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oh man..thank you to everyone that prayed for me and helped me out and stuff.. omgoodness.. God is amazing... well i didnt understand what was gonna happen..but everything worked out..and He provided for me. if u dont know what im talkin about. read the previous post!

first i got on my bus pretty late..and even worse there was mad traffic jammed up at mccowan!! i had to go all the way to yonge!!! soo i was on a bus 45 mins longer than usual...i just slept...
so i got to school at 9:30. and class starts at 8:55. but lucklily my teacher was nice about it. and even NICER. was that the quiz was moved to MONDAY!! that's right!!! not tomoro, not friday, but MONDAY!!!! GOD IS GREAT. ok i reallly rreally gootta study and learn this stuff for monday!!! anyone wanna help me with data/calc this weekend?!

thank you again everybody..for your help and prayers..it means soo much. thanx.
eyen: i miss u !!! 12 more days..

burn // everything *edit* dying....

hey thnx everybody for all your comments...
stupid spammers....

let it goo now.. just gotta let it burn, alright?

i miss eyen :( // 13 more days!

today sucked. nothing special. just boring and tiring.
thnx everybody for everything
*everything* - fefe dobson.

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im dying........data and calc together are killing me!!! i try... i try and do homework..i try to pay attention to lessons...i try not to worry!! i try..but i cannot do!!!! this math is killing me..it takes forever to do. if i can even DO some of the questions.. tomoro i have a quiz and im trying to do practice questions and i cant get any!!!!!
i just read matthew 6:33-34:
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
but it's still hard..... i NEED God to help me... i nneeeed you here!! :'(
math is killing me... jaNICE, where do u work exactly..like location and everything.. im thinking of getting help. cuz this math is not getting into my brain... :'(!!!!!
IM DYING.............

rainy days

poo. i hate rainy days. they always start out dark, cold and gloomy AND wet. soo i got outta bed late cuz it was just soo dark outside.. crap breakfast cuz i didnt have time to make anything good. wet and cold and miserable outside. wait awhile for the bus which was crowded but i got on luckily. then my next bus i had to get on took a while and everybody was in the shelter and i didnt wanna open up my umbrella again..so i just stood in the rain...slowly getting soaked...got on the bus...styarts raining harder...and i can see some floodiness on some streets...and then mad traffic...got to the subway at 9:15! and then 1 min into walking into the subway station. there was a blackout. compltely pitch black in the station..kinda freakey..but it was really short..and luckily the subway trains were still fine.. anywaze got to school soo late and all my classes sucked today. boring and tiring all put together. the gayest part is afterschool it was nice and drying up and a lil bit of sun. WHY? wat's the point of that? it's been such a miserable day...i had to walk in the rain to school. during lunch back and forth. and my way home is dry.... if ur gonna rain and make ppl miserable, might as well rain all day. im not even making any sense. alright. put on my contacts like half an hour ago...sooo hard to put in still! and just talkin to chraysooo at the moment. soo much math to do! notice i said "math" and not calc or data! that means a lot of BOTH. i hate homework.

in the end...

in the end - linkin park video on your right...
sooo dead.
so much data and calc homework and still not done.
im falling behind! help me, please! i pray that i just stop procrastinating, and i just get my work done and really absorb all of this stuff...help me do well on these quizes this week. take away all this stress and all these worries....

im trading my sorrows, im trading my pain, im laying them down for the joy of the Lord.

today.. church. lol i started the clap and cheering for Ian and Sandra's wedding announcement!! lol. sunday school. learned a lot of good stuff bout leading a biblestudy. to be honest im pretty excited about leading bible study. doesnt seem that bad...im looking forward to it. i think i'd do alright. ate a goood lunch wit my rents came home. tried to do homework but fell asleep, then couldnt focus on doing work... then family dinner at home wit bro and his wife and wit my sis and my grandma. it's been awhile! then later..thnx chraysoo. lol. did some homework. mathew helped mea bit! thanx mat. but im dead. got soo much to do still!! 2 math quizes this week!! help me survive this week!!! i cant wait till friday and kyrios!!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!

the dearly beloved...

another episode title from OC season 1, season finale!! when julie and caleb get married! but that's another story...

wow soo much to talk about...
friday. boring school.... then we got KYRIOS!! yay. highlight of my weekdays-week! we had intro to smallgroups. BUT before that!! i was trying on contacts next door at the T&T plaza....took soo long to put them in! my eyes were soo sore afterwards and the next day too! but it's pretty easy to take em out..compared to putting them in, which is mad hard!! anywaze, this lasted soo long..until about 7:15 then i went to shoppers to get some stuff for Kyrios.
kyrios. we had smallgroups. to be completely honest. im not entirely happy.. well technically we didnt even start. so yeah, i should give it time before i say anything..but i dont really talk to anybody in my group, except for jen. dont really have any friends in that group... and the counselors i talk to least? ....yeah..for me and jen it's gonna be....a....very odd year od smallgroups? i really hope things work out to be good. i hope me and jen really get to give smallgroups a chance..and just know that it IS ministry...it's not just hanging out.. and it's not all about knowing everybody in the group and being good friends with everybody..but maybe this is all part of the plan. that we reach out to ppl we dont usually talk to....

