jonovision

2006-08-22T03:00:00.000-04:00

Smallville: Everything - Lifehouse

*slow jams

2006-01-28T23:09:00.000-05:00

by usher and monica...

pshhh i guess everyone's too good for me now, so nobody comments... 0 comments... below.... i see how it is... and dont use the excuse "oh but u dont even use this blog anymore!" even tho that may be true....

wadup? spent today trying to study for calculus...not much of that actually happened....*sigh...
crap.
monday - math test/exam
tuesday - english exam , vball, worship practice
wednesday - nothing?
thursday - history exam , harmony exam, OC
friday - KYRIOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FDCSBP i guess i cover 5/6... :S what am i doing....
plz stop. no hope. stop thinking. there's nothing...
bobby valentino.my angel.
brian mcknight.anytime.
babyface.what if.

*im not okay...

2005-12-03T03:12:00.000-05:00

my chemical romance....

yeah. no one does this blogspot thing anymore........
well im tired. it's 3:13am.... later

broken at 3am...

2005-11-16T03:19:00.000-05:00

*broken - seether feat amy lee
*3am - matchbox20

it's 3:20am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY *TORI!!!!!!!

the song broken..now reminds me of tori, cuz it was on her blogger page for soooooooo long...
and now the word broken reminds me of my logo project i spent so long doing last nite until 3am. brokenheart cafe. the presentation turned out pretty good. i got good feeebad and response from the teachers....

anywaze... i hope i do well on this data test and mod west-history test tomoro... well in less than 6 hours.. but then ugh.. im gonna get less than 4 hours of sleep again.. that's 7.5 hours of sleep in 2 days!!!!!!!!!! i am sleep deprived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reminder: He gives strength to the weary and will not let them fall... isaiah 40:28 or 28:40..it;'s soo late i dont remember.... k i should sleep....
jack johnson music is soo good and soo nice and calm and chillin and relaxin.....

all my life...

2005-11-10T00:10:00.000-05:00

i luv this song... sooo good..well kinda oldschool. but still. kci and jojo!
good times...

by the way. xanga is still not BETTER..
it's just that everybody who comments me here, uses xanga, so pretty much almost everybody that comes here alrea has a xanga. and it's more convenient... they hafta keep switching accounts just to comment me here.. soo it'd be easier if we all just used the same system. but it's not BETTER!, however, i do like the currently listening/reading.. to music/books..thing. that's cool.

but this layout is still wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better to the power of 273567823651035041350000 compared to la xanga.
therefore, jeSo, u lose.

hope i do well on tomoro's calc test. i need to do well. gotta boost up my mark..
all u university ppl. if and when u have time, plz try and convince me to go to your schools.. or at least tell me about it. pros/cons. etc..
i dont relaly know where i wanna go... soo far i know a bit about western and laurier....
oh and i have no idea about like how long to study for..and extra studying years.. and all that.. no idea.
any tips/advice what not would be very helpful. email me
thnx tiff for your email and "abundant" info and insight and tips. :) reallly really appreciate it!

4am

2005-11-05T22:07:00.000-05:00

our lady peace. good song.

i hate school with a passion. everything at school sux. sooo much work!!! ahhhhhh.

>>>>more on my xanga

foolish...

2005-11-02T23:27:00.000-05:00

*the remix. ashanti and biggie. no not chris li....

anywaze im exhausted..such a long nite playing like non stop basketball..... it was fun, jen and miriam came, and there was chris, eyen, wes, his lil bro and his dad... crazy running

i got home, and i got crazy huge blisters and like airbubbles of skin.. huge patches! it';s like ripping off. i'll show u if u ask me!

anywaze since ppl barely comment here... and most of the ppl that DO comment, primarily use xanga..i think im gonna switch..and i'll post more there... same username.

anywaze im pretty much caught up with data and calc now.... now just got MAD reading for english.... oh this weekend is gonna be insane... non stop reading... im gonna go crazy!!!

awww man. i luv how there's soo much basketball on tv now!! welcome back...i luv this game...

in my place...

2005-10-31T23:10:00.000-05:00

*coldplay... good stuff

today was boring boring halloween. yea dude, holidays are becoming more and more overrated and just not as fun anymore!
school. boooo. got to school relaly early actually. 1st. supply teacher. finished a lot of data work. 2nd. strings. worked on stupid quartet. we're sounding really good. 3rd. lunch. raped those stupid limits. got sooo much calc and limits stuff done. 4th. boring boring theory. omg we got back 2 assignments, and well soo far all the other assignments ive been getting back are really good. but these 2 were really really bad!!! oh man!!! i was soo shocked!!!! i really hope it doesnt bring down my mark. cuz it was doin pretty good before... 5th. boring. just took notes.
afterschool. got home. ate a bit. lol sooo sorry chraysee. i came at like 5:46.. hahaha sorry.

went to church for halloween carnival kinda thing for lil kids... it was surprisingly really tiring...
i had this lil booth where there's this kind of glass jar.. and u fill it to the top with water... and then the kids gotta as many coins as they can before it over flows... and ohhh man.. it ranged soo crazily.. 2 kids got 25 coins.. and some got like 1 or 2... i ran outta tickets to give them, sooooo many times... and i felt really bad.. cuz pastor wes came to my booth 3 times tonite. and i wasnt there and he had to look for me! ahhh felt sooo bad... 1st time, i was looking at other booths, 2nd time i was taking a break, and 3rd time i was away playing basketball!!! :( i felt sooo terrible... anywaze soo many kids kept coming to my booth, cuz it was kinda easy to win tickets. but i couldnt really make it any harder.... anywaze.. it was kinda fun... wel;l my booth was boring. but the night was fun. got to talk to chraysee, jen, jes, helen, krystal, marie... and we got to just like chill out after it was all done and relax.. cuz it was soo tiring...

then after chillin for a bit.. me and eyen headed over to mike's for a tiny bit , and i helped eyen get some wedding presents still. sorry eyen for knocking everything down in the elevator.. ! anywaze.. then just got home. ate some food. bloggs and msn. and that's my day...

it's only monday!!!! weeek plz go faster!!!!!! tuesday sux. nothin to do. wednesday at least it's short day and there's basketball at church, thursday, OC's back!! and friday, KYRIOS. everything but tuesday!!! geeez stupid tuesday!! ugh.................... anywaze lates...

on my own...

2005-10-30T15:20:00.000-05:00

on my own* - hedley... good song..

oh man i AGAIN, wasted another saturday... accomplishing nothing. omg. sunday. hahaha i rmb'd the 1 hour back(daylight savings) lol. eyen didnt. hehehe. service was good. good msg by kinson, i took soooo many sermon notes! tori. for worship, smile more, enjoy yourself. enjoy the time of worship for God. smile~! oh yayyy i got my Life of Pi from derek a.k.a moses. thanx so much! u saved my life... now to make enough time to read it... oh and thanx mat so much for your data notes... :)
anywaze... after chilling in the gym, sunday school. we made boxes, and kinda talked about evolution/science vs. creation. but it was really brief. and it was more share any stories about it, wat have u dealt with in your own life.. umm.. soo it wasnt really....informational... but then again, i havent had anytime to read those stacks and stacks of handouts. i dunno. just me and that sunday school course, isnt working out too well soo far...
chilled with eyen a bit, talked to chraysee for a bit. then had to go for lunch. kinda boring... ate at some shanghai place at metro. the orange one on the courner... mehhh.. just with my parents and their friends, this other couple. really boring tho... home now. and just got tons of homework

ok im gonna try and do what jaNICE is doin. stay aaway from MSN. make signing into MSN a minimum. cuz im always on, and it's a huge distraction from work, and stuff, and ESP. since my math marks are at a bare minimum, like the marks are barely over a pass. i really gotta start trying even harder in math. so guys., if u wanna reach me, dont msn me anymore.u can email, gmail or call my home number. my stupid cell phone isnt working still. ok? so yeah if u see me on msn. kick me off!!!

hate it or love it...

