ch.ray.see

ur alive. uve finally said SOMTEHIN since goin down to florida. oh man. i miss u... esp. right now..cuz manda's off somewhere..who knows where..maybe somewhere in scarboro, cuz everything to her is scarboro, probably thinks where u are right now is scarboro too. anywaze.. u finally blog and sign comment on ppl's blogs too. just not mine :( u read everyone's blogs.. everyday every post. except these ones... oh well..it's soo depressing.. well i dont really know what to say.. just really sad. u missed kyrios grand finale.. and my slideshow.. but that's not important..cuz it has to do with me.. i guess i thot too much.. im not that important or anythin..zai jien and jo tao ...forever...

















well i guess it's not just u.. it's everybody. just this summer was soo awesome..met NEW PPL. and basic was soo fun and everythin..and just school sux. i just dont like these ppl. not all but just a lotta these ppl. just really seems like they dont care.. and that's fine. cuz i dont really care about them either.. im happy i didnt really see these ppl during the summer..not like they really made plans or whatever to meet up with me.. i mean im hypocritical. i know. but just it's stupid how everybody's like OH YEAH!!! WE SOOO GOTTA MEET UP THIS SUMMER ANBD WE GOTTA HANG OUT AND CHILL and yadda yadda yadda..but nobody did. nobody called me up. no one cares. is where im getting at. remember, im not saying everybody...just a majority of ppl. and im saying yeah im a hypocrit too. i understand that. but just i dunno..school's depressing...going back today..just reminds me of how much i dont like it. and just even today.. most ppl are just like HEY HOW WAS YOUR SUMMER? and the conversation kinda just dies there.. there's not really much after that. ppl suck. and even those ppl just on msn. who give like one word answers. that annoys me soo much., u say we're soo close friends. oh we;re soo good friends and all but u never ask questions or give more than 1 word in your answer. u just kinda stay in your world. and thru out all these years.. we've been thru so much, yet nobody really cares! that's why i dont even bother msging u ppl. there's no point. u wont talk. so why force u to? and then there's you. i mean. yeah ive done some stuff to u that i dont like..but i mean like.. why? what did i do? why do u keep shutting me out but then u also say we gotta start talking again, but then u dont really do that. im tryna be there for u, but ur not even there to begin with. well it hasnt been like this all the time, in fact it was fine recently. but just like today.. this isnt even a big deal. and im making it a big deal. but i mean like sometimes ur good and we talk, but then sometimes it's not, and u just dont really show any interest in talking to me. just make up your mind. it;'s frustrating how it's not fair. u didnt really give me a chance, and u just start thinkin some stuff and come up with some conclusion, where i cant even defend myself, but u make a decision that hurts. it kills me u know. ugh........... thank you to the friends that just listen to me and understand me. and talk to me on the phone late and just listen and let me say how i feel. and thank you for just agreeing with me and pretty much sticking with me and u agree that it's there, and it's supposed to work. it's fate. it's destiny. but i dunno. thank you to u, for agreeing with me that school sux, and it's over rated, and we had some good times in the past like school and stuff. but just some ppl really are over rated and ppl change. thank you to janice for listening to me go on and on and on and i dont shut up. and im angry and sad about everything.. and despite everything u still keep giving me good advice and ur always soo cheerful and optimistic. thanx. and that's me venting or ranting or whatever u call it.

school's overrated, ball, eyen, home, nap

funny story...well not really funny..but

ok amanda gives me a wake up call at 8:45...well she gave me one at 8:30 i suppose, but i slept thru those ones..anywaze..i answer..then i go back to sleep..i wake up at like 9:20...and then get ready and stuff..i leave the house at 10...then wait for the first bus for like 15 mins. and just when im about to walk all the way to the next one, the bus comes...anywaze...i go to school at 10:59 and i see terrence so we both go...and then i go to the caf..and they say "NO WE;RE NOT SERVING ANYMORE STUDENTS...IT'S NOW CLOSED.."

