like everybody isnt familiar with everything. including me. i dont really know the songs.... and that kinda restricts the passion for playing some worship songs... that sounds bad. but yeah. i hope all goes well. we get enuff practice time. we all will know the youth sunday songs, and will work well together and play the best we can for God.

after this. i went to go get my new contacts...which surprisingly didnt take that long at all. then i drove to mcdonalds and got fillet of fish. i miss mcDs...havent eaten there in SOOO long. then got to church. ate. chilled. talked. had kyrios worship. amy came today. which was really cool. glad u came. hope u had fun at kyrios! the program was straight talk. 1st we split up guys/girls and asked questions/talk/discussion on whatever... i have alotta questions!! i asked sooo many! but i got some good stuff out of it. then we merged back guys and girls. and we had a joined discussion and stuff. and again i had alotta questions to ask. a lot of mine were asked in the discussion questions.. does that make sense? anywaze seemed like alotta the answers and stuff were helpful to me, applied to me, and some were directed to me. but i learned a lot. i found this all relaly helpful, and i wanted it to go on longer... but lack of time. i got alot of questions answered and stuff,. but still more! hopefully we'll plan another one soon.

then after this. mike, nadine and some of the genesis ppl came in. and OMG. we see a big rock on nadine;s finger! mike and nadine are engaged. i actually thot it was a joke. didnt believe it for the longest time. but wow yeah. congrats Mikadine!!!!! spud's happy!! then after SOOOOO long of loitering and talking and chilling, we go to pho and there i had a nice long chat with natalie, about stuff, ppl, yeah........... no problems, nat! u did the same for me, and u helped me out today too. so thanx to u too! when it comes to friends that dont act like friends... like... you dont need them as friends if they're going to be like that... if nothing...just let it go...they're not worth it, and it's their loss. nat, i hope things turn out for the best.

then after that mike and nadine met up with nadine's mom outside of pho to talk about the engagement. then later, we all loiter outside and talk for the longest time. mike, nadine, nat, nate, chris, eunice, nix, derek, sam, eyen..then we just keep loitering and talking till me, eyen, sam, derek and nix are just talking about soo many different things.. lol. good times. then it's about 12:40ish, so me and eyen drive home, and we're driving soooooooooooo slowly and taking up the only 2 lanes on mcniccoll. so there's like all these cars behind us, following soooo closely!! LOL. hahaa anywaze yeah. that's pretty much my long 2 days....

by the way... just to let u know....if i dont shut my mouth and i keep talking....it usually means i like you and i feeel very comfortable talking to you. and love your friendship. cuz i get sooo annoying and talkative sometimes. i feeel bad for ppl sometimes. that they hafta listen to me. but yeah. i think it's cuz my parents dont really talk talk to me, and my bro moved out and my sis is barely ever home, or around cuz she;s always working. so i think it's the lack of talking at home. that i hafta confide in all of you. sooo i really appreciate you all, and thank you for listening to me all those COUNTLESS times. and givin me advice and encouragement and what not. and i just love u guys to death. so me talking a lot and being in your face all the time = love for you! hahaha hope that equation makes sense to you. it does to me! the restriction on the variable is x cannot = 0. that's all....

eye.n.basketball.

i and basketball.
eye.n. basketball.
eyen, basketball.
today..school was sooooooooooo boring. soo boring, it's just a blur, and a faint memory...
1st. data. soo confusing and soo much work. 2nd. strings. boring. 3rd. lunch. boring. 4th. theory.even more boring. 5th. modwest. learned some stuff about the renaissance. so glad i went to gr/italy. that helped me a lot too. and also enjoying all the great stuff from history, and actually witnessing/being there is helpful and makes it all more interesting. but school all boring.

but the fun part was when i went to church. the gym was dark and nobdy was there yet. so i popped into eyen's office, and eyen was actually there.. as opposed to the past 14 days, when it was dark and the blinds were up. and nobody was there! but HE WAS THERE and we chilled. i misssss eyen soooooooooo much sooooooooooo glad ur backkk. played some ball. then he went to prayer meeting. then shot around a bit, then chris came, and we played 1 on 1. played horse, shot around, even played bump. with 2 players! and then lol we were like working on our hops. lol soooo sad how i can rarely skim the foam of the backboard.. and he's shorter than me and can get backboard. lol and then we even had a long jump competetion. lol.