2005-10-29T19:04:00.000-04:00

oh wow. there's soo much to talk about in these past couple days...

thursday. had orch rehearsal at 7:30 got there at 7:42 and there's a sign on the door that says the door will be locked at 7:40. so i couldnt get into rehearsal...so i walked around looking for anybody...nobody..so then after a long time, i watched some of the ball tryouts, then i did some math. 1st. period. nothing. supply teacher..absolutely nothing.. 2nd. went to get a flu shot, then i had lunch with my mom, then came back for my 3rd. period lunch. and i played some geetar.. 4th. and 5th. we watched this "independent canadian" film by Reel Canada. one of the main actresses that was in the film, graduated from our school. and she actually went to mini claude as well. that means she went to the same school i went to (claude watson) from gr.4 - gr. 8 then earl haig... the movie was soooooooo complicated and confusing.. it was kinda up north about this huge school bus accident, with all these kids in the bus and the bus drives off this hill, and then into a frozen lake, then it collapses, and alotta ppl die. but the main actress girl, survives, and there';s this whole thing about lawsuits and stuff, it's sooooo confusing... afterschool. i played some ball, and i watched some survivor, and maid in manhattan... dont rmb what else happend that day...

friday. ok i have this calc quiz at 8am, so i wake up at 6:15am, get ready and stuff. it's pitch black and freezing cold. like -5 degress, im exagerrating a lil. but still freezing, did my calc quiz at 8.. but it was sooo hard.... and i really need to start geting good marks, but i didnt do well at ALL on this quiz:( the questions on these calc quizes and tests are always like things i dont understand and like 500000000x harder than any homework question... hopw am i supposed to answer these stupid calc quiz questions?!? ughhh. 1st. data. 2nd.united way week carnival. um nothing really to do..kinda boring. forgot my wallet, so no money.. i had to help with my booth, and it was soo gay, nobody even came ..it was candy guessing. and nobody did anything, and my partner didnt even come, so i did it myself, wlel i just sat there by myself. and the ppl were supposed to do it after my shift never came..so i was there bored outta my mind for soo long. then finally i got outta there and played football with some of the crew. then we had lunch and actually i played geetasr and stuff, and actually, first timefor everything. i met this girl, leslie, and she's in gr.11 and found out she goes to First Alliance Church, down the street from t3c, this is at warden and finch, near bridletowne.. and so me, her and alison are like singing worship songs in our hallway, during lunch. pretty cool. 4th. really boring. 5th. also really boring.. afterschool.played a lil more football. then went to wendy's with terrence and jerome jerry gibson a.k.a jamie. lol then went home...
got to church for smallgroups... mike got a new car! um first we moved the 3rd floor sofas into our old sunday school room, and then we read the metro (newspaper) suppose to learn about current events. but that didnt work too well, i thot. after a hard stressful, busy week of school, and expecting us to read the newspaper on a friday night? kinda didnt work for me... and then there wasnt really much discussion about it afterward.. so to be honest, i kinda found that pointless.. then we couldnt get a tv/dvd so we couldnt watch a movie.. so we "got to know each other" more like me and jen asking everybody questions... school, grade, siblings, post-secondary school/future, and stuff.... then we finally got a tv, and we didnt even have enough time to watch a whole movie... everyone seemed to wanna watch the movie "family man" with nicholas cage.. about this business guy who wakes up at a suburban home with a big family or somethin, and just like a change in lives and stuff. but for some reason, ken picks a movie he brought in, about japanese ppl and a radio show. very very confusing. hard to follow. kinda.... not interesting... and i saw other ppl sleeping way before me. i saw kevin, and jen sleeping, and then after a long time, THEN i fell asleep. and tim did too. i was definitely not the only one OR the first one! then afterwards, me, jen, jaNICE, miriam, tim, derek, kenric and some other ppl we went to wendy's. me and jen were listening to miriam's mp3 player on the way there. and she has songs u'd never think she'd listen to...sorry miriam!!! but it's soo like diverse and strange, coming from miriam's mp3 plaer. she had like r&b songs, she had like sean paul, she had like the killers, oasis, MY HUMPS!!! BLACK EYED PEAS!!! wow.... anywaze, we got to wendy's and jaNICE was playing all these cool songs on her geetar, that's right, IN wendy's. and we talked about alotta stuff. lol. kenric brought up these discussions about relationships, and prom and post-secondary. it was funny. then later, chris, nix and tamryn (i thjink her name is) came and yeah then soon enough i left..

got home, and watched the movie, EuroTrip. which was really funny. hilarious.. that freaky guy that keeps coming into their train booth, and he's like perverted and he keeps saying "OHH...MEEE EXCUSEEEE..MEEE EXCUSEEE.." it was sooo funny. scooty doesnt know!!!!!! oh and kristen kreuk is in it too! but only for like 2 mins in the beginning...

saturday. today. woke up at a nice 1:00pm. ate lunch. then i went to woodside mall looked at some stuff. planning on coming back to the mall later and buying stuff.. then i go to the library, looking for the book i need for english, and i check and it says in almost every single library, they DONT have it. like the book is supposed to come from the publisher but the libraries ahev not received it!!!! ahhhhhhh does anybody have the book "Life of Pi" that i could borrow? THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!!! then after, i went to Scarboro Town Centre... had the hardest time finding the Rogers store. to fix my cell phone.. and the line up is huge. when i finally get there, the guy looks at my pohone trys to figure it out, takes out the sim card and stuff, then he does something, then he says Your SIM card has been "Used Inappropriately" then im like WHAT THE.. then he's like it's improtpley used.. and im like WHAT THE... and then he's like u need to get a new sim card! for 25 bucks.. and im like WHAT THE.... SOOO NOW, i hafta get a new sim card for 25 bucks for NO reason.. stupid gay cell phone. i hate you. then i went to foot locker and bought some shirts, then walked around, and i saw jen, and she was alsoat STC buying stuff.. then i went to champs, and i bought alotta baller bands.. cuz it was packs of 3, and buy 1 pack, get one free. so ok!!!! um.. then didnt see anything else.... then i went back to woodside, and everything was closed!!! and i couldnt buy more stuff, stuff i planned on buynig!!!! :( awww mannn. i want new clothes. and they were cheap too. at the score.. ugh... and that concludes my saturday..well it's like 7:03pm, and im just msning, blogging, and gonna eat dinner and do homework, so that's my sattaday. crap. only one more day of the weekend:( was this like the longest week or what? and dont u think weekends should be longer!!!! at least this one is one hour longer :( not enough.. i hate school, homework, and my stupid cell phone...

trouble...

2005-10-26T23:54:00.000-04:00

trouble by coldplay....
oh also...hero by chad kroeger of nickelback..from spiderman 1!
good songs.

ohhh man. remember that math contest? i do 4 out of 6 of them, and i get a 100% quiz mark? OHH MAN.. i thot it would help me in data and calculus..turns out. I HAFTA CHOOSE ONLY ONE COURSE. the quiz mark can only count in one of my math classes!!! what do i do? im doin terrrible...prettyy ,much equally terrible in those classes... wait which one should i do...calc is sitting at around 68-70 and data is at around 50-65.... now i can either boost up my calc and have a bad data.. or up my data...so my lowest mark isnt as low as it could be... im starting to think i should use this mark in data, cuz so far we';ve only done 1 quiz and 1 test. the quiz: 40% and the test: 66% therefore it's really really low.. on the other hand calc... i have a couple quizzes.. 40%, 50%, 80%, 90%, 20% and i have a test at 68% and i have some extra marks like my math poster which i got a level 4... soo i think calc isnt as bad as i think it is.. so maybe i should try and up my data mark with the contest. i got soo jipped,. (i think it's actually 'gypped") it was supposta help BOTH classes! awww man.

another bad thing.. my mom got mad at me cuz i didnt show her a sheet about parent teacher interviews and she found out from a school council-parent informative email or whatever. so she made me go around today asking for interview times.. and i have a feeeling, im gonna get in trouble regarding how bad my maths are doing.. hopefully i'll try and sign up my better classes at the end of the interviews.. so they will leave the interviews on a good note with one of the good teachers and one of my good classes!! plz pray that i dont get in trouble.. and if i do. plz just pray that they will be kind and understanding about it... cuz im gonna now start to go on msn less. gonna try and not sign onto msn until i finish my homework...or until like 9 or 10pm. i did that yesterday. and it was soo good. got a lotta work done! sooo hopefully my math marks will start to do better. oh man. but there's soo much school work to do. gotta read soooo many novels for english in such a short time..and so much homework, drilling, and studying for data and calc. OMG. HELP ME! should i get a tutor?? i dont really want to... but everyone's saying i shoiuld. and i have a feeeling it will be really beneficial. but i dont wanna..... what should i do?

anywaze. today. sucked. 1st was stupid and boring. 2nd. strings. boring. 3rd. lunch. played hand ball. 4th. theory.. really boring. 5th. mod west. boring... then i went to afterschool extra help for math stuff. im sorta getting it all now. sorta understanding everything....it's comin along..just really slowly. math is soooooooooooooo hard... ughhhhhhh.

i went to ball today at church. first there was only me, k and eyen. and i thot aww man not another night with like just a couple ppl! then aaron and sean? or shawn? came and chris came and marty came and some other guy came. and we were able to play 4 on 4 full court! havent run full court games in soooo long. then we played elimintation. where rebounding weas just crazy., where everyone has good rebounding skills except for me. the worst hops ever. but i somehow managed to get past the first 2 rounds... but i suck at basketball. tremendously...omg. missed soooo many easy baskets..and i just make soo many stupoid decisions. just like stupid terrible passes. intercepted passes, stop my dribble, lose my dribble, and lose the ball trying to do too much. ughhhhh i hate when i play like this....makes me soo mad at myself that i suck soo much. when it comes to outdoor ball. it's soo much better. i have more confidence, i have handles, i have better decision making, it's just soo much easier when it comes to streetball. i just suck when it comes to ball at church. i wanna practice. yeah as i was saying it's been so long since i played full court game at church. and all that stuff. my feeet were killing. like the skin on the bottom of my foot, like near the ball of my foot. it feels like that skin is gonna rip off... like the skin is soo like worn out, it feels all hard and it's like no longer skin. it's like..i donno like a blister kinda thing.. it's disgusting and my feet hurt! i need to pick up ball again....

my geeetar got fixed! now during lunches, kalun can teach me crazy stuff... anywze nothing more to say. signin off. laters.

all these things that i've done..