so then im super pissed, cuz i come half way across the world to go to school, and i dont get my schedule or anything and i'd hafta come back the next day...soo i start walking down the hall yelling THIS SCHOOL IS GAY!!! then the lady calls me back in and says ./...oh u have a cheque, soo u can come, but no more students..... so then i get my gay schedule and agenda and what not...and im out..then i see jiff and the asian one...then me, lee, igor, mylonas, jlin and calvin go to the big gym and it's open sooo we're just playing basketball for the longest time..soo fun..never really played in the big gym since gr.9 gym it was sooo fun..and at one point i was draining 3s i was 4/4 oh man...all infronta igor's face HAHAHAHAH and lee was fluking them in too..lol jks. then igor and mylonas left and we all stayed and played a bit more..then we headed out and chilled ...lee says they did nothing..but lol i was talking to roz and jas and stuff..then calvin leaves then we all go to wendy';s and we talk about all the good times in school in gr.10 and 11... u can read mike's blog about that..just stuff like gr.10history, and gritaly and mr.kettle who i almsot completely erased from MY LIFE!!!!! lol... subwayed/bussed home..talked about how school sux and it's overrated and ppl, suck. lol funny how before we';re talking about the good times, and now the bad...anywaze..yeah..im on the bus on steeles, and i'd pass by the chruch, so i call up eyen and he says he's about to head home and i live on the way home..so he gives me a ride from church to home and im just tellin him all the above.. thnx eyen! then i go home...msn, go upstairs and clean up my school stuff from last year, and i just fell asleep on the floor i was soo tired... woke up..and came down and msned and blogging..

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AMANDA THE SPACE STATION...WOW THE TRUE MEANING OF C.B.
first of all, she thot the holocaust centre, was a space station cuz she thot holo sounded like apollo...!?!?
then she thot hitler's first name was ..A.....Arnold!

and now...she thinks thornlea and our church, t3c is in scarboro!!!!!!!
im tellin her all these street names trying to prove my point..but it just goes flying past her, cuz she doesnt understanbd...WHAT A C.B!

OK ALL THE MAIN STREETS....
east/west
...mccowan,brimley,midland,kennedy,warden,pharmacy,vic park //scarboro ends// woodbine,donmills, leslie,bayview,yonge...

north/south
......sheppard,finch,mcniccoll/cummer,steeles //scarboro ends// denison, 14th/JOHN,407, hwy.7, 16th

ok the church is at warden and north of steeles, making it markham...
and thornlea is soooo far away...it's farther than my school. and my school is in the middle of north york..
thornlea is SOOO much west and north from scarboro, it's not even funny...
manda, PLz DONT TELL ME U THINK YOU LIVE IN SCARBORO TOO
..................omigooodnessss.................................

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michael lee, 7-1 is the new "NO FINISH"

basic playoffs, church, lunch, tori's

hello telepone - mr.eyensan

[sat.aug.27,2005]

wadupp..yeah BASIC made playoffs...i think we were's 6th seed? we played genesis, first round and no offense, but we smoked them...just killed it. that was a fun game tho.. i hit pretty well that game..and i finaly played pretty well in Leftfield-outfield.. im soo bad with coordination up in the air..but i managed to catch 2.. fun..second game..against the pink seraphs.... at first, we werent scorin runs and they were...and it wasnt lookin that great..then it rained and rained then we kinda paused the game..then we continuedplaying after liken 10 mins.. we started making a run..but it was too late..and we fell short by JUST 2 runs!!! oh man..it was SOOO close..i swear.. i made a good double play..that was about it...dang..i thot we would make it farther into the playoffs, not only were we only down by 2 runs, but we also beat them before..and we gave them their only loss of the season! we SOO coulda made it! awww man.

later went to montana's where mike bought us all appetizers... and before the game, i got my dad's old cell phone..and i got the new sim card and soo it works..and K let me transfer a whole bunch of ringtones and themes and stuff...yes..,.i FINALLY have good ringtones, steada those stupid nokia ringtones.. yes im soo happy i have this new phone.... sooooooo much better..and it has le camera! after that we fit 7 ppl in chris' car and nixon sat on juanita and then she started gagging, then she puked, and i moved just before she did.. and when i did i closed the door just as she stuck out her head to vomit. lol

[sun.aug.28,2005]

today..in the morning, eyen picked me up and i had a cup of chocolate milk and he hit a curb when he was parking and it went everywhere, and i told everybody i pooed myself, cuz it was like stained everywhere..even my pants..then eyen had a great sermon about the internet..lol.. and ppl like me just stuck to the computer a lot... then me and marie had to share for bridletowne..and i completely forgot to share about the kids!!! i had all this stuff i was gonna say but i forgot to write it down so i forgot to say it..omg

i was gonna show the slideshow to ppl before sunday school in eyen's office, but i realized i left the CD with the slideshow on it with mike! so we didnt watch.. just saw pics from bridletowne..sunday school was really pointless.and in a way kinda stupid...nobody CLEARLY has any interest in it..yet he goes on like, we do have interest... and then we had to debate on some topic...those gr.9 punk guys...are..wow.... one swears soo much, and the other wont stop talking..kinda like me. but a lil different.. we ended up winning the debate even tho we were against what we were saying..lol, we won by a point, but then we lost cuz that kid swore! anywaze...