saturday. k im gonna just skip a long to today!!! YAY. eyen and sandra's wedding!!! a.k.a SEyendra!!!!! (my invention!) congrats guys!!!! this morning..woke up at around 8:30ish...but still chinesily mananged to get there at 10am and late! but yeah mike gave us some walkie talkies, so it was cool. we were like bouncers...
mike did a lotta work so big ups to mike for all the behind the scene running around and what not. twas ALL GOOD. onto the big day. eyen and sandra's wedding. congrats again. african themed wedding!!




yep! this is our sanctuary, with a tree in the middle!! supposed to recreate a scene/moment that the 2 had in their trip to kenya. i think it was! the wedding was awesome. just soooo amazing. glad i could be a lil part of it!!! [pics courtesy of tiff's blog page:)] lol.

well afternoon. went to tori's. had lunch. and watched "first daughter" some chickflick bout katie holmes being the president's daughter and stuff... soooooooooooo cheesy...and i attempted to do homework, but couldnt resist the temptation of napoleon dynamite, which we watched a bit of, before we had to go to the banquet and reception to help out with prep and stuff. got there soo late:( it was traffic!

funny story: ok soo rachel's driving us all to dinner and im like wat's the fastest uve ever driven..and rach is like 130km/h, and chun;'s like 80, and kim's like i dont remember, and then tori;s like 50km/h and then rachel's like: your bike can go that fast!?!?!? lol!!! mad jokes.. ownage! lol. and kim said, "so mastermind is like ikea....but mastermind?" lol. kim's another CB. anywaze

banquet was fun... food was good. many laffs and memories!!! EYEN!!!!! ON THE LEFT CHEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. im never washing that cheek EVER!!! lol. [Luke 6:29 If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also.] lol. room on the right side still! lol mad jokes!! crazy youth pastor... then there was the game with the animals and "geeeeee-rraaAffFFFFFFFFEE!!!!!" lol. and the coffeehouse pic with the wig!!!!! and REALLY crazy ska-ing a.k.a. skanking skills..u guys are all crazy!!!!!! luv u eyen! have the best honeymoon a guy named eyen and a girl named sandra could have together!! gonna miss u these 2 weeks man!!!! wat me gonna do? who be me?! take cares kouya! tata-eh! :)

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on a side note: everyone seems to have soo much drama these days..and for once i dont! soo yeah. imma pray for all u guys.. keep the faith strong! keep your head up. everythin's gonna be alright! FROG it. k? lates

the o.c.

such a good show. good episode today.. wow it got pretty intense. like jimmy was fully getting beaten up.. oh man..soo brutal and painful....owwww.. but im sure it woulda looked even worse when they showed him the next day saying goodbye to marissa.
wow and marissa and ryan!!!! aiya.....
that stupid dean. i hate him such a jerk. and him and taylor keep messing things up! but at least seth and summer are still together. wow everyone's "together". sandy and kirsten back together, seth and summer, ryan and marissa, marissa and her mom. it was good in the end:)

as for my day...i was late again!!!! ok when i get to the bus stop tehre's already like 5 ppl lined up and there's no bus in sight so i RAN down past 2 bus stops...sooooooooo far.. and then when i get there., i still hafta wait for a bus. and i came late!!!!!!!! late everyday!!!!! but i dont think mr. raemisch took attendence cuz it was picture day., and everybody kept leaving to get their pictures taken. WOW thank God! ok..we're supposed to bring our timetable for I.D. and i thot i had everything in my pocket, but i didnt!! and the line to get your picture done was SOOOOOOOO long..and i was panicking cuz..i dont wanna hafta go get it and re line up..oh man.i dont know HOW..only God knows..but somehow the registration let me in, since i knew my student number and stuff.. omgoodness. thank YOU!!
and everything else was boring. ok. gonna sleep sup[er early today so i can get rest AND hopefully get to school on TIME tomoro!!! yay SOPPS assembly!!

che guevara

wasup. i posted a new one yesterday...but the whole internet and blogger was messed..so it didnt load it.!!

i posted a lot too!!! ugh i dont wanna repeat everything!!!
anywaze pretty much everything lately, has been quite boring...

today. late for 1st agaiN!!!!!! 3rd time this week!!! (late everyday this week)
2nd. didnt really do anything in strings..we played handball and came to class late..he didnt care..and then..kinda just played around a bit..
3rd. lunch. didnt get any homework done. we talked about xmen, x2, spiderman and stuff
4th. sooooooooooooo boring..
5th. we learned about the cuban revolution was it? cuban communism. and che guevara and fidel castro. it was pretty interesting.. u know that guy with the beard and the long hair and a hat that's on a lotta t-shirts?! that's che guevara.... it's pretty interesting..a young revolutionist guy.

afterschool. mylonas and gibson armsed out justin. they said they were going northbound to finch today..so he went southbound by himself, then when the southbound train left, they went back to go south without justin. so arms but soo funny.

and now..im just soo hungry...talking to chris, chraysee and uhmanda...
and chris is lazy and wont do anything that requires physical labour..e.i. basketball.
i gotta finish up my calculus soo that i can do SOMETHING today!