2005-10-25T23:34:00.000-04:00

again, another song by the killers. what the killers are good. well half of their cd :)..lol. i hope i havent used this title already...

man there's sooo many blogs to read and to comment on. in total in takes like a solid hour. to check everything. comment and then blog MY day. ahhhhhhhhhh

well today.. again pitch black in the morning. stupid shorter/darker days..
1st. really boring. student teacher talking about printing press and colour separations and offset press and stuff. kinda boring. looked thru caileigh's iPod nano. it;'s soooooooooo small. i still like mine tho :)
2nd. lunch. i think back to it. i dont remember what i really did. just ate the lunch with the crew.
oh man i put on my contacts.,...at lunch it toook sooo long and my left one would not go in,m and when it finally did, it like hurt and felt uncomfortable all day...
3rd. talked wit shak, mylonas, and chapface, about like the NHL and all this other stuff. lol wow i just realized i used to be into hockey a lot more. i was pretty into hockey before!
4th. calc. got my quiz back. 20%!!!!!!! im doin soooo bad in calc.... ok and i dont rem. if i told u already but if i do 4 out of 6 CNML math contests, it counts as a 100% quiz mark added to my data mark and my calc mark. so afterschool. i did the contest. WOW soooo many ppl were doin it. it was soo packed in like 5 rooms! there was 1 extra person so the student teacher said one person has to leave... and nobody volunteered to leave. so he got a dice or a coin or something and threw it up and caught it.. then that chose one side of the class, then he did this really fast repeatedly. throwing it up, and it gives like the outcome. so he's like ..ok this half of the class.... ok this row..ok this seat. you. u hafta go. sorry. bye! lol it was soo funny cuz he did it all soo fast. and that person ahd to leave... lol. anywaze only 6 questions. wow i suck at math but i think i got 5/6 on this optional math contest! feeel so proud. but it sux. how is one 100% quiz mark gonna help fix my 3 failing calc quizes and my data mark.. im doing sooo horibble in data and calc! omg.
came home after eating a lot at wendy;s. then actually did homework right away away from the computer. felt good. got a lotta data homework done. fell asleep. so decided to go and take a nap. woke up. ate dinner. watched this prison break -behind the walls..kind of interview with all the cast and talk about the show and the characters and the plot and what's gonna happen.. it was pretty cool. then watched some friends and watched some supernatural. supernatural...seems kinda a stupid show. well the whole concept of the show is kinda stupid... then after that.. i just msned and blogged for sooolong. well that includes checking and commenting blogs. took so long to finish. ugh anywaze there im done.
man tomoro apparently there's sr. boys basketball try outs tomoro at 6am!!!! are u insane?!?! i'd hafta wake up at 4:30am!!! omgoodness.. not goin to that! sometimes i wish it was where albert campbell is. 2 sec. away from my house. so it's soo much easier. i would be able to sleep longer. get to school really fast. no buses or subway... woodside mall is NEXT door and lunch would be way better cuz it's first of all better. there's ACTUALLY brand name places at the foodcourt unlike the crappy civic center foodcourt at north york civic center.. and the food is cheaper. and everything would be so much better. AND i could TRY out for the team, and then get cut cuz there's sooo many good black ballers. not trying to be offensive., but i know most of the guys on the campbell team, and they're all black. and they're all msotly good too. stupid earl haig. sooo far away..... lunches suck.... expensive..no parking anywhere near there.... stupid school.... ok im done. plz if ur gonna comment. plz comment more than 1 line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLZZZZZ

somebody told me...

2005-10-24T23:51:00.000-04:00

somebody told me - the killers....

these songs that im listening to at the moment are always perfect blog titles. cuz like ive been getting alotta advice. if u havent been reading my comments and such. thanx everybody. seriously. means a LOT. so it kinda works..somebody told me... as in like ppl givin me advice. good song too.

ok, so like last nite, if u ahvent read in my xanga. i went to bed at like 10:20 which is extremely early comapred to my normal sleeping time. like 1, or 1:30 or 2...etc. but yeah slept early.. and when i woke up, pitch black outside and i was stillllllllll soooooooooo tired. i dont understand how sleep works! stupid sleep.

got back my data test. :( i tried so hard... and got soo far...but in the end...i only got a 66...%
on the contrary, i dont know how, but i keep getting all these good marks in music theory/harmony. even tho i learn the stuff at lunch LITERALLY the period before class starts. hehehehee dont know how i do it.... doin good in mod west too. so far our mark is based on 1 test, which i did very well on, AND well comapred to everybody. but God said dont compare. so i shall not. but i already have. ok stop talking!

played basketball in the rain afterschoool......so nice..relaxing..fun..calm...just perfect. i luv it. i miss basketball..... and warm weather too..... :( wasted tonite.... tv. msn. blogs. dinner. vio lesson. smallville. which was SOOOOOOO cheesy.... by the way...anybopdy who knows superman stuff.. does anyone know of a DC superhero named arthur curry who is a really good swimmer? cuz im assuming that's a DC marvel comic-superhero. like "the flash" was on another episode. couple seasons ago.. but the ending was soo terrible worst acting/cheesiest ending ever!!! omg. i wont even tell u. cuz it's just so garbage. ok i will tell u... lois lane liked this "arthur curry" guy a.k.a "AC" and then he leaves. and lois is like i dont think i'll ever find a guy like that who wants to save the world... and then clark goes "dont worry lois, im sure ur gonna find someone who's even more special" and then he puts his hand on her shoulder... and the camera zooms out... sooo stupid!!!! and cheesy! and corny! corn and corn alone day!!! (jaNICE!) wave o' babies..

anywaze thnx again to everybody who commented.. preciate it.. really. hopefully everything turns out for the best! so thanx...keep oncommenting:) it makes my day!!!! BUT THEY HAFTA BE MORE THAN 2 LINES!!! AHEM*COUGH*TRACY*AND *AMANDA*COUGH COUGH! take cares.

iris...

2005-10-23T15:33:00.000-04:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls

just a song that i was listening to.. this weekend... i waste sooo much time.
saturday. woke up at 12. went out to eat lunch with my sis, dad and grandma. came home. wasted the whole day with msn, blogs, tv, geeetar, everything BUT homework... talked to tori on the phone for a while. thnx tori. then played basketball in the rain for like 15 mins. cuz it was freezing, and wet. ate dinner. wasted more time. then finally got a lil bit done. mathew helped me/teached me calculus. and i understand it now. i just need to do more than half a question now...
sunday. youth sunday. woke up at 7:30 to get ready to be at church by 8:15. drove. picked up pablo. practiced a bit. then we went to the sanctuary. got ready. no mic check tho. we had so many ppl, that we had to split up our group, so that we entered the stage from both sides, just to be balanced.. we did good. i dont know bout everybody else. but i had a good time. i enjoyed myself. good time of worship. i was calm, chill and happy. got thru all the songs..dont think anything BIG happened wrong.. well except. electric geeetar drowning out my lil solo-entrance that i practiced soo hard on..but whatever. good msg. by eyen. about being single. and about couples. "being single is a gift. a blessing, not a curse" "being single, we need to devote ourselves:body and spirit, and be concerned with the Lord's affairs. cherish your singlehood!" that was a good timed-reminder. i really needed that today. then into the gym. talked to carol and ada. and she was just givin me advice about school stuff and ppl. thnx. saw clinton and anastasia too just before i went up to sunday school. there we did this defending your faith scenario thing. man. im REALLY bad at this.. i like compltely blanked out. and ONLY had like cheesy sunday school answers, i really suck.... and i felt so embarassed too. cuz it's like how am i on SMT? i cant even do somethin like this.. yeah.. plz help me know more. afterwards. mysmallgroup and i discussed about...smallgroups.. i dunno. our smallgroup feels really weird. i guess it's sorta like im not comfortable with anyone in our smallgroup. except for maybe jen. but like there;s no real closeness or what's the word. it's just really ........weird. plz help me to wanna look forward to small groups. and for me to be a good example and for me to have patience with it. and i dunno. a better perspective... change me! then went to eyen's office. i thot he said he was free for lunch to go to wendy';s..so i waited for him. but then turns out he has this meeting there with the pastoral/deacon staff there soo.. i kind of went to wendy's with him, and then after a short convo with pastor daniel and kinson, i left. lunch at home. soo many dishes to wash. soo much laundry to do. and still so muchhomework to do too. plz help me just not worry bout this stuff. take away all my problems, pains, issues, burdens, worries and stress. help me to just work hard and get some work done. i also wanna be more independent..as a person..i guess. not like practical things.. like i can cook, i can do laundry, i can wash dishes, i take the bus everyday to and from school, not stuff like that. that stuff im fine-independently..but like just i depend on friends too much. and when it's times like these sometimes. where everybody's busy. everybody's off doin their own thing. and i cant always just expect me to always go to them. and like bother them and stuff. and i gotta just be a stronger person, like just deal with my issues by myself instead of always confiding in others. and a stronger christian. man. i havent done devos in sooooooooooo long. havent spent as much time with God as i want to. and i gotta stop stressin out and worrying. mathew 6:33-34! the jist of it is... DONT WORRY. depend on Him, and all will be ok.... i also gotta reduce my time on msn. i always have these plans in my head of stayiong away from the computer and just do hours of straight work, and then sleep early. that NEVER happens. i always manage to get distracted or always manage to lead myself back to the computer and i just dont get nearly as much work as i had planned. and that causes lack of sleep. and lack of sleep causes lack of focus. and lack of focus causes lack of understanding. and lack of understanding causes falling behind in homework. and fallign behind in homework causes more homework to do. and more homework to do causes lack of sleep! it's all a big disgusting cycle that im in. i need to change. help me. please! help me to do well in school and help me to enjoy the time more and to be a good example there consistently. and plz give me a direction to go to. show me what u want me to do in the future, and tell me where u want me to go. cuz i have no idea... guide me. please.

weapon...