after that a couple of us just kinda hung out in the room for a bit signing cards for the counsellors and grads and stuff, then me and tiff went out for lunch to T&T and my pants already had chocolate milk stains..then i spilled my soup all over the front..so i peed AND pooed my pants.... oh man... but me and tiff we had a good talk just about stuff.. it was good.. like church, baptism, school, university, scholarships..sounds a lil weird, but no it was good.. good talks wit tiff.. lol we both ended up spilling our soup. just i spilled more. sooo clumbsy!

met up with tori at metro where there was some smelly festival with these ppl that couldnt sing..lol..it literally smelled soo bad.. then i tagged along wit tori';s family and we went to her house, and we played boggle for a long time, and i almost beat u tori, but then u cheated :) i was soo close!! anywaze then we watched i, robot, which was not that bad...soo it was pretty good. we had to watch it twice cuz i fell asleep and missed some of it, and marie came later, so she missed the beginning.. then we watched raise your voice with hilary duff :) it was a really stupid movie...really stupid.. i wont talk about it..we had dinner while wtaching it, then we just watched YTV shows for some reason...YTV sucks! except for smallville. and reboot, i dont care what U hafta say about that. lol and that ends my sunday pretty much.

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Lionel Huts: "I accidentally, ran over his dog..."
Marge: "U RAN OVER HIS DOG!?"
Lionel Huts: "...well replace "accidentally" with "repetitively" and replace "dog" with "son". "

baptism, camping, slideshow and kyrios grand finale

[sunday aug 21 2005] woke up bright and early...did devos and...went to church super early at 9, to get baptized with ada and gen!!! up to that day i wasnt really nervous, but like that morning, was pretty scary. pastor kinson was sooo encouraging and nice about everything. anywaze...ada went first and did her testimony. and it was good. next up was me..i was soo nervous..i was kicking around in the tank! to be honest i got a bit teary when i was thanking kyrios counselors and pastor eyen, thanx u guys. then i very..badly sung out LOUD, by mySELF, King of Majesty...apparently a bunch of me talked to me and told me they were singing too, but i didnt actually hear anybody.. i saw like the first 2 rows singing..like mike, nadine, ryan, mares, jen, nat, and ppl. soo thanx.. i didnt hear ANYBODY singing the "HEY-HEY-HEY-HEY" part... but yeah..i got dunked..it was...uplifting? is that the word...felt..good..anywaze dried off and listened to gen's testimony wit ada, and we had a good service, and just EVERYBODY there was soo nice and soo caring and thotful to me..
after service.. i got soo many gifts and cards.. JUST THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR ALL THAT. u didnt have to..but u did, and it means a lot! thanx everybody.. even just everybody that went up to me and congratulated me, thanx..
best baptism lunch ever! eyen "treated" me out to lunch, upstairs on the 3rd floor with the newcomers luncheon, well kenric said there was alotta extra food... so we werent mooching! that was good.. then we went to york mills to ump a softball game..pyros vs. oracles..

ok, on the pyrios there was this older dude, and he wasnt there for the intro, but he came in and his first at bat, he hits a homerun over the fence, and he runs all the bases and when he comes home, mike ejects him for wearing a watch..anywaze, he accepted that call, but later when i made some calls at 1, some REALLY REALLY close calls...that same guy comes up to me and disagrees with my calls and starts talkin to me and stuff.. well i didnt let it get to me..i was just like.."yeah-ok-whatever!" (thanx mike for backing me up on those calls)

anywaze later..we played our game, and we won pretty...distinctively..but we played well..i think i played really well.. i only played 3 innings at the beginning, but i think i did good...not well, but good. alison and carrie came out to watch our game!! yay thanx guys for comin out! and alotta ppl came out. pastor kinson, ben, and the usual "entourage" lol. sam. we had a fun game...