les miserables and smile like you mean it

wadup. i couldnt get to my blogger page!! i dont know why..but it just keeps loading till it says cannot find your page...

anywaze...
today was really boring when i think back to it. so i think this post should be rather short

manda gave me a wake up call..and i left my house at a good time.. but then i missed the bus! so i ran for so long down 2 stops.. from mcniccoll all the way to finch..and when i get there the NEXT bus doesnt show up for soo long..!!! AND there was traffic at bayview so i was LATE AGAIn!!!! luckily i had a supply teacher, but STILL. im gonna have soooooo many lates on my report!!
2nd. - boring lunch..
3rd. - lunch . went to civic. kinda boring too
4th. calculus. REALLY boring. and hard
5th. english..EVEN MORE BORING..stupid essays.....

afterschool was better..we played handball for so long. and we had so many jokes. lol. lee just RANDOMLY singing shakira-"wherever, whenever" song.. lol!!!!! i'll be here and u'll be near!!!! LOL.
and then subwayed home. got my glasses fixed . finally. contacts coming soon!!! yay.
and then just got home, msn. dinner. blog. msn.

OHHHH and i was listening to the LES MIS cds i have...my FAMILY has.. les mis is sooo good
i also started getting into jack johnson, muse, and the killers today!
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT- good song..ALSO it was played in the OC:)

alright laters!

the shape of things to come *edit* kyrios

*edit*
well when i left my blog at the bottom of this post..i was hungry. so i went to eat dinner. then i went to pick up jen, then we went to shoppers to buy candy and lollipops for kyrios prizes..then we went to church..and there i just did some errands and stuff. then me and marie had to cut up this big kyrios banner into puzzle pieces. lol no group actually FINISHED putting it together!!! ahhhhh well. the painting kinda took a while..took a long time to clean up and move on..so i felt bad for the ppl that were done and bored.. and then there wasnt much time for cranium so we kinda modified it, so there was only 2 teams and just 1 person from each team comes up to do what the card says... i think we coulda prepared a bit better.. cuz it was moving a lil slow ..and some ppl were bored. i tried to get new ppl up..by specifying what kinda ppl to go up..like someone from gr.9 or 10. or 11. or counsellor. but yeah... aw man.. i hate when i screw up. i SO couldve done better overall for this program..but ..i dunno.. it just couldve went a lil better. but thank you to everyone that helped out and everyone that offered to help. it's greatly appreciated. good job jen for sharing and leading.. just keep doin it, and u can only go up from here. afterwards. chris and nix came to visit. and then after alotta loitering, we went to pho.
funny story: hahahahaa ok..soo when we're loitering at church. krystal comes, driving her big red truck and chris comes from the side and bangs on her window and starts yelling and she gets freaked out she slams on the breaks...and chris feels soo proud that he scared her...so when we get to pho..i get there a lil earlier..and so he comes in.parks in his spot..so i run up from behind and then i do the same thing..i start banging on the window and yelling in a low voice "YO, GET OUT THE CAR. GIMME YOUR MONEY!!!" and his eyes are HUGE cuz he's so scared and he moves over to jen, who's in the passenger seat. hahahaha he was SOO scared. and u know it chris;) got em good!!!!!
anywaze..chill at pho..get some food.. and then we loiter outside and we see pretty much most of team LUMAS coming anywaze..loiter somemore, then i just went home.


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that's the title for yesterday's episode...

when i think back to yesterday..it was all very boring..
thursday
1st. i was just barely on time for school. boring
2nd. lunch..listening to allyson (music buddy #2)'s iPod, which surprised me cuz she had Hillsongs..not united..but had some united stuff anywaze..the red cd stuff..so that was really cool.
3rd. haha lunch AGAIN :) i think i was doin some homework and i just fell asleep in the hall.
4th. calc. i just dont get it!
5th. english. tony and mylonas kept talking and i kept getting in trouble! but boring class. she talks soo much.
played some basketball..

watched the OC..oh man i hate that dean. wat a jerk.. expells marissa then ..ryan and marissas are on the feris wheel. again. "ur getting better at this" (referring to ryan's fear of heights) "yeah.3rd time's a charm" .just when ryan and marissa are having a moment..the ferris wheel stops and the dean tells marissa to leave. and ryan says she's not even on school property, but he drags marissa out, and she's in pain, so ryan says leave her a lone, then punches the dean right in the face. then he says "i was gonna work really hard to get u outta this school, but u did it all on your own, and i didnt even hafta do anything...get outta here..ur both expelled"
i mean at least they're expelled TOGETHER. like they have each other.. but still. it's really sad.. and seth and summer cant do anything about it cuz they're up in the air on that ferris wheel looking back :(

friday. the rainy day.. woke up late. and the bus was really slow. so i came to school even later.. but mr. raemisch was nice about it. nice guy..
2nd..lunch with allyson, lee, ayana and ppl. then me, lee and yanyms(ayana) went to civic center to get food.. lol we had a huge argument about that stupid umbrella. lol came back and chilled with allyson, and she stayed with me for lunch the next period. cuz i have double lunch. and she had these funny magnets and her and emily kept making all these funny sentences.. lol. mylonas fell asleep, lee went off somewhere, allyson was sleeping and i was writing letters to spacey and tracy for their belated bdays!
4th. calc. did a quiz. didnt understand any of it. im not even joking . i think i got 0/10.
5th. we did some evaluation, where we read this essay and response and what not..i fell asleep during the thing. lol. i kept dropping things on the floor cuz i fell asleep. anywaze.