2005-10-22T00:53:00.000-04:00

*weapon - matthew good band
this song was also playing for the smallville season 2 or 3 finale, when clark is gonna do something... and then he sees lana waiting for him and he has the kryptonite key i think.. and he's gonna destroy the ship and stuff this is all before lex's wedding... and stuff. anywaze it's a good scene between lana and clark... and im trying to learn this on geetar...

my boring school day...
1st. late. pretended to work, but did my english reading (needed to read like 60 pages before 5th period)
2nd. lunch. read
3rd. lunch again. read again
4th. supply teacher in my calc. we just did work. well..everybody else. i of course read!!! i had 10 pages left.. and it was 5th period!
5th. ms. mondrow is pms'ing, and we go thru as a class up to about page 30 something.. meanwhile im on like 54..and we were supposed to read up to page 64. but then we do thios sheet where we just need to find examples of romantic/imagery in the 3rd chapter.. and then turns out we can hand it in next class. so therefore, we didnt need to finish reading it by today!! omg. wasted so much time today reading!!!!

kyrios. got there at like 5:40. practiced worship.. got soo hungry, so we got this chinese food from kenric,but it wasnt enough, so me, jen, tim and pablo go to wendy's and get some drive thru. they spill coke or icetea in my car. and it's still sticky... anywaze we get back, and we couldnt park in the same parking spot (which was really really close to the door) cuz the guy was being a jerk and there was some performance, so there's alotta cars around trying to park. and the guy wouldnt let me park back in the same spot i was before. so we hafta park soo far away.. and far away from the door too.
anywaze. p&p was ok. our worship songs.. well our youth sunday ones went really good. i thot. some of the p&p songs were a lil unprepared.. the whole time i played geetar without any plugs, wires, amps or mics. but with the help of jaNICE, we played pretty good i think. and i got thru it. and didnt get bored or anything...
after p&p it was really weird... i dont know what i did. or if it was even me. but... well i dont know what happened.. i hope ur not mad at me or anything. the whole day seemed pretty normal and fine. dontknow what happened at the end?

if only i didnt have so much work to do this weekend..........

you got me all wrong...

2005-10-20T11:59:00.000-04:00

"you got me all wrong" by DIOS. chino-song. when ryan's back in chino with teresa thinking about his future and stuff and wanting to be back in the OC.

anywaze. 7:30 orch. rehearsal. brought my geeetar for mr. torok to fix.
1st. did pretty much nothing. then there was the UNITED assembly, which sucked ass. except that crazy geeetaring and the crazy drummer dude. everything else was just purely overrated and boring. sorry lee, but the zoom video? spoon? mehhhh
2nd. listened to all this different music, chilled with alison and jesse and others...
3rd. was gonna go to univ. workshop. but apparently it was moved.. so me,mylonas and alison went to mcD's
4th. calc. we had a quiz. and before i could finish the first question. i fell asleep. i felt like i was out for an hour, and i wake up, and everybody's still doin it. so i rush and try and finish it, which i do. but i have no idea what to do. i blanked out and i just didnt know what i was doin!! I FAILED ANOTHER CALC QUIZ!!! I HATE CALC AND I DONT GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg. so so far, 68% on my calc test, did poorly on my data test, getting it back on monday and today failed a calc quiz. great!
5th. english. mr. lamb came and taught us about analyzing films. i had him in gr.9, he was such a goiod teacher, a nice guy, funny jokes, and he knows about everything in the media. i wouldnt be surprised if he watched the OC, cuz he knows napoleon dynamite, american pie, he even watches spongebob squarepants, and is a big fan. yeah man. crazy dude. but he also gave good marks too. wayyyy better than mondrow.
afterschool. waited for mr. torok for my fixed geeetar, but it was locked up in the lil storagey-kind of room, and apparently, things in there ALWAYS get stolen, so im HOPING my geetar gets FIXED and it doesnt get STOLEN!@
took the bus with gary, fell asleep. got home. jammed with eyen, and practiced the youth sunday songs and some p&p songs. thanx eyen!!! then kinda wasted time mixed with eating dinner, teen choice awards and survivor. i REALLY NEED TO GET SOME WORK DONE.. omg. school is KILLING me. i hate school. the sad thing, is that it's only like 3 courses that are killing me. calc, data and now english... omg.

tgif. :( come sooner. weekend, stay as long as possible. PLEASE.
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i was soo hungry. so i went to mcD's and i got some mcnuggets and fries. and i just finished em... mmmmmmm soooooooooooooooo goood!!!! now to finish my english!!!!!!

grace like rain...

2005-10-19T23:04:00.000-04:00

great song...
ok well last nite.. as i was studying for data.. i fell asleep. and i still had soo many more things to study for..but i was just like.."ok, i really need sleep. im just gonna not worry, leave it all to God, pray about it, and try my best"
so in terms of studying..i didnt exactly finish.. but my test..well it was sorta hard.. again, im not confident in what i got..cuz some questions i got, some i sorta played around with it, and put something. so i dont know if i'll get part marks or soemthin. i hope i do well! thnx for your prayers..
strings. practiced that stupid quartet again! nothing against the quartet. it;s just EVERY class. mr. torok makes ONLY our quartet practice this contemporary piece!!! ahh. on a good note. alina's playing cello now! she's the really really good gr.11 cellist girl. (she's kinda better than gordon, our gr. 12 cello player..) she slowly got kicked off of cello and she was like our quartet-conductor. but today, with some pressure from me, we got her playing agaiN! yay
lunch.. oh man. everybody was working soo hard on the theory assignmnet due the NEXT period. and i didnt get it. so while everybody's working hard on this assignment..im sitting there..not knowing how to do any of it. after a long time, i start doin it, and i start getting it really fast. then we hand it in, in class..and we have a quiz. and u know what? i finished it soo fast. i thot something was wrong with me. igor. who was sitting beside me, knows this theory/chord/harmony stuff really well. was still doing it, and i was like chillaxing for like 15 mins!! but thank God. we got it back..and i got 27/30!!! which is extremely good. since i just learned the stuff the period before (lunch) lol
5th. we watched a video andw e had a supply teacher. it was reallllly boring. and msot of us just all slept.
afterschool i got MAD extra help in calculus. it was helpful. i understand it more. but i didnt get enough time to actually practice and drill on questions, so i dont think im ready for this calc quiz. plz pray for me that i study hard at lunch! and that i do ok on it.

lol. i told my dad "what do u think of Laurier?" cuz as i said in a previous post. it seems pretty cool. he laffed at me, and said it's not even a good school... :( there goes the only univ. i know about! and was interested in! lol. God, PLZ help me and guide me so i will know what i wanna do, and give me a school to go to next year! not neccesarily good, or bad school, but just where u want me to go to! ok im out. yay tomoro's thursday, then after that it's friday!!!

the ghost of you...

2005-10-18T22:50:00.000-04:00

is that already a name of another one of my posts? anywaze. im soooo dead.
today. on time for first period. didnt really do anything.
2nd. tried to do calc/data. didnt get anything done
3rd. same thing. and lunch
4th. calc. OMG. we had this lesson about limits and discontinuity, and i have no idea what this all is. it's all another language to m. it goes in one ear and out the other SOOO fast. and i have a quiz on this stuff on thursday!!! (goin to extra help afterschool tomoro...)
5th. we get all these assignments. gotta read 3 chapters of the great gatsby by friday, (and im already packed with other homework, studying AND i have a hard time reading) and i hafta choose ANOTHER book by thursday. and then read it super super fast. the great gatsby has to be done by nov. 3!!!! omg. and this other book a couple weeks after that! and then not only that. but i get this assignment where u hafta be in partners. u pick your topic from a hat and there's 2, so someone else will have the same as u.... there's this scary girl in my class. she looks so angry all the time. her eyebrows are mad looking.. she smokes and she hangs out with the gangsters and stuff, and she's just overall, really scary, appearance-wise. i said as a joke. if she's my partner, i'll shoot myself! next thing u know. SHE'S MY PARTNER!! :@ and :'( omggggg. mylonas and tony were alffing at me soo hard, and to make thiongs even worse, they're partners with each other!!!!!! omg! i know i should be more compassionate...but omg. im just swamped with stress and work and studying. and im partners with this person i didnt want to be with. probably a challenge put infront of me to face. as well. probably a lesson for me, cuz ive been saying she';s scary everytime i see her. but still !!!!! why her?! coulda been ANYBODY! there was 28 OTHER ppl i coulda been partners with. but the person i said, if i got her i'd shoot myself. i get her! wat are the chances. wow. plz pray for me that i do well on this data management test tomoro, finish my harmony assignment, learn calculus, do the homework and study hard for the test on thursday, and pray that i dont die on the way.

ghost of you is a good song to listen to, when ur just soo angry, moody, depressed and stressed...
of i forgot to add.... later on. at about 7:00 we had worship pratcice at the church. and it was just a great time to worship and get away from school stuff. plz keep reminding me that worship is a time JUST for God all about God and nothing else.. cuz sometimes i'll be worrying about what chords to play... or strumming..or just the musicality. but plz remind me it's all about God. and to just enjoy myself in worship. oh by the way. we had a good convo today..not a good/deep one. but a convo! yayyyyyyyyyyy we all good :) it's a good sign... start of a new era.........

the darkside...