afterwards..i just went home to pack for camping and to look at all those cards and gifts and stuff from my baptism. thanx again to everybody who gave me stuff and wrote me stuff. i relaly preciate it. :) anywaze i was like stressing out and stuff..cuz like i didnt have some stuff for camping..and i was packing too much, and i didnt have enough room..and it was just really stressful...instead of going to eyen's at like 7ish...i went at 10:30! oh man....soo hectic..and thanx to mymom, who helped me out with the chicken for dinner and for packing me some stuff i forgot to bring... anywaze.. thanx to eyen and tori and kim for listenin to my problems that night and "sharing" mymcdonalds! lol... that night,m i was soo hyper, couldnt sleep..and i was linking EVERYTHING to like christian songs "he died..........AND ROSE AGAIN......AMAZING LOVE...." man., sorry guys, i mustve been soo annoying, and all..yeah to prevent me from keeping u guys all awake, i isolated myself so i wouldnt disturb.

[monday aug.22,2005]
monday morning, oh man..sorry guys..for being soo stupid... ugh... just terrible time management on my part... i was the last to get ready and last to pack and last to put stuff in the car..and i just held everybody up..soo sorry...i'd be pissed off at me! but yeah..after a long time of ME, we managed to get goin, and we all went up. Me, mike, rach, chun and mares, we all had some good discussions in the car goin up...remmeber! everything stays in that van!! lol hahaha everybody else wnated to know what we were talking about hahahaa... we got there..and we had to make the tents ourselves with no instruction manual. and it was soo oldschool.... soo complciated too...but we managed after a long time..and with the help of chun we got it together...


we have such a ghetto tent..we just threw tarps on it..it';s not even palced nicely. lol it just kinda droops over the tent..soo ghetto. lol. ok, after tents, we had some NICE filipino food made by our filipinos, minus me, so that's mike and eyen. that was some good food, then we just kinda chilled and went to the beach and i talked with eyen , and there;s a good pic of mike fishing by himself, it looks like a professional pic, like somethin from a calendar or somethin ....


anywaze...we skipped stones and stuff..i got one stone from eyen, and i skipped 9!!!!!!!! and i couldnt do it again.... :( but we played tag later on this playground and it was soo fast...eyen, gay and mat are soo fast..i think im just too tall, i got hurt soo badly, cuts and bruises but soo fun..i gotta tell ub bout the next day with tag!

ok soo then we came back and i thot chun and rach were cooking..but then when it got late, i found out me and gary were cooking..so it was really late...and dark..but after a long time, we finally finished and for dinner we had fried macaroni made by tori, and we had fried chicken, and rice. thanx everybody for helpin out... we then had campfire and stuff... we had some good talks bout just everything...we made stories up where everybody would say a word and nesxt person say a word, and come up with a story, but it became too random and not comprehensible... i forgot what else we talked about..anywaze we went to go take showers..and i realized i didnt bring my towel. like rachel forgot hers too.. but i did what i could and just listened to music.. lol went to sleep and next morning it was freeezing..

[tues aug.23,2005]
soo cold in the morning....anywaze, we had scrambled eggs, bacon, danishes, waffles, and fried alfred (fish that they caught that morning, mixed with the bacon grease) this is SOO not camp food..but still good .. we played this game where we hafta choose 1 or the other based on how it describes you.. like lake or river, mickey or donald, diet coke or diet pepsi, picture or video..etc.. and we really got to go deep and we got to know everyone a lot better...kim doesnt know mike at ALL! lol it felt like it was 3pm but it was only 1, and we had tacos for lunch...then i dont remember what we did, i think some of us planned for kyrios, then we all went to the beach and stuff.. me and mares played football and chilled with eyen, while others went fishing and others just did some music...we later went to play tag again at the playground....



ok soo the first one, there's just a bunch of tires in a hole and i went in and i was stuck.. ok the other picture..ok soo there i am...eyen teaches me how to get on the slide..so i get up and i get tagged..so i go up there and tag eyen who's on the top... then im just lying there helplessly, then eyen says u can tag anybody within 3 secounds right? and im like yeah...then he counts to 3 in his head,, then he PEEPS OUT AT ME WITH 1 EYE while im just lying there..and it was both freaky and both funny cuz if he comes and tags me i cant really move away...sooo i just laffed soo hard for the next 20 mins....i died laffing..my abs of steel hurt.. lol eyen. lol

went back...and chun and rach made hot pot...sooo good...dumplings and meat and all this other good stuff... then afterwards we looked at stars..oh man... when we were just laying there and looking up. the thig is, there were soo many stars our eyes couldnt even see em all, like u had to turn your head just to see ALL the stars cuz there were just soo many...how did ppl study these things and come up with constellations!? u could say the stars looked like ANYTHING.. anywaze we before campfire...we were doin all these funny things with shadows, it was just too hilarious... pretending to fight, sacking ppl, oompa loompa stuff, synchronizd dancing, and a guy with like 8 arms...lol sooo funny.. then we talked about alotta stuff and we played with sparklers and stuff..