im just really hungry right now. so im gonna get some food..then gotta pick up jen, then go with her to buy prizes for tonites program. then off to kyrios! yayyyyyyyyyy i love fridays!!!!!!

worst morning ever...*edit* today sux

read below for my worst morning story...
today just sux. started off bad, and it's ending bad too...

crappy morning..not enough sleep, tired like crazy, worrying about being late, and turns out im more than an hour early for school, crappy boring classes all day...not to mention tired all day too... get home, dont get any work done.. then i go with eyen to look at a guy's house who's givin away some furniture. and turns out there isnt anything good, and i felt bad for dragging eyen all the way there.. and then i also feel bad for the guy, cuz he's like an old man, that really wants to get rid of this stuff..and it's really not bad stuff, but just i dunno..i feel bad for the guy... went to ball and it was raining, and at first nobody was there.. then a couple ppl came, but there was only 8 of us, and we couldnt even play a full game. and i know it's not ur fault chris, but chris i dunno wat happened, but i felt something hit my face really hard..my glasses goes flying, and my nose is bloody. and then when i go to the washroom and see what happened to my glasses, it breaks! wtf. then i had to wear my old crappy old glasses where i cant see anything, and i was playing bad too. before and after switching glasses...i get home, and im just not in the mood to do stupid calculus. i hate calculus, and i just cant get into the working mode. and im feeling all moody and pms-y. really mad sad and just out of it right now.. im also having second thots about some ppl. i dunno. right now, i feel like going to a beach. maybe the one on crete, and just think... or u know in the oc, when marissa just goes to one of those lifeguard buildings, and just sits there and thinks and stares at the ocean...i just wanna doo that. just all the time in the world!
i hate school. i hate how im not getting any sleep, i hate how im not doing any work. i hate how there's homework to do. i hate having to wake up so dam early and still getting to school late, i hate all of this. i hate doing essays, and reading about them, i hate doing work in class, i hate learning, i hate listeningto lectures and lessons. i hate school. geeeeeez. i just want time to think!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask for?!

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ok..so here it goes...

7:20am Crap!!! slept in....rushed to make breakfast and lunch...brush teeth, get ready,...leave the house at 8:00am which is just a lil late..get to the bus stop...wait for 15 mins.. then a bus comes...but doesnt stop. cuz it's packed...then...wait another 2 mins..then another bus comes...ALSO doesnt stop!!! also packed...omg...wait another 10 mins..then this 3rd bus comes and it's packed too, but stops for us anywaze...then i get on, and
there's a middle aged blond lady and some middle aged brown guy. so this brown and blond are yelling and arguing with the bus driver. here's the whole convo...
*walk on the bus*
blonde: WE'RE NOT SARDINES!!!!! WHY ARE U PICKING THESE PEOPLE UP!
brown: the bus is full already!!!
blonde: we're human beings! not sardines, there's no room for these people..
bus driver: just doin my job...i pick people up...
*then this other brown guy gets on the bus. let's call him brown2*
brown2: im just trying to get to work, stop yelling. calm down
brown: nooo. you shouldnt be on the bus, it's packed.
blonde: (to the bus driver) im gonna report you! im gonna report your ass, you cant do this!!
*then the browns get into a fight, then the blonde comes in and they have an argument about racism and ffreedom of speech..*

and these ppl are swearing and yelling really loudly..and this is on a really crowded bus! i dont know how they got into an argument about being a racist and freedom of speech and stuff... soo much yelling and arguing..the bus driver was nice and calm about it tho... it's funny how i only needed to go down 2 stops, but it was a LONG 2 stops..then i finally get to finch and take the finch bus and i get on at 8:33am, which is really late. i should BE on that bus by 8:00am, anywaze this whole time, im thinking to myself how late im gonna be.. then i finally get to the subway station at around 9:15 and i walk to empress...and i see all these ppl from school. and im thinking why is everyone skipping 1st period. then im about to walk thru the doors that lead towards school. then it hits me. IT'S A LATE START. SCHOOL STARTS AT 10:20 AND IT WAS 9:15!
so tehre i am soooo mad and angry at myself. why couldnt i remember. i coulda got more sleep...i didnt hafta go thru all of that this morning...so after just thinking...i went to school early, found terrence and jessica so i just did some homework with them...at least i got to do homework that was due 1st period..and at least i was on time for schooL!? i hate mornings and school :(

the rest of my day isnt worth talking about. now to do homework, possibly meet up with eyen for a bit, then off to church for basketball...

sooo tired.

oh man. im trying to sleep early. yesterday i got off msn at 11:18pm then showered and then read devos and stuff..went till 12:00..then i couldnt sleep till likle 1:45am..cuz i was just thinkin of.. yeah i couldnt sleep!!! and then this morning..felt like i just went to sleep, then 2 mins later, my alarm clock rings and tells me to wake up. felt like i went to sleep at 6:40 and woke up at 6:45am..