2005-10-17T23:52:00.000-04:00

today started pretty bad.
went to bed at like 3, and today i slept in soo late. i slept in PAST the time im SUPPOSED to leave my house... but somehow i got to school only 40 mins late...waiot, actually that's pretty late.. but we werent doing anything important. it was just a work period. so whatever
strings. im not the weakest link in my quartet anymore! im just saying. i got better. that's all.
theory... well pretty much 90% of the class "went to attend the Wilfrid Laurier presentation".. even tho like 20 ppl left the class, only like 10 of us went to the presentation. but to be honest, Laurier seems pretty good. esp. since it'sa a good business school. not too hard to get into. it's the only school i know about now. so i like it.
mod west test. went pretty well. i only got 3 wrong. and my mark was really good., compared the rest of the class (no offense) but i was happy

went to jane and finch. ghetto area. cuz there was this huge fight.. yeah right. no. my mom had a singing recital. lol. so me and my sister went to watch and met up with my dad and aunt. some chinese ppl are really stupid/annoying. like they dont turn off cell phones during a singing recital. and u can hear EVERYTHING they're saying. and everyone's angry at them and saying SHHHHH. but they dont shut up. or they talk to one another loudly... or just stupid stuff like that/ sooo annoying. i felt bad for so many of the performers.. but yeah. got there at like 7:15 and ended about 9:45... then for some reason we went to yonge and sheppard for some chinese.

OH MAN! it was raining soo hard, and i was driving super fast down highway 400 and 401 all the way to yonge. and it was sooo crazy. like it's really dark. there's soo much rain. and there's alotta mist coming from the cars infront.. and it's just soo dangerous driving... but i survived. lol i made this crazy turn where i changed like 4 lanes all in one turn and this is before the road splits in 2. lol that was pretty scary. cuz all of a sudden, i see i hafta skip so many lanes.. but thank God im alive. anywaze, then we had some pretty good dumplings and stuff. but it went on until like 11:00. then my sis drove me home, while my rents went to drop off my aunt downtown.

my sister's soo cool. like she's tellin me to be more independent and stuff. i feel so bad. cuz since she was young she already got a job, so she's always been workingand paying for everything herself, her car, phone bills, rent, everything. she does everything herself. soo much respect for her... anywaze yeah, she's like tellin me i should just start really learning stuff. and ask questions and stuff. cuz she said she's not with her bf anymore. well now, ex. and im assuming it was cuz he was TOOO dependent, cuz that's what it seemed like she was trying to say. but wow. they went out for like 5 years +..i dont even know. but yeah. she's soo independent and smart and stuff. her husband's gonna be a lucky guy.

anywaze that's pretty much all i hafta say. i didnt do homework at all today... well i dont really have any. but i just hope i'll be ready for my data test on wednesday. thanx for reading.. laters.

i shouldnt be posting, nor be online!

2005-10-16T22:45:00.000-04:00

hahaa ok, i really gotta make this super quick. cuz it's 10:35pm, and i got alotta stuff to do, AND gotta sleep early too.
today . sunday. sat with chraysee and uhmanduh. wow i always thot guys had shorter attention spans! (sorry) but im clearly wrong. by FAR. in the gym.... chilled wit ada, eyen, tori, nix for a bit, janey, and some others.. sunday school. at first..it went kinda slowly. cuz ppl were talking and it was hard to do stuff. well i was talking too, but when i ahd to read. it was hard concentrating, i feel bad for the quiet ppl, who were trying to focus. anywze. it ended off pretty good. and it sorta is starting to seem interesting. defending your faith. got lunch at T&T with eyen, gary, boses, tori, and grace and then we had an smt meeting. talked bout snowcamp and stuff. im getting excited for it, actually. cuz i went 2 years ago, and i missed the most recent one... i was soooooooooooo sad i missed last year's one. but yeah. my last and second snowcamp is coming up. soo excited. then we had worship practice. it was a lot better. we kinda got thru a lot more songs. we have more structure and more ideas to make each song unique and stuff. wow, but i really suck at guitar! i dont know that many chords, and my strumming sux! eyen was very kind in offering to help me out this week. and just jam for practice. by the way, i LUV playing electric geetar. first time today, it was soooo awesome. i luv it. i want one! :) anywaze, we got a lot more done and accomplished. i just think we should practice more than just tuesday and friday! i, personally, think we shoulda chose songs that every single person knows. like there will be no hesistation and anything. well that's asking for a lot, but..well yeah. left at like 5:30, my mom picked me up, went to go pick up my grandma, then we came home for dinner, then ive been doin mad work. please pray for me that i will get my work done, and right. and that i do well on my mod west test, finish my theory assignment, and be ready for my data test on wednesday. Lord plz help me NOT to stress or worry. matthew 6:34. dont worry for tomoro will worry about itself, each day has enough trouble of its own... ok thanx a lot. hope i'll be ok!!

it's sattaday

2005-10-15T22:48:00.000-04:00

i luv the weekends. woke up at like 1:00pm, talked on the phone wit jeSoo. ate lunch and watched the and1 mixtape 7. and it's soo cool that nixon's in the mixtape. while skip2 my lou is crossing up the professor at the ACC, nix and isaac are sitting at the baseline, first row watching. so crazy. anywaze finally got a haircut, and put on my new contacts.. i look very different. i think..... anywaze. got home. called up rayaz and we went to goldhawk to play some ball. first we played 2 on 2, then 3 on 3 then 4 on 4. but half the guys were so high they couldnt catch the ball. so most of the time the 4 on 4...it was like 3 on 2. i played good tho, so im happy. 20 assists, 5 points, 10 boards, 15 blocks. well..im exagerrating, just a little.. but the proportion of the stats is about right :) came home.. talked to manda for a bit, then i made such a good dinner. baked some pizza and fried some chicken, shrimp, potato, eggs, cheese and rice, and put on like garlic powder and some other stuff. it was sooooooooooooooo good. and i watched an old episode of smallville..but i havent seen it. so there were these 2 brothers, and one died, then ressurected, then died again. and his eyes were bleeding. kinda disgusting. and then watched the notic 2, which is actually really crazy too. vancouver ballers. but they realllllllllly good. and im just gonna start my homework now. tons of data, study for mod west test, mad theory/harmony work, & calculizzle. ohhhhhhhhh man. i shoulda done this earlier............soooooo dead

somethings will never change...

2005-10-15T03:17:00.000-04:00

*changes* tupac. ok so recap of thursday....ALL BORING. sooo tired. orch rehearsal at 7:30am. oh yeah that morning i felt soooooo sick. tip of advice, dont drink like 5 HUGE cups of chocolate milk the night before!!! 1st. tech. pretty good. got some good marks and feedback on my assignment, and quiz. yay. and he loves my ideas for my new assignment. ok we picked numbers and each number has a different business/company so we gotta create a logo, business card, street sign and a bag for this one company/business. mine;s broken heart cafe lol. what a perfect....fit. eh? yeah ive got all these crazy/good ideas.. like i have a silouette of a coffee cup and the steam is shaped into a broken heart. ohh..too many things to name.. whatever.. soo boring without OC opn thursdays..

skip to friday. today! soo freezing in the mornings and im already wearing soo many layers! 2nd. lunch. i went with ayana to civic center for lunch. met up with the guys. and miya and ian bought apple pie and didnt want anymore, so they gave it to me. then we went to buy lunch. then sat with charmaine, scout, caity and kristen. and had a funny but weird convo about diets and vegetarians and different types of eaters and such.... then we went back to school and played some football. that was fun. then carried onto my 3rd. spare or my 2nd lunch! and then spent most of this period playing handball with the music majors.

skip to afterschool. i bus home. and i get home at 5:00. and im supposed to be at church at 5 to practice for youth sunday. anywaze i get there at like 5:20 and luckily not that many ppl were there, and they didnt start yet. sooo yeah but my bad.. too be honest, we didnt accomplish that much. it's a lil chaotic. well sound wise. but that was just cuz our guitars werent plugged in today. but i couldnt hear anything!!!!song-wise. i dunno. seems like everybody isnt familiar with everything. including me. i dont really know the songs.... and that kinda restricts the passion for playing some worship songs... that sounds bad. but yeah. i hope all goes well. we get enuff practice time. we all will know the youth sunday songs, and will work well together and play the best we can for God.