annywaze after a long time, eyen finally comes back and we have a long convo about his wedding and honeymoon, and life, and school and everything.. then we play some more ball which was fun. i played a bit better! yayyyyy. and then we were leaving, me and eyen chilled and talked some more while we were sitting in our cars... and then went home and msned/blogged/emailed and what not. oh man.n school is SUCH a drag. i just dont like going to it day in and day out. it's soo draining. esp. with the lack of sleeep. and such. oh man. i need a break from school. like a good 2 weeks would be nice. i'll keep it short. i'll end it here. turrrah! (from art attack)

the oc + smallville = SAUSAGE FACTORY!?!?

yeah... there's this tv show on YTV called "Sausage Factory" yeah... very....wrong name....
but yeah.. guess what?
ok...seth cohen's on that show, and ALSO "kiwi" raise your voice/ "chilli" from the OC is on that show too. and the funny thing is that on the OC, chilli is supposed to be the equivalent of seth cohen in public school. but now they're no the same show.
and ALSO they both made guest appearances on smallville! yeah man.. oh and also... "alicia" from smallville, clark's wifey. the girl who's obsessed with clark and can teleport... she was on this sausage factory show too. ahhhhhhhhhh so crazy. sooo many ppl, but all the same shows.
such a pointless post. i swear!
yep. so this morning., i surprisingly got to school on time, despite lack of sleep.
1st. boring. then after 1st. i called up eyen. but SORRY i woke up sandra :( forgot u guys were still jetlagged! sorry. but it was great talkin to u...longest 14 days EVER
2nd. lunch, listened to music with alison
3rd. attempted to study calculus
4th. calc test....hope i did ok. i have no idea what im gonna get, im not confident in any of my answers. welll except for 1. thnx everybody for prayin for me.
5th. boring englishh. those ppl dont shut up! and then mondrow tells them to stop going off topic, then she goes on a whole discussion about desperate housewives..and omg. we dont get anything done in that class....
talked to jeSoooooooo on la phone..and i dunno. afterschool. went by soo fast.. msned. fell asleep infront of the computer, tv, dinner, msn, dishes, garbage, msn, blog, raptors, i dunnoo...

if i have a data test tomoro. im SOOOOOOOOOO dead. im praying that i dont! anywaze..
W E L C O M E B A C K S E Y E N D R A !!!!

*edit* AHHHHHHHH....mathdoing monday

omgoodness. it's about 3:19am, right now. yeah. just a lil late. um..im a little frreakin out..ok so here's the deal. im supposed to "create a calculus test" based on ch. 1 and 2. covering the 4 sections of knowledge/understanding, application, communication, and thinking/inquiry. anywaze after SOOOO long..i finally finished. i printed it out, the marking scheme is perfect. and all. and im packing my stuff up, and i realize i missed the whole part about inequalities!!!!

im kinda trying not to panic. but yeah. im missing some parts. and also, i didnt know how to insert a division sign and a couple other stuff on microsoft word. so the format and alyout is really ugly! but at the moment, i dont really care. cuz it;s now 3:22am.

yeah. soo PLEASE pray for me, that this assignment goes well. and my mark will be ok. and ALSO plz pray that i will be ready for this calc test tomoro..well TODAY.. plz pray that i do ok, and that my studying was well absorbed into my head..and i'll just do ok!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh...

SEyendra's backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk todayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

special RANDOM shoutouts to: mat, jaNICE, jeSo, chraysoooo, uhmanduhhhh, helen, and tori :)
dont ask why. lol. it's 3:26, and im not exactly thinking right now.
oh, and jeSooo, keep reading!!!! there's a lot of posts to read. but DO IT!!! lol. unknown reward!! hahahahahahahahahahaa. my life in a huge episode of a drama-tv series/movie called, "The OrangeVille" hahaha orange. just like my layout! nice. SPOT's the word! lol jks.

poll.. glasses or contacts (for me, obviously)

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh stupid math. forget thanx giving. it's math DOING monday. oh man! all day ive been doin math and i still got a mountain of it left!

thnxgiving dinner was really good. my bro, his wife, my aunt, my grandma, and my sis' really good friend and her baby came. filling dinner. really good. but yeah

ok poll....******************************
glasses or contacts!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

the first and the last sunday

what a sunday... at the same time not much happened, but then so much happened.

first sunday with my contacts...nobody believed me when i said i got contacts...most ppl were like "yo, what happened to your glasses".gee thanx. lol. but yeah my left contact fell out DURING service, but thankfully rachel was there, so i didnt feel as weird putting in back in DURING service. tori had like a lil solo in one of the songs..it was so good!