i was actually on time to school. it's been SOOO long since iver heard O Canada! im always late lol!

data..im starting to get now..
strings..im getting it.but ti's soo embarassing and intimidating when my string ensemble is all 1 year younger than me, and AMAZING. and there i am, i havent played viola in like 1 year, and i suck like crap. soo it's such a bad feeeling. i feel bad for them having ME in their group.
theory..i fell asleep in a practice room. while we're all trying to compose
history..we did this test which was just a really deep personal list of questions.. like if u were to meet 2 ppl dead (and then alive) (so 4 ppl in total) and language, time, safety, and money and etc was not an issue, who would u wanna meet. then if u had one wish and u cant wish for mutliple or more or future wishes..what would u wish for...and it really gets u thinking!

i came home..did some devos..then i just fell asleep for like 2 hours.. and then when i woke up, my mom called me for dinner and i was sooooo sleepy.. i talked to chraysee while eating..then i had vio lesson. found out my teacher used to play guitar too!! lol spada... shut up lee. dont make fun. then did corinthians devos with chraysee. good girl. proud of ya. then calculus, then talked to ALISON and JANICE.
alison, thnx for talkin to me, and venting. i enjoyed it. it really wasnt venting.. that was pretty weak venting. if u ask me. but yeha some good talkjs.. reminds me of some old times we useta talk and have long good convos.. i miss u, ur soo busy now. busy/ cold hearted girl. lol "im cold hearted..*cake**ranibow*sunshine*" lol
janice. thanx for talkin to me, always askin how im doin, makin sure im ok, and stuff. ur soo awesome. i hope all is well with your studies too. beat those geeks! lol. hope u can help me figure this calc out. it's killing me!!!

I HATE CALCULUS.
DIE CALCULUS DIE.
THE CALCULUS THE.

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Sideshow Bob: "Die Bart Die, is German for The BArt, The"
Woman from jury: "Surely a man that speaks German, cant be evil!"

new layout

ok. it's late. im gonna keep this short.

due to comments regarding sore eyes, ive put a new layout which is actually an old one from one of my old aa pages.

anywaze, today..slept in till 2, which was soo nice. did some devos, cleaned up my room a bit, made a huge lunch of pizza, chicken fingers and fish sticks, watched wild wild west and jet li movie fong sai yuk, which apparently tracy doesnt know. then eyen calls me up and we go to his place to chill a bit first, then go to STC for a bit. then afterwards, we go to team Oompa Loompas, starring, sandra, kenric, hungling, and many others..some from t3c. just watching their game, makes me miss softball. the whole time i was craving to play. ask eyen. chilled a bit more at his place and played some nba2k5. then went home, played some basketball with some friends, then went inside, ate dinner and watched godzilla and some of waynes world 2. (such a great movie, by the way) soo hilarious. then..to msning and for a long time editing my layout. and that was my day. see. short.

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a politcal commercial done by homer simpson...

Homer: "...and there are trustworthy people, like me,.... milhouse's dad, ...gil, ....bumblebee man, ...and that guy that always goes, 'mmmmmYEEEEEeeeeSSSSssssss' "

beginnin senior year, the rainy day and oc

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
ok let's see..gotta start blogging since tuesday.

tuesday... first day of school. but it was like 12:30 - 3:20. umm...it was alright..tech-raemischa remembers me, and is really nice..but boring sometimes... worldissues-gonna drop it. it's the most diverse class ever. it has the korean gangsters, the skaters, the rockers, some potheads, the fobs, the plastics and then me. and just the class itself., i dont need it, nor is it even interesting. even my parents gave me permission to drop it (like it is hot.) calc-teacher, ms.lee seems really nice. and i got kalun, madison, giacomo, and caileigh..gotta pull up my math marks this year.

wednesday- umm..first FULL day of school. data-i got jesse, alex.simone, brenna, kaitlin. they'll help me for sure! great! (sarcasm) teacher seems pretty nice. but i mean. her name is "ms. fingerhut" awww man....like..who comes up with last names, how did that evolve? sooo wrong. then i got strings- torok again, the class is nice and small. there's like 4 gr.11s. and like 7 gr.12s..im not counting..im just randomly coming up with a suitable number..im prolly wrong tho. lol fell asleep. we listened to some song that sounded exactly like zeitgesit, but just more wintery, since it's called "nunavut" ..thenw e got lunch then theory-mr. torok again..that class is boring..well every year it is... aww man not another year of theory!!! last we got history. "mod west" if u will. modern western history? is it called? the class itself is good. got lee, igor, miya, jasen, riho, and ppl. and it's wayy more interesting than world issues. good class to end off a day with. AFTERSCHOOL. we went to wendy's and me, allyson, lee, gordon, mylonas just chilled and talked and talked about old times at greece and italy, and just stuff. lol gary comes and buys me wendy;s then when he leaves later, he's like "im taking the subway.." and im like "im taking the internet" and he's like "ooh...ok, then cya tomoro.."
then i go home..forgot what i did...ohh i played basketball on my driveway a bit, then i talked to chraysee, then i headed off to ball at church. umm..it's funny how, everyone's like "oh ur baptized, U pray." then this time they said to me, "ur newly baptized. U pray" lol..anywaze i think i did well there. maaannnnn i suck at ball. turnovers turnovers turnovers..and i dunno.. i mean like..im tryning to have fun. but when ppl get mad or whatever. (seems like some do) like what do u want me to do? i dont know basketball...i dont know when to cut or what the heck to do. never played on no ball team, dont know no strategies or plays or whatever, what do u expect from me. anywaze..played like CRAPP until the last game. where i played .....better. we werent even that talented a team either.,..but i guess that's what u call "teamwork"? mad assists that game. i kept feeding the ball to this girl on the team, and she kept knocking them down.. and yeah. the last game was fun. went to wendy's ...got home. talked to chraysee again. and she wouldnt let me sleep. kept talking to me late, and told me if i leave she wouldnt be my friend! heheheheh :)