after this. i went to go get my new contacts...which surprisingly didnt take that long at all. then i drove to mcdonalds and got fillet of fish. i miss mcDs...havent eaten there in SOOO long. then got to church. ate. chilled. talked. had kyrios worship. amy came today. which was really cool. glad u came. hope u had fun at kyrios! the program was straight talk. 1st we split up guys/girls and asked questions/talk/discussion on whatever... i have alotta questions!! i asked sooo many! but i got some good stuff out of it. then we merged back guys and girls. and we had a joined discussion and stuff. and again i had alotta questions to ask. a lot of mine were asked in the discussion questions.. does that make sense? anywaze seemed like alotta the answers and stuff were helpful to me, applied to me, and some were directed to me. but i learned a lot. i found this all relaly helpful, and i wanted it to go on longer... but lack of time. i got alot of questions answered and stuff,. but still more! hopefully we'll plan another one soon.

then after this. mike, nadine and some of the genesis ppl came in. and OMG. we see a big rock on nadine;s finger! mike and nadine are engaged. i actually thot it was a joke. didnt believe it for the longest time. but wow yeah. congrats Mikadine!!!!! spud's happy!! then after SOOOOO long of loitering and talking and chilling, we go to pho and there i had a nice long chat with natalie, about stuff, ppl, yeah........... no problems, nat! u did the same for me, and u helped me out today too. so thanx to u too! when it comes to friends that dont act like friends... like... you dont need them as friends if they're going to be like that... if nothing...just let it go...they're not worth it, and it's their loss. nat, i hope things turn out for the best.

then after that mike and nadine met up with nadine's mom outside of pho to talk about the engagement. then later, we all loiter outside and talk for the longest time. mike, nadine, nat, nate, chris, eunice, nix, derek, sam, eyen..then we just keep loitering and talking till me, eyen, sam, derek and nix are just talking about soo many different things.. lol. good times. then it's about 12:40ish, so me and eyen drive home, and we're driving soooooooooooo slowly and taking up the only 2 lanes on mcniccoll. so there's like all these cars behind us, following soooo closely!! LOL. hahaa anywaze yeah. that's pretty much my long 2 days....

by the way... just to let u know....if i dont shut my mouth and i keep talking....it usually means i like you and i feeel very comfortable talking to you. and love your friendship. cuz i get sooo annoying and talkative sometimes. i feeel bad for ppl sometimes. that they hafta listen to me. but yeah. i think it's cuz my parents dont really talk talk to me, and my bro moved out and my sis is barely ever home, or around cuz she;s always working. so i think it's the lack of talking at home. that i hafta confide in all of you. sooo i really appreciate you all, and thank you for listening to me all those COUNTLESS times. and givin me advice and encouragement and what not. and i just love u guys to death. so me talking a lot and being in your face all the time = love for you! hahaha hope that equation makes sense to you. it does to me! the restriction on the variable is x cannot = 0. that's all....

eye.n.basketball.

2005-10-13T00:17:00.000-04:00

i and basketball.
eye.n. basketball.
eyen, basketball.
today..school was sooooooooooo boring. soo boring, it's just a blur, and a faint memory...
1st. data. soo confusing and soo much work. 2nd. strings. boring. 3rd. lunch. boring. 4th. theory.even more boring. 5th. modwest. learned some stuff about the renaissance. so glad i went to gr/italy. that helped me a lot too. and also enjoying all the great stuff from history, and actually witnessing/being there is helpful and makes it all more interesting. but school all boring.

but the fun part was when i went to church. the gym was dark and nobdy was there yet. so i popped into eyen's office, and eyen was actually there.. as opposed to the past 14 days, when it was dark and the blinds were up. and nobody was there! but HE WAS THERE and we chilled. i misssss eyen soooooooooo much sooooooooooo glad ur backkk. played some ball. then he went to prayer meeting. then shot around a bit, then chris came, and we played 1 on 1. played horse, shot around, even played bump. with 2 players! and then lol we were like working on our hops. lol soooo sad how i can rarely skim the foam of the backboard.. and he's shorter than me and can get backboard. lol and then we even had a long jump competetion. lol.

annywaze after a long time, eyen finally comes back and we have a long convo about his wedding and honeymoon, and life, and school and everything.. then we play some more ball which was fun. i played a bit better! yayyyyy. and then we were leaving, me and eyen chilled and talked some more while we were sitting in our cars... and then went home and msned/blogged/emailed and what not. oh man.n school is SUCH a drag. i just dont like going to it day in and day out. it's soo draining. esp. with the lack of sleeep. and such. oh man. i need a break from school. like a good 2 weeks would be nice. i'll keep it short. i'll end it here. turrrah! (from art attack)

the oc + smallville = SAUSAGE FACTORY!?!?

2005-10-11T22:55:00.000-04:00

yeah... there's this tv show on YTV called "Sausage Factory" yeah... very....wrong name....
but yeah.. guess what?
ok...seth cohen's on that show, and ALSO "kiwi" raise your voice/ "chilli" from the OC is on that show too. and the funny thing is that on the OC, chilli is supposed to be the equivalent of seth cohen in public school. but now they're no the same show.
and ALSO they both made guest appearances on smallville! yeah man.. oh and also... "alicia" from smallville, clark's wifey. the girl who's obsessed with clark and can teleport... she was on this sausage factory show too. ahhhhhhhhhh so crazy. sooo many ppl, but all the same shows.
such a pointless post. i swear!
yep. so this morning., i surprisingly got to school on time, despite lack of sleep.
1st. boring. then after 1st. i called up eyen. but SORRY i woke up sandra :( forgot u guys were still jetlagged! sorry. but it was great talkin to u...longest 14 days EVER
2nd. lunch, listened to music with alison
3rd. attempted to study calculus
4th. calc test....hope i did ok. i have no idea what im gonna get, im not confident in any of my answers. welll except for 1. thnx everybody for prayin for me.
5th. boring englishh. those ppl dont shut up! and then mondrow tells them to stop going off topic, then she goes on a whole discussion about desperate housewives..and omg. we dont get anything done in that class....
talked to jeSoooooooo on la phone..and i dunno. afterschool. went by soo fast.. msned. fell asleep infront of the computer, tv, dinner, msn, dishes, garbage, msn, blog, raptors, i dunnoo...

if i have a data test tomoro. im SOOOOOOOOOO dead. im praying that i dont! anywaze..
W E L C O M E B A C K S E Y E N D R A !!!!

edit AHHHHHHHH....mathdoing monday

2005-10-11T03:31:00.000-04:00

omgoodness. it's about 3:19am, right now. yeah. just a lil late. um..im a little frreakin out..ok so here's the deal. im supposed to "create a calculus test" based on ch. 1 and 2. covering the 4 sections of knowledge/understanding, application, communication, and thinking/inquiry. anywaze after SOOOO long..i finally finished. i printed it out, the marking scheme is perfect. and all. and im packing my stuff up, and i realize i missed the whole part about inequalities!!!!

im kinda trying not to panic. but yeah. im missing some parts. and also, i didnt know how to insert a division sign and a couple other stuff on microsoft word. so the format and alyout is really ugly! but at the moment, i dont really care. cuz it;s now 3:22am.

yeah. soo PLEASE pray for me, that this assignment goes well. and my mark will be ok. and ALSO plz pray that i will be ready for this calc test tomoro..well TODAY.. plz pray that i do ok, and that my studying was well absorbed into my head..and i'll just do ok!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh...

SEyendra's backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk todayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

special RANDOM shoutouts to: mat, jaNICE, jeSo, chraysoooo, uhmanduhhhh, helen, and tori :)
dont ask why. lol. it's 3:26, and im not exactly thinking right now.
oh, and jeSooo, keep reading!!!! there's a lot of posts to read. but DO IT!!! lol. unknown reward!! hahahahahahahahahahaa. my life in a huge episode of a drama-tv series/movie called, "The OrangeVille" hahaha orange. just like my layout! nice. SPOT's the word! lol jks.

poll.. glasses or contacts (for me, obviously)

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh stupid math. forget thanx giving. it's math DOING monday. oh man! all day ive been doin math and i still got a mountain of it left!

thnxgiving dinner was really good. my bro, his wife, my aunt, my grandma, and my sis' really good friend and her baby came. filling dinner. really good. but yeah

ok poll....******************************
glasses or contacts!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

the first and the last sunday

2005-10-09T14:19:00.000-04:00

what a sunday... at the same time not much happened, but then so much happened.

first sunday with my contacts...nobody believed me when i said i got contacts...most ppl were like "yo, what happened to your glasses".gee thanx. lol. but yeah my left contact fell out DURING service, but thankfully rachel was there, so i didnt feel as weird putting in back in DURING service. tori had like a lil solo in one of the songs..it was so good!

chilled at the gym for awhile. lol sry guys. u guys convinced me to go play football...but then i dunno. i just couldnt. sry. BELIEVE ME. i wanted to go... but yeah...saw soo many faces i havent seen in a while. jimmy, josh, tiff, nix, amanda, nathan. wow....anywaze, there wasnt a sunday school today, we just got a handout...which i havent looked at yet... and i had some funny convos wit uhmanduh and chrayseee. lol. the counter is really green!!!!! im not joking!