[wed. aug24,2005]
next morning, we had some brunch-grilled cheese sandwiches and chicken noodle soup.sooooo good. anywaze we had to pack and stuff :( and it was sad leaving.. we went to the beach just before we left, and some random guy that looked like syndrome from the incredibles came and wanted to take a picture WITH us.... anywaze, we had a good time coming back..this trip i learned a lot about mike, and eyen and their crazy knowledge of 80s and 90s music. and we had some funny times goin back to eyen;s place, like the walkie talkies and stuff.. got to eyen's...and janice owned in nba 2k5! sooo good with ps2 stuff..(ddr) lol..went home and worked hard on the slideshow..

[thurs.aug.25,2005]
thursday....more slideshow..talked to nat on the phone and then went to softball practice... soo sad that it was our last practice.. anywaze later on..mike invited me to go eat kbbq with the rest of them, aaron, amanda, sam, josh, k, nadine and nat. so we had soo much food...it's where ., u know, it's where the fags usedto be! mike meant to say "FLAGS" :) lol good times..anywaze got home worked on that slideshow till like 4...then i was soo tired,

[friday aug.26,2005] i woke up at 1:30, and i was supposed to be at church at 2 OMG.. i was freaking out..anywaze i needed to finish that slideshow, so i didnt eat all day...i just worked on the slideshow looking at my stupid computer screen for like almost 6 hours straight.. yeah...my parents forgot i had kyrios and they just kinda left..and i didnt have a ride..and omg.it was soo hectic and my slideshopw wasnt working..and just chaos..i was having a mental breakdown and stuff..cuz it was 8:00 and kyrios already started and i was supposed to be at church at 2pm..omg..i was soooo frustrated...eyen to the rescue..thank God for eyen.. sooo optimistic and cheerful and came to pick me up..and just stuff..and talked to me and was soo nceia bout everything..i got to church and just needed to fix up the slideshow...so kenric helped me out..but then we tried fixing it soo long, that when we were showing the slideshow to everybody, the laptop had no more batteries and it was like 80% done! worked soo hard and it just stopped everything right there and then...i was sooo angry...omg....but just everyone was soo nice about it and suggested just inviting everyone to go to mike's and wathcing it there..soo that happened and it was good..everything was better...and most of kyrios got to watch it..still wished everybody saw it..but it was still good... i hope it was alright...kinda sucks, i missed MOST of the KYRIOS GRAND FINALE , cuz either i wasnt there yet, or i was working on the slideshow..wow im really gonna miss u grads and counselors...like mike. uve been there for me thru soo many times. ups and downs...gonna really miss u.. and the grads too..kyrios will definitely not be the same without u guys.
thank you to everybody who helped me out today and just to those who just cheered me up. JANICE, MARES, TORI, GARY, CARMEN, MIKE, KENRIC, EYEN!!!!, NIX, NAT, PHILA, RACH, KIM, GEN, TIFF, ADA, and AMANDA.. if i missed anybody., im sorry..thank you to u too

so i was feelin a lil down that soo many ppl are leaving..so i talked to tori on the phone for a bit when i got home, and then i called up eyen and then i chatted wit manda and janey a bit on msn.. and that sums up about everything up until now.. thnx for reading... wow long blog.

update

kk i got a lot to do right now..but i really wanna write a long blog right now bout everything since ...the last time i posted..which alotta stuff happened.. but i gotta hold that off for a bit..i gotta do kyrios last program stuff, and stuff. so yeah. sorry..

will post soon

MCBC,BASIC,church,practice,kensington and downtown

ahhhh well... here we are.
watve i done since...saturday? oh wait that was friday night...wow ok a lot to cover.