thursday- school. omgoodness. ok i woke up to the cloudiest, rainiest weather ever, i wake up and im wondering why it's still soo dark and just it started off soo miserably..and i slept in a tiny bit. the rainy day (women) the name of the episode in the oc, with the spiderman kiss. good episode. anywaze..when i leave my house.. it's pouring like MAD. it's raining soo heavily..and soo cold and dark. and im out for like 2 mins and im like drenched already...soo miserable..i wait like 15 mins for my first bus, which when i get on, it's packed like crazy...then i wait another 15 mins for my next bus...,and im just soo wet, miserable and LATE. but im soo tired i just falll asleep. i wake up, and guess what, it's bright and it's like drying up, and it stopped raining and the sun comes up. i get to school late. watever, later on..i look out the window and it;s dry, sunny and HOT> wat the heck!!?!?!?!!? im in track pants cuz i thot it;'d be rainy and cold all day!!!!! at lunch...i hgave double period lunch, since im planning on dropping world issues, making my lunch stacked with 2 spares. anywaze, 1st lunch i chilled with half the music majors and allyson..and we had some good laffs..second lunch i chilled with lee and the rest of the 2nd half. and other ppl. and we have the funniest convo about tv shows we grew up watching. like x-men, spiderman, beasties, reboot, samarai pizza cats, captain PLANET!! and etc.. some funny jokes and stuff. lol anywaze..
then nothing interesting happened..calc.english.wendy's(not fun) .subway.bus.home. guitar.dinner.washdishes.shower. then we get to the O.C.! soooooooo relieved they finally told us what happened..felt like soo long since marissa shot trey. anywaze. marissa's such an awesome girlfriend.. does anything and everything to help out ryan. and i hate julie cooper nichol. stupid hot mom. then i love summer as always. and just u know when all 4 go to that island or beach or whatever and the sailing trip. and yeah. the fantastic four :) i hate being single sometimes. lol. yeah soo trey helps his brother out by telling the truth. and everything's all good. yay. love the oc. and they're all MY age. all starting senior year!!! i AM seth cohen! anywaze.

i gotta finish this up fast. so chraysee can read this. what happened to spacey? she like died.. she's never around.. busy with school i guess! aiya. anywaze.. that's my blog. jo tao and ZAI JiENN. chraysee. we need one for u now.
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peter's delivering lois;' sister's baby.
lois: Come on, PUSH! PUSH!
peter: im pushing, but the baby wont go back in
lois: NO not you! you pull!!!

summer roberts a.k.a. summer breeze

oooooohhhhh man.
summer is ending and school is starting. wat the gay.

this sumemr was sooo amazing. best summer ever.

my goal for this summer was to: get a job. and get some cash money. that didnt even happen!
omgoodness...this summer has been awesome tho. im glad i didnt have a job. cuz i wouldve missed out on all the chilling and fun...
plenty of times juyst chillin and playin ball at goldhawk...goin to friend's houses...chillin wit kyrios and SMT and eyen and BASIC. kyrios was fun over the summer, jaffray's amazing race, where my team won!!!! watchjed soo many movies and finished watching all of oc 1 and 2. finished a whole fun season of BASIC, baptism, helped eyen with new house and painting and such. SMT camping, BRIDLETOWNE daycamp, went to kensington and downtown, went to tori's place a lot. met tracy. had a great dinner at chun's, learned how to play the GEEETAR. and had smt come over for meeting and bbq and potluck dinner. wow if it doesnt sound like much,, just add in a whole bunch of more times of chilling and hanging out and having fun andstuff.. oh man..gonna miss it sooo much.

and now gay school is starting..dont wanna hafta deal with teachers, homework, tests, quizes, exams, traveling on the bus for an hour back AND then another hour for my ride home... waking up mad early to just be late again..being an outcast sometimes from circles of friends ands tuff..oh i just hate school.

but then on the contrary...this is my last year..and im gonna miss it.. i dont wanna deal with change and going to a new school, not knowing anyone, living a new life, studying harder and more REAL things, i dont want any of that. im gonna miss the comforts of this age, and highschool and kyrios, where it's really comfortable and i know ppl. omgoodness, even tho i hate school, i do gotta still cherish it before i leave. dang man. i dont wanna leave the ppl i know and start a new life away from everybody..ughhhhhhh...

for the grads and counselors leaving and reading this. just thanx for all you've done. really. kyrios has been a blast with u guys helping out and serving and just making it what it is today. for all the laffs and tears and ups and fears (had to make it rhyme) and the memories and just about everything else. thanx and reallly gonna miss u guys not havin u around (as much, to some of u still in town) thanx.

this is my shortest blog in a while.. well i gotta go sleep. ACTUALLY have school tomoro. bye summer. see u on thursday, at 8pm...oc season 3 yay. gonna hate this year and at the same time love it.