soo i chilled wit amy and jessica so. who is 'so' cool. lol...it was like the first time i really talked to amy or jessica. it was cool. they're pretty funny... hahahahahaha amy, i swear looks identical to helen.. nixon was right! hahahaha and jess' iPod has stolen songs from my iPod. i know u copied me! just cuz i have good songs...u hafta go and copy what i have. it was fun. u gotta come to kyrios!! amy too. u gotta go SOMEWHERE. try kyrios and bridletrail, and if u want even mcbc wit jess, but do soemthin!

anywaze it was ryan's last sunday before he leaves to newport. or new something.. something near boston.... so i tried to chill with him as much as possible, so just kinda chilled with him while we were waiting for ada, and while i was talking to jess and amy...then iwent to pho for lunch with ryan and ada, good times... cant believe we wont see u anymore, and when we do, it'll only be for a bit! i cant believe ur leaving! we had daycamp, t3c, basic, ccsa banquet, seyendra's wedding, and everything inbetween...gonna miss u man. cuz no matter what was happening, u'd ALWAYS be sooo encouraging and nice. ur soooooooo nice to everyone, literally EVERYONE. and u'd always invite me to go eat, or to drive me, or fishing or homerun derby's or whatever. thanx man. have a good time down there doin your fishin stuff. take care man. we all gonna be missin u! keep doin what ur doin!

today was also the last sunday eyen will be missing!!! he's coming back in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!

the outreach

2005-10-08T23:37:00.000-04:00

eyyyy..
today. woke up at 9:30am. went to garage sale at the church with my dad to give my mom a coat and so i could get the car from her...then went home, had a really good breakfast. contacts on, SOOO fast.meet at church.off to markham salvation army. moved a lot of stuff, sorted a lotta stuff, packed a lotta stuff and cleaned a lotta windows!!!! which was surprisngly really fun. we went around the whole church and literally cleaned ALLLLLLL the windows that existed on the building.... dont ask WHY..we just wanted to. it was actually fun. shut up. lol.

then when we finally finish, she lets us play basketball in the gym... sooo sad. the net was SOOOO low..and guess what>? that's right...nooo hops.. i could only squeeze in some dunks..., so pathetic. anywaze we played alotta fun games of bump. but soo many ppl dont know how to play properly. the reason they call it "bump" is cuz u bump the other person's basketball, with your OWN basketball. not with hands and such. boaz! rolled mine all the way down...but then i blocked josh from behind with my basketball...hahahhaa.

then when after..we decide to go picklebarrel. actually tori decides.. but we go. and i keep asking them. pickle barrel, right? they say yeah. then im like markville, right? yeah. near the back, right? yeah. ok. so then we go.. me, gary, boaz and richard go in, and see them so we folow them in...and they're like, "u should tell them ur sitting here, we only asked for a table for 3" WHAT THE- [jaNICE...lol wendy's!], but seriously. omgosh. and then i also realized i didnt have any money...and neither did any of the guys...so we left and went to the foodcourt, where we bought a couple tacos. then we drove boaz home, dropped gary at the church and drove richard home,

then i went home, but i saw that the BRE were playing football. so i played for a bit. almost got a touchdown on the very first play. lol. anywaze, then ryan's dad asks if we can help move their trailor to the side of the house, so we do it, it takes sooo much effort, strength, and everything, we CANT get it to the side of the house, cuz it's like on a lil hill, and just there's this lil fence and anywaze, so we take maybe about 20 mins of just planning how to move it. then we like try and take out the fences, then after SOOOOOOOOOOO long and SOOOOOOOO many different times of moving it. and by the way, it's MAD heavy. anywaze, then the mom comes out and they talk and stuff, then they start coming up with all these other plans... then after ALL of this.... ryan's just like HONESTLY, WHAT WAS WRONG WITH WHERE IT WAS IN THE FIRST PLACE, ON THE DRIVEWAY!... so then after all of this, we put it BACK onto the garage, where it originally was!!! lol. we werent mad... but like we wasted soooo much time, and ended up not accomplishing anything. hahahahaa

anywaze they decide toplay some street hockey before the leaf game starts, so we play. it was really fun. havent played streethockey in so long, cuz the BRE are all mostly out of town for university, and they came back for the weekend. so that was fun, i got a hat trick.

came home...and i honestly dont know what i did, but i wasted the whole night, up until now. 11:34pm, not doing homework.. stupid procrastination and stupid leafs game, which we lsot, and stupid everything.. im so pro at procrastinating.. i hate it. anywaze im gonna try and do some calc before i sleep.

supposed highlight of my week...

2005-10-07T23:59:00.000-04:00

fridays are usually what i look forward to in a week. but this friday definitely sucked.

fortunately, today i got to school at 8:40am, and i was sooo early that nobody i knew was around and i had nothing to do...so i wandered around then i fount ian and nat. but still it was soo early and boring and nothing to do.
1st. supply teacher..MAD data work/studying..esp for the weekend
2nd. boring strings. ensembles work....i nailed my part finally.
3rd. lunch w/ ayana, mylonas, igor and some others...
4th. theory.....soooooooooooooooooooooo boring and that chord stuff is sooo hard/gay/stupid!!!
5th. mod west. renaissance. kinda boring...
afterschool. wendy's wit gibson and mylonas. then long SLEEPY bus ride home...
tv.dinner.tv.contacts.kyrios.
watched school of rock. but i saw it already and i had mad homework/studying to do.. so i just went into the hall and did some data management. THANK YOU RACHEL for helpin me out in sooooo many questions i was stuck on. thnx!!!! yeah i have soooooooooooooo much to do this weekend...it's insane and completely unfair.
who does that tho? seriously? ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULDNT DO IT! seriously man.........geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez........ things like this are sooo frustrating. it's not hard to do! i dont understand it at all.............

*special shoutouts to tori. thank you toriii. preciate it sooo much. and soorrrryyy!!!!

this weekend already sucks. soooooooooooooo much work / studying to do it's unbelievable...

wake me up when november comes...

2005-10-06T23:31:00.000-04:00

today sucked too... and what's with everyone?? everyone's sooooooooo busy!!!!!!! cuz :( i have 0 comments onmy previous post :( yeah but EVERYONE"S super busy./ what'swith this timing. soo bored... im enjoying my hasbrowns and my pizza pocket............mmmmmm

today got late start. school starts at 10:20. on time today!!! 1st. boring. 2nd. some funny convos about tv and music and movies and such. 3rd. crazy huge game of hand ball. 4th. mad boring calculus, and we got mad work to do and ive got mad studying to do too. and 5th. english. we got MAD SHEETS. some about homework, some about feild trip, some about..i dunno. we just got like a whole stack of sheets. soooo much to do.. but then on contrarily....these past days i havent touched my school stuff afterschool.. cuz nothing's really DUE...it's all just studying and such... nothing DUE the next day. but next week and this long weekend is gonna be killler. soooo much to doo..sooo little time!!!!! omg.
and to top that all off.. there wasnt any OC today! the thing i look forward to all day, and it doesnt even happen. OC doesnt come back till NOVEMBER!!!! wake me up when november comes!!! cuz of stupid baseball. baseball is on fox, so u gotta push back oc till nov. so gay... this week sux! at least tomoro's friday and kyrios!

wednesday

2005-10-06T00:36:00.000-04:00

how unoriginal... let's se how fast i can blog about my day.

7:30am orch. rehearsal. data. supply teacher. did a lil work and slept. strings. boring. torok singles me out and i really suck. so embarassing. cuz ive got 3 other amazing string players and they all in gr.11. 3rd. lunch. boring. 4th. theory. boring. slept. 5th. mod west. boring. stupid video. got home. msn'ed and stuff. checked raps stuff. stupid rob babcock for trading rafer alston. put on contacts for soo long. went to ball. only 7 ppl went. 3 on 3s. we need ppl to go! came home. msn'ed, emails, blog, and whatnot. sooooooooooo boring.

such a boring tuesday

2005-10-04T21:35:00.000-04:00

late for tech. 1st. tech was boring. just watched some ppl's presentations. 2nd. lunch. boring. 3. lunch again. but also sleep. 4. calculus. handed in my poster..i got some pretty good feedback of my ad-spoof-poster.
which says "Enjoy Calculus" in the Cocacola font.. then i wrote dont drink and derive, as if it was the slogan..then on the bottom i have the adidas ad. instead of IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING. i have IMPOSSIBLE = 0, then instead of the adidas logo, i have a bar graph, with 3 bars then it says ADDING, instead of ADIDAS. then i have a nike ad. the swoosh has a parabola and it says JUST SOLVE IT. then lastly, i have the McDonalds Golden arhces as upside down parabolas and it says Mathematics. i'm lovin it! pretty good feeedback. but quiz..i think i did decently ok... then boring ..studying.... 5th. engish. boring. supply teacher.. just did a boring hand out. got home. put on contacts for half an hour! went to play basketball. really boring.. cuz the ppl at goldhawk sucked and kept playing so wouldnt let us play. then afterwards.. they wouldnt start a new game.. they'd just play stupid 1 on 1s or 2 on 2s. soo gay., wasted a whole like hour there.
such a boring day. today sux

OH and rafer alston got traded!! wat the... my fave raptor, gone, for some dude named mike james. dude, we had a streetball legend on the toronto raptors. he was the flashiness of the franchise! rob babcock is on some serious crack.

beef..