[saturday].....did NOTHING...got my new layout. THANX TORI.
oh that day..i was soo bored..and i just found out tori's friend was havin a coffeehouse at MCBC
soo since amanda was bored too, i dragged her with me there, and we went and met up with tori there..
i HATE going to palces where everyone knows each other, but u dont know anybody, and noboddy knows u.
i HATE that feeling...anywaze met a couple ppl at our coffeehouse table. but they just introduced for the sake of awkwardness..they really didnt care about us. well the coffeehouse..was...different from ours...
me and amanda got ther elike 5 mins late. and we never saw the MCs once! we saw them at the very end! lol what did they even do?! they had an intro video..but u couldnt even hear the audio. the setup was nice.. dim with xmas lights and candles and such. there was like pizza and sandwiches, but the pizza was pretty gross. so i ate like 5 of them. ther was candy juice. like it tasted lkike gummy bears if they were squished into a juice. pretty nasty. and i ehard the coffee was quite nasty as well.

the drama was very confusing. i didnt understand ANYTHING. soemthing about camping... but the different music and lighting and stuff was interesting. there was like a part where it was like splinter cell the video game, or was it metla gear solid. one of those games.. like one of the guys was sneaking around and he hid under a box and walked around inside the box.

the speaker was cool. like a young guy. like york univ. and he was really good. spoke like a comedian..really friendly, not shy at all, funny too and u wont lost interest when he's talking. overall it was good. message was good. didnt really apply to me..well sorta..with the problems just really leave it to God and have your friends really help u out and stuff or somethin. the worship team...kinda seamed like they werent prepared and the 4 guitarists seemed like theyve never seen that music before so theyw ere staring at the music soo hard.. but it was alright. then the coffeehouse kinda ended.. didnt really no anybody. saw like a couple ppl i knew.. but didnt really talk to anybody.. then i just drove amanda and tori home. thnx for tellin me about it tori, and thnx amanda for keepin me company!

[sunday] came on time again!! oh yeah that';s 2 weeks in a row!! service was good. the message was about sex. to be honest, it was good but i dont remember any of it at this moment. well later, i had an interview with kinson, and it was really short but it was good, so i got to go to sunday school. then afterwards... i 3rd wheeled with eyen and sandra.. we went to T&T for cheap food!and talked and then just chilled at the church..

when i got to beverly glen for our basic game it was raining.. but God is awesome..He's provided for us every game. and he dried everything up and even gave us warmth and sunshine. and we played in great weather. we had a fun game against SOCS jr. we had sooo many fans.. the bleacher was FULL. like there's no room some ppl had to sit on the grass on the side man! thnx to the fans!! great game.. and afterwards, due to some great complaining by me and OTHERS we decided to go to pho, cuz jap food was too expensive for me. juanita figured out that u can read my "encoded" phone if u turn it upside down and look thru a mirror! then u can read what my phone says.. then later the guys bought a fake dvd from these kids that looked like rats with cardboard signs and table and they bought wedding crashers. and we watched it at mike's. the sound was soo bad we just didnt watch it, cuz it was sdoo hard to hear! sooo we just played alotta video games... read SAM'S BLOG FOR DETAILS! [RE: CONDO CRASHERS]

im gonna skip monday so onto [tuesday] went to church..hung out at eyen's office. me and chris ordered delivery pizza for lunch and played some ball at church. then the grads had their meeting for kyrios. kim, rach and chris showed up and later chun. what a meeting!lol anywaze just hung out with them and pam and gord and eyen. then later we had BASIC practice.. was alright..didnt seem like i got much out of it, so at the end, me, K, rinku and ron decided to just keep getting grounders..and that was fun. thnx ron. then i got home.. and i met tracy! well i didnt really meet her.. we just talked for the first timeon msn. we talked for soo long..but if u think about it, there was alotta breaks of silence.. good job. hahahaha.. sent her like SOOO many songs!!! yeah but it was fun. cool girl. got to know her a bit. yay.

[wednesday] well onto today... got picked up from eyen, and we went to his house and chilled and played some video games.. hahahah STILL beat u!!! but we met up with jen at scarboro town centre..then we met up with kim then chris, nix, derek and rich.

lol.."hey derek, do u remember the episode of futur-..."I DONTWATCH FUTURAMA!"
HAHAHAHAA...mad arms.. punked out richard not even finishing his sentence!

yeah today was mad funny..we subwayed to bloor then we met up with gord. and we went to kensington market and we looked at a whole bunch of stuff...then we walked down spadina then down queen street and nathan phillips square (lol jks) then to eaton centre.. sooooo much walking.. but fun.. then me, eyen, jen and kim left to town centre, and then we all split up from there and eyen drove me home, so i ate dinner and drove to ball.
MADDDDDDDDDDD TURNOVERS.. yeah i suck at basketball.. holy!!! turnovers and bricks. geeez.
then afterwards, me, nix, stevens and derek didnt wanna go to wendy's so i just drove em all home.

yeah and that ends my day and blog. sooo tired.. yesterday i couldnt sleep till 4:30 and last night i couldnt sleep till 5:30!!! omg...i keep thinking..and i just cant sleep!!! ahhhh..well i gotta go to bridletowne tomoro wit marie and jen. aw man. gotta wake upp sooo early.. im starving!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more than words..