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Peter: "Omg, my cereal's trying to tell me something. it says , '00ooooo0o0o0o' "
Brian: "Peter.....those are cheerios."

markvlle.chunspotluck.geetar.downtown.tori's

Super Intendent Chalmers: i have a question for you, 'you're crazy!'

yep. if u ever need to buy shoes or just 'athletic apparel'. dont go to markville. athlete's world is weak. sportchek is empty, footlocker is as small as a closet and champs doesnt even exist. but their old navy is alright. lol. yeah i pretty much only got some stuff from old navy. boo urns. gonna wait till spring for shoes. aw man. unlesss....

checked out best buy. oc season2 dvds is 60+ bucks. wow. anywaze. got home. made lasagna. eyen picked me up. chun's. they watched some LOTR parodies by MTV. his backyard's nice. like eyen's wedding-pix.kinda nice. i hope my backyard is alright too, eyen. um..food was really good. there was sushi. courtesy janice. really good, but cheap but good pizza-clinton, fried wonton-jen, flip food-mike, salad-mat, potatoesalad-mares, and etc. it was all really good. oh and chun-pot roast. or roast pork. or something... food good. coincidentally we sat guy's outside picnic tables, girls inside. but it was funny we had a convo about fave sayings.. then we talked about simpsons then on how RANDOM family guy is. but also how hilarious it is. lol the chicken....gave me an expired coupon! there's like a 20 min fight scene between peter and a chicken. ANYWAZE... i learned how to play the geeeeeetar. first eyen taught me a bunch of chords..then mike some and janice taught me what else can i do. so exciting. i got home and practiced for HOURS. my fingers hurt. but i can play stuff!! hahahaha.

this morning, soo early. had to go wit my parents and my aunt to clean up my grandparents' old apartment all the way downtown. soo much cleaning and stuff. it's pretty disgusting. picture this: a good solid 6 or 7 years of pigeons coming every so often and pooing. EVERYWHERE. oh man.. like feathers and fluff and bird crap everywhere and SOO MUCH of it too...and we had to move all this stuff.. clear the balcony. omgoodness. i was told we'd be done by lunch time but we finished at almost 4:30. holy.

after soo long.. got home. got ready. and drove to tori's. i get there, and it's like a couple of us kyrios, then like pacific mall. im exaggeratting. but still. i think they were playing like poker for pushups? really gay. they're very loud and annoying. kinda like me, but i dont know em. one of themwas the oliver james look alike guy. didnt like these ppl. no offense... watched simpsons..then kinda got boring. quick. so i asked jen to go play basketball outside. then we decided to wait for chris and nix to come (in 15 mins) then we'd go. but lol we never ended up going. anywaze. all of china left, and then seemed like soo little ppl were left. good. more ppl i know. chris and nix eventually come and we just kinda hang out in the living room with the piano and geetar and stuff.. then chris messes up my phone. i dont know what he does. but then my sim card is blocked and pin card # isnt working and all this stuff. it wasnt pretty. stupid gay chris. we had dinner and then we watched raise your voice. that';s right. i saw that movie again at tori's! omgoodness. such a terrible movie. but hilary's in it..
chris and nix eventually leave. then after that. we start watching napoleon dynamite, and before anything really good starts happening, nobody wants to watch it. so they change it, and im bored

so i grab guitar from upstairs and bring it down and start playing it at the back of the basement. so i can hear myself. im starting to get what else can i do. down better. yay. and yeah. geetaring is getting better..starting to remember them chords and stuff. eventually tori and then jen come and join me and we're just playing, singing and talking. then jon.n.c, mathew and pablo leave. and then we start watching mean girls..but then just some bad timing and some wrong words and such and then we had to leave. i just drove jen home and then i came home and just msn'd and blogged and such. and here i am.....once again...im torn into pieces..lol (my version: here i come....and again, etc... lol manda)

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Stewie: [speaking to a Latina maid]
"So which of the Latin countries are you from: the one with the civil war, the one with the cocaine, or the one with the fancy hats?"

hbd.trace. viet.lunch. mastermind. MTV VMA's

yep...wow it's sept. 2nd already.

happybdaytracyyy.

anywaze about my day. eyen gives me a call in the bright and early morning, around 12 ish i think. and me, helen, chun and eyen go grab lunch at a viet place at midland and finch. (next to the placewhere the FAGS used to be!) (ol inside joke. mike meant to say FLAGS..if uve read previous posts...)
lunch was good. we had some good conversation and some good noodles and stuff. then we drove helen home then we went to marketvillage. and just looked at some stuff.. then we headed to mastermind near markville. that place is fun..well yeah. it's like a kids-toys-gadgets-fun stuff/games kinda place. anywaze...then dropped chun home. then eyen drove me home but then we stayed on my drive way and talked for a while.. yeah i think im gonna drop it. move forward. it's for the best.