chilled at the gym for awhile. lol sry guys. u guys convinced me to go play football...but then i dunno. i just couldnt. sry. BELIEVE ME. i wanted to go... but yeah...saw soo many faces i havent seen in a while. jimmy, josh, tiff, nix, amanda, nathan. wow....anywaze, there wasnt a sunday school today, we just got a handout...which i havent looked at yet... and i had some funny convos wit uhmanduh and chrayseee. lol. the counter is really green!!!!! im not joking!

soo i chilled wit amy and jessica so. who is 'so' cool. lol...it was like the first time i really talked to amy or jessica. it was cool. they're pretty funny... hahahahahaha amy, i swear looks identical to helen.. nixon was right! hahahaha and jess' iPod has stolen songs from my iPod. i know u copied me! just cuz i have good songs...u hafta go and copy what i have. it was fun. u gotta come to kyrios!! amy too. u gotta go SOMEWHERE. try kyrios and bridletrail, and if u want even mcbc wit jess, but do soemthin!

anywaze it was ryan's last sunday before he leaves to newport. or new something.. something near boston.... so i tried to chill with him as much as possible, so just kinda chilled with him while we were waiting for ada, and while i was talking to jess and amy...then iwent to pho for lunch with ryan and ada, good times... cant believe we wont see u anymore, and when we do, it'll only be for a bit! i cant believe ur leaving! we had daycamp, t3c, basic, ccsa banquet, seyendra's wedding, and everything inbetween...gonna miss u man. cuz no matter what was happening, u'd ALWAYS be sooo encouraging and nice. ur soooooooo nice to everyone, literally EVERYONE. and u'd always invite me to go eat, or to drive me, or fishing or homerun derby's or whatever. thanx man. have a good time down there doin your fishin stuff. take care man. we all gonna be missin u! keep doin what ur doin!

today was also the last sunday eyen will be missing!!! he's coming back in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!

the outreach

eyyyy..
today. woke up at 9:30am. went to garage sale at the church with my dad to give my mom a coat and so i could get the car from her...then went home, had a really good breakfast. contacts on, SOOO fast.meet at church.off to markham salvation army. moved a lot of stuff, sorted a lotta stuff, packed a lotta stuff and cleaned a lotta windows!!!! which was surprisngly really fun. we went around the whole church and literally cleaned ALLLLLLL the windows that existed on the building.... dont ask WHY..we just wanted to. it was actually fun. shut up. lol.

then when we finally finish, she lets us play basketball in the gym... sooo sad. the net was SOOOO low..and guess what>? that's right...nooo hops.. i could only squeeze in some dunks..., so pathetic. anywaze we played alotta fun games of bump. but soo many ppl dont know how to play properly. the reason they call it "bump" is cuz u bump the other person's basketball, with your OWN basketball. not with hands and such. boaz! rolled mine all the way down...but then i blocked josh from behind with my basketball...hahahhaa.

then when after..we decide to go picklebarrel. actually tori decides.. but we go. and i keep asking them. pickle barrel, right? they say yeah. then im like markville, right? yeah. near the back, right? yeah. ok. so then we go.. me, gary, boaz and richard go in, and see them so we folow them in...and they're like, "u should tell them ur sitting here, we only asked for a table for 3" WHAT THE- [jaNICE...lol wendy's!], but seriously. omgosh. and then i also realized i didnt have any money...and neither did any of the guys...so we left and went to the foodcourt, where we bought a couple tacos. then we drove boaz home, dropped gary at the church and drove richard home,

then i went home, but i saw that the BRE were playing football. so i played for a bit. almost got a touchdown on the very first play. lol. anywaze, then ryan's dad asks if we can help move their trailor to the side of the house, so we do it, it takes sooo much effort, strength, and everything, we CANT get it to the side of the house, cuz it's like on a lil hill, and just there's this lil fence and anywaze, so we take maybe about 20 mins of just planning how to move it. then we like try and take out the fences, then after SOOOOOOOOOOO long and SOOOOOOOO many different times of moving it. and by the way, it's MAD heavy. anywaze, then the mom comes out and they talk and stuff, then they start coming up with all these other plans... then after ALL of this.... ryan's just like HONESTLY, WHAT WAS WRONG WITH WHERE IT WAS IN THE FIRST PLACE, ON THE DRIVEWAY!... so then after all of this, we put it BACK onto the garage, where it originally was!!! lol. we werent mad... but like we wasted soooo much time, and ended up not accomplishing anything. hahahahaa

anywaze they decide toplay some street hockey before the leaf game starts, so we play. it was really fun. havent played streethockey in so long, cuz the BRE are all mostly out of town for university, and they came back for the weekend. so that was fun, i got a hat trick.