[song] "more than words" - Extreme
good song. old school as well. recap of recently....

[thursday] um...stayed home helped my parents do some work, then helped my sis do some of her work..then met up with eyen and some kyrios ppl at church...then me, eyen, and terrence went to T&T for some cheap chinese food. eyen: hoi mei shing lol. went back to church. where eyen bounced a basketball at me when i was eating.. but luckily God provided me with a shirt where the designs are kinda random so it helps cover whatever mess there was from the food. lol no worries eyen. then we headed off to good sheppherd church for sam and gord's praise and prayer - for they will be fed. i think that's what it was called. it was a praise and prayer BASICALLY. (ok that was gay.) well the worship was amazing.. like i really felt...compelled? i never use that word.. i dunno.. God was really there... yeah too bad we were sitting in the back.. cuz me, eyen, tori and some ppl stood up for some worship songs, but since we were at the back, nobody saw us..soo we couldnt peer pressure anybody lol. it was good. and prayer was good..really opened our eyes to what's out there.. but it was a lil draggy as sam said. but still good. wow i really need to start watchin the news. man i dont know ANYTHING goin on in the world.. yeah that was good prayer time. just opportunities like that..recently,. have been makin me pray out loud, and im a lot less scared of praying out loud now.. i remember they asked me to close off a kyrios program with a prayer and i spent 10 mins brainstorming and figuring out what i gotta say in my prayer.. lol. things have been changing for the better. yeah.. tthursday was good.

[friday] that's today... umm.. oh YEAH. iun the morning, eyen picked me and kim up to go to bridletowne, then we went to t3c to pick up tori. they sent me out into the church to find her to go to bridletowne..but then i took so long that eyen came in too.. and we went all over the church. then i accidentally interrupted t3c daycamp staff devos and they told us that tori bussed to bridletowne or something..soo we left t3c, toriless. lol oh yeah thanx for makin my layout :) yeah so we get there, and yeah. today we went to the science center. it was kinda fun..kinda boring.. like there was alotta new stuff which was interesting, but then there was also alotta stuff that just didnt interest me, and ive seen before... but today was still good. my kid elijah stuck with me the whole day. i was in his group..and him and vicky always came to me and wanted me to hold their hand. lol vicky the whole day kept wandering off to find jack. in the morning, vicky was yelling stuff about BUSES. and then on the bus. jack says, "i love you vicky" and vicky says "i love you jack" lol. cute kids. man hahaha soo jokes.. anywaze yeah.. it was fun chillin wit elijah. he's a good kid. lol today he wore his new jordans and his headband.. hahaha luv that kid. anywaze...bussed home..havent bussed home in soo long.. i dont miss it. was supposed to eat dinner wit some family friends, my grandma , my bro and his wife. but they all took so long. i just ate early cuz i had to go to kyrios.. went to kyrios.. had good worship time.. and good biblestudy. then um... when we were loitering. nixon tells me there's waterballoons in the bushes and we're gonna get chris...doesnt end up happening. so when he's walking awya, i whip a balloon at nix in the back.. and he chases me and gets me back.. but it was soo worth it. lol then i drove gen to magic 2 to eat wit the rest of em,then i just went home.

[melo, iverson, wade n marbury]
feelin a lil down.. dont relaly know why... nothing really happened today, but feelin a lil blue.. i dont know how it's ever goin back. dont think it will.. ive made alotta stupid decisions in my past..and the only thing i can do is apologize...i do wish it didnt happen. i wanna take it back. believe me, i wanna take back alotta things ive done, esp to u, 'wish i could turn back the hands of time' 'impossible as it may seem, but i wish i could...soo bad' but unfortounately i cant... i ask God to fix all of this.. but i guess time will tell, cuz so far there's no quick fix. i hope there'll be some sorta fix in the future... i dont wanna lose u like this. ur awesome. and ur like one of my closest friends..i hafta make things right, esp. as christians, and since i might get baptized.. we really gotta figure somethin out.. please.

more than words...

