the ghost of you...

is that already a name of another one of my posts? anywaze. im soooo dead.
today. on time for first period. didnt really do anything.
2nd. tried to do calc/data. didnt get anything done
3rd. same thing. and lunch
4th. calc. OMG. we had this lesson about limits and discontinuity, and i have no idea what this all is. it's all another language to m. it goes in one ear and out the other SOOO fast. and i have a quiz on this stuff on thursday!!! (goin to extra help afterschool tomoro...)
5th. we get all these assignments. gotta read 3 chapters of the great gatsby by friday, (and im already packed with other homework, studying AND i have a hard time reading) and i hafta choose ANOTHER book by thursday. and then read it super super fast. the great gatsby has to be done by nov. 3!!!! omg. and this other book a couple weeks after that! and then not only that. but i get this assignment where u hafta be in partners. u pick your topic from a hat and there's 2, so someone else will have the same as u.... there's this scary girl in my class. she looks so angry all the time. her eyebrows are mad looking.. she smokes and she hangs out with the gangsters and stuff, and she's just overall, really scary, appearance-wise. i said as a joke. if she's my partner, i'll shoot myself! next thing u know. SHE'S MY PARTNER!! :@ and :'( omggggg. mylonas and tony were alffing at me soo hard, and to make thiongs even worse, they're partners with each other!!!!!! omg! i know i should be more compassionate...but omg. im just swamped with stress and work and studying. and im partners with this person i didnt want to be with. probably a challenge put infront of me to face. as well. probably a lesson for me, cuz ive been saying she';s scary everytime i see her. but still !!!!! why her?! coulda been ANYBODY! there was 28 OTHER ppl i coulda been partners with. but the person i said, if i got her i'd shoot myself. i get her! wat are the chances. wow. plz pray for me that i do well on this data management test tomoro, finish my harmony assignment, learn calculus, do the homework and study hard for the test on thursday, and pray that i dont die on the way.

ghost of you is a good song to listen to, when ur just soo angry, moody, depressed and stressed...
of i forgot to add.... later on. at about 7:00 we had worship pratcice at the church. and it was just a great time to worship and get away from school stuff. plz keep reminding me that worship is a time JUST for God all about God and nothing else.. cuz sometimes i'll be worrying about what chords to play... or strumming..or just the musicality. but plz remind me it's all about God. and to just enjoy myself in worship. oh by the way. we had a good convo today..not a good/deep one. but a convo! yayyyyyyyyyyy we all good :) it's a good sign... start of a new era.........