anywaze..got home..and i just checked everybody's blogs...wow i have soo much time these days i checke evryone's blogs like 3 times a day/ EVERYONE ON THE FRIEND'S LIST OVER HERE ON THE RIGHT..yep that's right..im soo bored that when i check my blog, which is like 3 or 4 times a day, i just go thru all my friends' blogs too. yep. im just that seth coheny! and pathetic. anywaze...

cleaned up my room a bit...watched some tv, finally saw an award show..saw VMA's the mtv video music awards. finally. it was weird..the r.kelly performance... he didnt sing!!! he just ....wat's it called again?? the thing that britney spears did...LIPSING? LIPSINK? what is it..anywaze he didnt even really sing.... soo retarded.. it was pretty good. P.Diddy had a cool shirt at the end. that says "God is the Greatest!" i wanna get that. anywaze... oh i was also watching that new show prison break. which i think is cool. except this episode was kinda freaky. there were these freaky gay white guys..that are soo creepy. and then there was this crazy fight between the black guys and the white guys,,soo much stabbing and such. and at the end,, they threaten to cut the main guy's toes off, and it's obviously to be continued..but they make the cut sound anywaze...it's disgusting....

i watched some old OC episodes..which really makes me excited for this season. i love summer! and the fantastic 4 all being together all happy.. next thursday. season premiere. i think. according to amanda.
anywaze..that's about it. ppl gotta start learning how to blog regularly and have long legit posts too! good bloggers include: tiff, janice (sometimes) and mathew(sometimes...just needs to be more regularly)

PPL BLOG! according to helen..it's good for the brain.... somethin about constructing sentences and stuff from thoughts.. lol.


Stewie Griffin: "I thought this was 'Kids say the darndest things', NOT old black comdians dont know when to shut up!"

from the inside...

(song from linkin park, by the way)

anywaze..today...i didnt really do that much, but it feels like a long day...

k in the morning, i SWEAR amanda called me..but i guess she didnt..ok who called me at 10:19am today!?
i woke up at like 12 somethin...went out to lunch with my parents and my aunt.. then had to buy some groceries at chinese grocerie mawket wiff mommy. some stuff for the bbq and such.. drove home... um..cleaned up my room...lol i just moved most of my stuff into my brother;s empty room. lol.. but MY room is clean! watched some tv.. fresh prince and friends.. then got ready for ccsa banquet.. lol i met up with eyen at my place, so he could tie a tie for me, cuz my dad wasnt home..then we headded off to banquet..mad ppl there.. like soo many asian ppl all dressed up..the palce was alright..decent.. worship team was good. food wasnt THAT bad as everybody said..i had everybody's left overs....mmmm..return of the "human waste basket" lol. that dessert was soo good, i finished it in like 3 sec. then there were like awards..but BASIC didnt get anything..just for MAP was mike.

oh..it was funny how for the Sr. League championship...the team that won is called "The Fellowship" but only Marty, went up to receive the award..the even funnier part was that marty's not even from that church..but he was on the team.. hahahaa. and he got the trophy..and later BASIC was taking group pictures with the trophy in it, so it seemed like we won!! hahahaha

but overall i thot it was pretty boring..not that great..

song at the moment...
All in All - Lifehouse

Standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down
Everything stays in my mind feeling in a daze on the ground
Feels like it's gonna give life's to hard to live anymore
I think I've had enough things too tough
I'm out the door

All in all it's just another day now
You're falling down
What you gonna do
Standing on top of the world tonight
No ones looking back at you

Stand tall
It's going on
It's going on
It's gonna be just fine
You're holding on
Holding on today

ok...anywaze..what's my problem? cant get it outta my head.. keep thinkin bout it..and tori's right...is it even that good? is it really worth all of that and stuff? the thing is..it ISNT but it wont leave... it's always there, but then it keeps hurting me..and it's not even anything big..see im making a big deal out of nothing again.. like...there's no interest in me at all to the point where there's like...no voluntary conversation.. i guess u can say i expect too much..but still..i mean no conversation..nothing. like i dont exist?. ok..the part i dont understand..is why is it always changing..it's never consistent. mixed msgs ALL the time. sometimes there's talk. sometimes there isnt. sometimes there's a nice msg saying all this nice stuff, and it seems like it's really good..and sometimes there's like silence.. i dont get it. and then i keep going back to it. even when it doesnt even want me. wat's my problem?! LET IT GO ALREADY!! GEEZ. why cant i? there's soo many reasons for me to drop it. what happened to your dream amanda? stop stop stop. omgoodness.. just get out (leave)..right now.. "leave" - jojo that was from a song by the way.. yep..ok somebody plz wake me up when september ends.

i cant believe this sumemr is ending already..so much has happened...but then it also feels like soo long ago when summer started.. aw man...the millions of times chillin, hangin out, basketball, BASIC, bridletowne, mid week activities wit kyrios, kyrios, amazing race, midseason mixer, baptism, smt camping, grand finale, playoffs, banquet...aw man.. school sux and it didnt even start yet.