came home...and i honestly dont know what i did, but i wasted the whole night, up until now. 11:34pm, not doing homework.. stupid procrastination and stupid leafs game, which we lsot, and stupid everything.. im so pro at procrastinating.. i hate it. anywaze im gonna try and do some calc before i sleep.

supposed highlight of my week...

fridays are usually what i look forward to in a week. but this friday definitely sucked.

fortunately, today i got to school at 8:40am, and i was sooo early that nobody i knew was around and i had nothing to do...so i wandered around then i fount ian and nat. but still it was soo early and boring and nothing to do.
1st. supply teacher..MAD data work/studying..esp for the weekend
2nd. boring strings. ensembles work....i nailed my part finally.
3rd. lunch w/ ayana, mylonas, igor and some others...
4th. theory.....soooooooooooooooooooooo boring and that chord stuff is sooo hard/gay/stupid!!!
5th. mod west. renaissance. kinda boring...
afterschool. wendy's wit gibson and mylonas. then long SLEEPY bus ride home...
tv.dinner.tv.contacts.kyrios.
watched school of rock. but i saw it already and i had mad homework/studying to do.. so i just went into the hall and did some data management. THANK YOU RACHEL for helpin me out in sooooo many questions i was stuck on. thnx!!!! yeah i have soooooooooooooo much to do this weekend...it's insane and completely unfair.
who does that tho? seriously? ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULDNT DO IT! seriously man.........geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez........ things like this are sooo frustrating. it's not hard to do! i dont understand it at all.............

*special shoutouts to tori. thank you toriii. preciate it sooo much. and soorrrryyy!!!!

this weekend already sucks. soooooooooooooo much work / studying to do it's unbelievable...

wake me up when november comes...

today sucked too... and what's with everyone?? everyone's sooooooooo busy!!!!!!! cuz :( i have 0 comments onmy previous post :( yeah but EVERYONE"S super busy./ what'swith this timing. soo bored... im enjoying my hasbrowns and my pizza pocket............mmmmmm

today got late start. school starts at 10:20. on time today!!! 1st. boring. 2nd. some funny convos about tv and music and movies and such. 3rd. crazy huge game of hand ball. 4th. mad boring calculus, and we got mad work to do and ive got mad studying to do too. and 5th. english. we got MAD SHEETS. some about homework, some about feild trip, some about..i dunno. we just got like a whole stack of sheets. soooo much to do.. but then on contrarily....these past days i havent touched my school stuff afterschool.. cuz nothing's really DUE...it's all just studying and such... nothing DUE the next day. but next week and this long weekend is gonna be killler. soooo much to doo..sooo little time!!!!! omg.
and to top that all off.. there wasnt any OC today! the thing i look forward to all day, and it doesnt even happen. OC doesnt come back till NOVEMBER!!!! wake me up when november comes!!! cuz of stupid baseball. baseball is on fox, so u gotta push back oc till nov. so gay... this week sux! at least tomoro's friday and kyrios!

wednesday

how unoriginal... let's se how fast i can blog about my day.

7:30am orch. rehearsal. data. supply teacher. did a lil work and slept. strings. boring. torok singles me out and i really suck. so embarassing. cuz ive got 3 other amazing string players and they all in gr.11. 3rd. lunch. boring. 4th. theory. boring. slept. 5th. mod west. boring. stupid video. got home. msn'ed and stuff. checked raps stuff. stupid rob babcock for trading rafer alston. put on contacts for soo long. went to ball. only 7 ppl went. 3 on 3s. we need ppl to go! came home. msn'ed, emails, blog, and whatnot. sooooooooooo boring.

such a boring tuesday

late for tech. 1st. tech was boring. just watched some ppl's presentations. 2nd. lunch. boring. 3. lunch again. but also sleep. 4. calculus. handed in my poster..i got some pretty good feedback of my ad-spoof-poster.
which says "Enjoy Calculus" in the Cocacola font.. then i wrote dont drink and derive, as if it was the slogan..then on the bottom i have the adidas ad. instead of IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING. i have IMPOSSIBLE = 0, then instead of the adidas logo, i have a bar graph, with 3 bars then it says ADDING, instead of ADIDAS. then i have a nike ad. the swoosh has a parabola and it says JUST SOLVE IT. then lastly, i have the McDonalds Golden arhces as upside down parabolas and it says Mathematics. i'm lovin it! pretty good feeedback. but quiz..i think i did decently ok... then boring ..studying.... 5th. engish. boring. supply teacher.. just did a boring hand out. got home. put on contacts for half an hour! went to play basketball. really boring.. cuz the ppl at goldhawk sucked and kept playing so wouldnt let us play. then afterwards.. they wouldnt start a new game.. they'd just play stupid 1 on 1s or 2 on 2s. soo gay., wasted a whole like hour there.
such a boring day. today sux