[song] "more than words" - Extreme

good song. old school as well.
recap of recently....
[thursday] um...stayed home helped my parents do some work, then helped my sis do some of her work..then met up with eyen and some kyrios ppl at church...then me, eyen, and terrence went to T&T for some cheap chinese food. eyen: hoi mei shing lol. went back to church. where eyen bounced a basketball at me when i was eating.. but luckily God provided me with a shirt where the designs are kinda random so it helps cover whatever mess there was from the food. lol no worries eyen. then we headed off to good sheppherd church for sam and gord's praise and prayer - for they will be fed. i think that's what it was called. it was a praise and prayer BASICALLY. (ok that was gay.) well the worship was amazing.. like i really felt...compelled? i never use that word.. i dunno.. God was really there... yeah too bad we were sitting in the back.. cuz me, eyen, tori and some ppl stood up for some worship songs, but since we were at the back, nobody saw us..soo we couldnt peer pressure anybody lol. it was good. and prayer was good..really opened our eyes to what's out there.. but it was a lil draggy as sam said. but still good. wow i really need to start watchin the news. man i dont know ANYTHING goin on in the world.. yeah that was good prayer time. just opportunities like that..recently,. have been makin me pray out loud, and im a lot less scared of praying out loud now.. i remember they asked me to close off a kyrios program with a prayer and i spent 10 mins brainstorming and figuring out what i gotta say in my prayer.. lol. things have been changing for the better. yeah.. tthursday was good. [friday] that's today... umm.. oh YEAH. iun the morning, eyen picked me and kim up to go to bridletowne, then we went to t3c to pick up tori. they sent me out into the church to find her to go to bridletowne..but then i took so long that eyen came in too.. and we went all over the church. then i accidentally interrupted t3c daycamp staff devos and they told us that tori bussed to bridletowne or something..soo we left t3c, toriless. lol oh yeah thanx for makin my layout :) yeah so we get there, and yeah. today we went to the science center. it was kinda fun..kinda boring.. like there was alotta new stuff which was interesting, but then there was also alotta stuff that just didnt interest me, and ive seen before... but today was still good. my kid elijah stuck with me the whole day. i was in his group..and him and vicky always came to me and wanted me to hold their hand. lol vicky the whole day kept wandering off to find jack. in the morning, vicky was yelling stuff about BUSES. and then on the bus. jack says, "i love you vicky" and vicky says "i love you jack" lol. cute kids. man hahaha soo jokes.. anywaze yeah.. it was fun chillin wit elijah. he's a good kid. lol today he wore his new jordans and his headband.. hahaha luv that kid. anywaze...bussed home..havent bussed home in soo long.. i dont miss it. was supposed to eat dinner wit some family friends, my grandma , my bro and his wife. but they all took so long. i just ate early cuz i had to go to kyrios.. went to kyrios.. had good worship time.. and good biblestudy. then um... when we were loitering. nixon tells me there's waterballoons in the bushes and we're gonna get chris...doesnt end up happening. so when he's walking awya, i whip a balloon at nix in the back.. and he chases me and gets me back.. but it was soo worth it. lol then i drove gen to magic 2 to eat wit the rest of em,then i just went home. feelin down.. dont relaly know why... nothing really happened, but feelin a lil blue.. i dont know how it's ever goin back. dont think it will.. ive made alotta stupid decisions in my past..and the only thing i can do is apologize...i do wish it didnt happen. i wanna take it back. unfortounately i cant... i ask God to fix all of this.. but i guess time will tell, cuz so far there's no quick fix. i hope there'll be some sorta fix in the future... i dont wanna lose u like this. i hafta make things right, as christians, and since i might get baptized.. we really gotta figure somethin out.. please.

music on my mind...

good songs to listen to these days...

fix you - coldplay ('under the o.sea' prom song)
wonderwall / champagne supernova - oasis
let me go - 3 doors down
everything / you and me - lifehouse
hold you down - fat joe and j-lo
slipped away / fall to pieces - avril
wake me up when september ends - green day
angel - amanda perez
cater 2 u - DC
crazy / all my life - kci and jojo
playas only - r.kelly and the game
outta control - 50 feat. mobb deep
my baby - kanye feat. janet jackson
anytime - brian mcknight
end of the road - boyz II men
more than words - extreme
go - common feat. kanye


cant think of any more... ok
fun day today..mid week kyrios at markville and tori';s place and then ball at church which was really really really fun/. yeah that's about it.... lates.