OH and rafer alston got traded!! wat the... my fave raptor, gone, for some dude named mike james. dude, we had a streetball legend on the toronto raptors. he was the flashiness of the franchise! rob babcock is on some serious crack.

beef..

this morning..my mom woke me up at 7:40...cuz i fell asleep last nite AS i was gonna set my alarms!! i woke up and my glasses were still on, the lights were still on, my phone was near me and it was a push of a button away from being set and yeah...i got up late..but my mom helped me wit food and drove me a couple bus stops away...so that saved me like a good 20-30mins. thank the Lord. and i wasnt late!!

i finally got my guidance apt. so i got the form i need to drop my world issues. lunch was funny. ayana was eating a box of handcream ..i wont say the other terms....soooo wrong...soo funny she also had a banana too and then i dipped it into the yogurt...mad funny. she lost her appetite. lol.

skip 2 afterschool...apparently there was gonna be a fight, so as me, mylonas, igor and chapface are walking down the street...i swear like 100 ppl are coming behind us, so we decided to see what's happening, they go into that lil walkway part on the side the street in a "secluded" area..and for a long time nothing happens, but then soon enough there's like 3 fights goin on at the same time..i think it was some of the asians vs. some persians.. the persian kids got beaten up pretty badly, they were pretty cut up and scratched and bleeding, cuz they walked by me sooo i saw their face close up. i didnt see the asians tho... then we left just before the cops came.. anywaze just bussed home and decided to walk all the way instead of take another bus up for 3 stops.. cuz anywaze the street was blocked off for some reason.. did some more thinking. im gonna walk that way more often...i just hope im not super busy...

yeah about that. i dont know where it stands. dont know if the msg was for me...seems like it was.. well im sorry. if that's what u wanna hear. what am i supposed to say? i didnt choose to make it this complicated.. and lastly, this is in the past.. there's not really anything i can do about it. so if u wish it never happened, then i guess im sorry u met me? i dunno. it's not exactly my fault. is it my fault that u are the way u are..and i am the way i am? if u wanted to get rid of me, u shoulda told me, i woulda rather preciated that then i dunno. just be straight up with me, none a this pretending, playing around, mixed msgs stuff. just tell me straight up. that's all i ask.

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on a side note...
Post 5 Weird and Random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Also leave a post on their blog to let these people know.

1. i play the violin and viola, and i have a stupid violin lesson today... i hate lessons.

2. i think im a lot like seth cohen and ryan atwood...but more seth-like, but still SOME ryan atwood.

3. i hate reading..i cant stand it. (novels i mean) but if i were to choose, my fave book is The Catcher in the Rye, which i like to call Ketchup in the Eye.

4. i have this problem with waking up...even with 4 alarms goin off,. i still manage to sleep in and then be late. my mind just keeps tellin me that the faster u turn off the alarm sound, u can go back to a nice warm place, and that waking up is evil!

5. i have a.d.d.

TAG LIST: tori, manda, tracy, jaNICE,and helen, and alison, if ur reading this, do this too! ur all taggged.

unifair, swiss, hmv, smallville

university fair today....
i went with lee. sry dude for the subway..stuff..NEVER count on me being on time dude. sry again man. mad/unexpected construction..but no excuses. my bad.

anywaze.. got to uni fair...mad walking! soo many escalators and everything...
it was pretty packed... i tried to get as much free stuff as i could...but i barely got anything...
ryerson bags, ryerson keychain, york bag, magnets, king's u pen, pen/highlighter, rbc highlighter, western keychain,smokefree nalgene bottle, hersheyMAX5 bar (dont know what THAT is exactly)
derek a.k.a. moses got a usb key chain on friday for askingquestions about engineering..and i DID that and i didnt get one :(
but it took a really short time..me and lee were done by like 1:30ish and we got there at like 12...so it went pretty fast..but even after all of that i still have no idea what i wanna do!!! soo many things to read about each school now!!! ugh.....................

anywaze later..we went to swiss chalet.....foood was soooooooooo good.. lol we had such a random convo.. we talked about like saturday morning cartoons, reboot, digimon, mini claude, matthew (i cant believe u dont know tiny kong from donkey kong 64 on nintendo 64!!!! gosh!!!) lol, art in gr.6, dragonballz, simpsons, i cant even rmb everything... foood was sooo good. havent had swiss in so long.

then we chilled infront of roy thomson hall for the longest time trying to call ppl to do soemthing..but EVERYbody was gone or busy... so we walked up simcoe and found a movie crew filming a movie..apparently it's called "a recipe for a perfect christmas" or somethin, but we only saw trailers and pylons... then we walked down queen st. crazy potheads out and about over there... we went to footlocker...then we went to HMV...and we listened to all these cds for such a long time..i fell asleep listening to the killers and jack johnson... we then pretty much went back to the subway..and i fell asleep cuz i was soo tired..and lee learned a lot about york and ryerson.

then i bussed home...fell asleep again..missed my stop. so got off at the next one...walked all the way to the stop i was supposed to get off at and i realized i didnt even get a transfer...so i had to walk past 4 more bus stops...but i was just listening to good/sad songs on my iPod and just did soooooooo much thinking....and i just didnt wanna go home..so i dont think ive ever walked that slowly home before...ever.. yeah did soo much thinking that the walking wasnt that much at all.. got home..and i was flippin channels on tv, and smallville season premiere was just starting at i watched it!!!!! sooo good......terrible acting...but soooo good!!! then flipped more channe;s and found that an older episode of smallville was on ytv, but ive never seen it before...and it was about pete street racing..(it looked like scenes from the fast and the furious) but it ended sad, cuz pete came to apologize to clark, then he asks to play a game of basketball, like old times...but clark's like "no...not this time." and drops the ball and walks away..and pete's all sad and he starts to walk away soon too...

anywaze not much else to say.... thnx for readin.

oc, tgif, kyrios, pho

the title looks funny. all really non-normal words....if u look at em..
anywaze...just to summarize really quickly...cuz at the moment, it's 2:15am

thursday...boring...the oc was amazing... crazy..charlotte freaky lady going to rehab just to try and meet some rich patient and get money off of them...then also freaky taylor and the dean making out...and "what a great way to END THE SUMMER" ouch..... burned summer again! hate em...

friday...came 10 mins early for school!!!!!!!!!!! never happened ever this whole year!!! my best record before that was 5 mins early.....1st...presentation..hope it went well..the teacher kinda liked it..kinda seemed like he didnt like it...mixed msgs. at times i thot it was good, others thot he hated my presentation... 2nd. lunch. nothing. just chilled wit allyson, lee and others...i dont know what's up with some ppl..but this week they really changed...and for the worse...dont u agree, lee? 3rd.lunch again...hung out with chiao and went thru my iPod and just talked...she's a cool girl....didnt get ANY homework done ....4th. got some help in calculus...since it was like a free-workingperiod...got some work done and learned some stuff too!......5th..there was no 5th...well actually me and mylonas went to check and there WERE ppl in the english class.... but we left anywaze..mondrow DID say that she wont teach since everyone would be at the uni fair...supposedly... anywaze just went home early and stuff then went to go pick up jen

drove to kyrios.. worship practice and stuff...worst worship ever-on my part.... first song, jaNICE's song..ALWAYS was good..but we had to do acapella for alotta the songs..cuz tori and me couldnt play em....i felt terrible... i sux'd so much on geetar!!! aiya....soooo unprepared!! sorry kyrios!!! biblestudy...really really quiet....someof the girls are kinda chatty! amanda and tracy!! sooo much chatter from u 2...well sometimes the othertimes u guys dont speak up for discussion!! anywaze.. then later mike-special presentation..andw e watched slideshow for eyen and sandra's wedding banquet...sooo awesome i love those guys..and i miss em sooooo much!!! 10 more days!!!

then after the program...i dunno..i just wasnt feeelin good. i was feelin all moody again. thnx chraysee for talking wiff me and cheering me up. preciate that soo much. anywaze.. then after aLOTTA loitering..we went to pho..and at our table of 8..we ordered like 3 springrolls and like 3 drinks! lol. chris is a punk with a banana on his car!! hahahahahaa u jerk. got home. msn'd, talkj with tori on the phone and figure out what's happenin tomoro for uni-fair....anywaze it's 2:26am. im dead. anywaze nite.