2005-10-03T18:11:00.000-04:00

this morning..my mom woke me up at 7:40...cuz i fell asleep last nite AS i was gonna set my alarms!! i woke up and my glasses were still on, the lights were still on, my phone was near me and it was a push of a button away from being set and yeah...i got up late..but my mom helped me wit food and drove me a couple bus stops away...so that saved me like a good 20-30mins. thank the Lord. and i wasnt late!!

i finally got my guidance apt. so i got the form i need to drop my world issues. lunch was funny. ayana was eating a box of handcream ..i wont say the other terms....soooo wrong...soo funny she also had a banana too and then i dipped it into the yogurt...mad funny. she lost her appetite. lol.

skip 2 afterschool...apparently there was gonna be a fight, so as me, mylonas, igor and chapface are walking down the street...i swear like 100 ppl are coming behind us, so we decided to see what's happening, they go into that lil walkway part on the side the street in a "secluded" area..and for a long time nothing happens, but then soon enough there's like 3 fights goin on at the same time..i think it was some of the asians vs. some persians.. the persian kids got beaten up pretty badly, they were pretty cut up and scratched and bleeding, cuz they walked by me sooo i saw their face close up. i didnt see the asians tho... then we left just before the cops came.. anywaze just bussed home and decided to walk all the way instead of take another bus up for 3 stops.. cuz anywaze the street was blocked off for some reason.. did some more thinking. im gonna walk that way more often...i just hope im not super busy...

yeah about that. i dont know where it stands. dont know if the msg was for me...seems like it was.. well im sorry. if that's what u wanna hear. what am i supposed to say? i didnt choose to make it this complicated.. and lastly, this is in the past.. there's not really anything i can do about it. so if u wish it never happened, then i guess im sorry u met me? i dunno. it's not exactly my fault. is it my fault that u are the way u are..and i am the way i am? if u wanted to get rid of me, u shoulda told me, i woulda rather preciated that then i dunno. just be straight up with me, none a this pretending, playing around, mixed msgs stuff. just tell me straight up. that's all i ask.

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on a side note...
Post 5 Weird and Random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Also leave a post on their blog to let these people know.

1. i play the violin and viola, and i have a stupid violin lesson today... i hate lessons.

2. i think im a lot like seth cohen and ryan atwood...but more seth-like, but still SOME ryan atwood.

3. i hate reading..i cant stand it. (novels i mean) but if i were to choose, my fave book is The Catcher in the Rye, which i like to call Ketchup in the Eye.

4. i have this problem with waking up...even with 4 alarms goin off,. i still manage to sleep in and then be late. my mind just keeps tellin me that the faster u turn off the alarm sound, u can go back to a nice warm place, and that waking up is evil!

5. i have a.d.d.

TAG LIST: tori, manda, tracy, jaNICE,and helen, and alison, if ur reading this, do this too! ur all taggged.

unifair, swiss, hmv, smallville

2005-10-01T22:17:00.000-04:00

university fair today....
i went with lee. sry dude for the subway..stuff..NEVER count on me being on time dude. sry again man. mad/unexpected construction..but no excuses. my bad.

anywaze.. got to uni fair...mad walking! soo many escalators and everything...
it was pretty packed... i tried to get as much free stuff as i could...but i barely got anything...
ryerson bags, ryerson keychain, york bag, magnets, king's u pen, pen/highlighter, rbc highlighter, western keychain,smokefree nalgene bottle, hersheyMAX5 bar (dont know what THAT is exactly)
derek a.k.a. moses got a usb key chain on friday for askingquestions about engineering..and i DID that and i didnt get one :(
but it took a really short time..me and lee were done by like 1:30ish and we got there at like 12...so it went pretty fast..but even after all of that i still have no idea what i wanna do!!! soo many things to read about each school now!!! ugh.....................

anywaze later..we went to swiss chalet.....foood was soooooooooo good.. lol we had such a random convo.. we talked about like saturday morning cartoons, reboot, digimon, mini claude, matthew (i cant believe u dont know tiny kong from donkey kong 64 on nintendo 64!!!! gosh!!!) lol, art in gr.6, dragonballz, simpsons, i cant even rmb everything... foood was sooo good. havent had swiss in so long.

then we chilled infront of roy thomson hall for the longest time trying to call ppl to do soemthing..but EVERYbody was gone or busy... so we walked up simcoe and found a movie crew filming a movie..apparently it's called "a recipe for a perfect christmas" or somethin, but we only saw trailers and pylons... then we walked down queen st. crazy potheads out and about over there... we went to footlocker...then we went to HMV...and we listened to all these cds for such a long time..i fell asleep listening to the killers and jack johnson... we then pretty much went back to the subway..and i fell asleep cuz i was soo tired..and lee learned a lot about york and ryerson.

then i bussed home...fell asleep again..missed my stop. so got off at the next one...walked all the way to the stop i was supposed to get off at and i realized i didnt even get a transfer...so i had to walk past 4 more bus stops...but i was just listening to good/sad songs on my iPod and just did soooooooo much thinking....and i just didnt wanna go home..so i dont think ive ever walked that slowly home before...ever.. yeah did soo much thinking that the walking wasnt that much at all.. got home..and i was flippin channels on tv, and smallville season premiere was just starting at i watched it!!!!! sooo good......terrible acting...but soooo good!!! then flipped more channe;s and found that an older episode of smallville was on ytv, but ive never seen it before...and it was about pete street racing..(it looked like scenes from the fast and the furious) but it ended sad, cuz pete came to apologize to clark, then he asks to play a game of basketball, like old times...but clark's like "no...not this time." and drops the ball and walks away..and pete's all sad and he starts to walk away soon too...

anywaze not much else to say.... thnx for readin.

oc, tgif, kyrios, pho

2005-10-01T02:26:00.000-04:00

the title looks funny. all really non-normal words....if u look at em..
anywaze...just to summarize really quickly...cuz at the moment, it's 2:15am

thursday...boring...the oc was amazing... crazy..charlotte freaky lady going to rehab just to try and meet some rich patient and get money off of them...then also freaky taylor and the dean making out...and "what a great way to END THE SUMMER" ouch..... burned summer again! hate em...

friday...came 10 mins early for school!!!!!!!!!!! never happened ever this whole year!!! my best record before that was 5 mins early.....1st...presentation..hope it went well..the teacher kinda liked it..kinda seemed like he didnt like it...mixed msgs. at times i thot it was good, others thot he hated my presentation... 2nd. lunch. nothing. just chilled wit allyson, lee and others...i dont know what's up with some ppl..but this week they really changed...and for the worse...dont u agree, lee? 3rd.lunch again...hung out with chiao and went thru my iPod and just talked...she's a cool girl....didnt get ANY homework done ....4th. got some help in calculus...since it was like a free-workingperiod...got some work done and learned some stuff too!......5th..there was no 5th...well actually me and mylonas went to check and there WERE ppl in the english class.... but we left anywaze..mondrow DID say that she wont teach since everyone would be at the uni fair...supposedly... anywaze just went home early and stuff then went to go pick up jen

drove to kyrios.. worship practice and stuff...worst worship ever-on my part.... first song, jaNICE's song..ALWAYS was good..but we had to do acapella for alotta the songs..cuz tori and me couldnt play em....i felt terrible... i sux'd so much on geetar!!! aiya....soooo unprepared!! sorry kyrios!!! biblestudy...really really quiet....someof the girls are kinda chatty! amanda and tracy!! sooo much chatter from u 2...well sometimes the othertimes u guys dont speak up for discussion!! anywaze.. then later mike-special presentation..andw e watched slideshow for eyen and sandra's wedding banquet...sooo awesome i love those guys..and i miss em sooooo much!!! 10 more days!!!

then after the program...i dunno..i just wasnt feeelin good. i was feelin all moody again. thnx chraysee for talking wiff me and cheering me up. preciate that soo much. anywaze.. then after aLOTTA loitering..we went to pho..and at our table of 8..we ordered like 3 springrolls and like 3 drinks! lol. chris is a punk with a banana on his car!! hahahahahaa u jerk. got home. msn'd, talkj with tori on the phone and figure out what's happenin tomoro for uni-fair....anywaze it's 2:26am. im dead. anywaze nite.

provider

2005-09-28T17:24:00.000-04:00

oh man..thank you to everyone that prayed for me and helped me out and stuff.. omgoodness.. God is amazing... well i didnt understand what was gonna happen..but everything worked out..and He provided for me. if u dont know what im talkin about. read the previous post!

first i got on my bus pretty late..and even worse there was mad traffic jammed up at mccowan!! i had to go all the way to yonge!!! soo i was on a bus 45 mins longer than usual...i just slept...
so i got to school at 9:30. and class starts at 8:55. but lucklily my teacher was nice about it. and even NICER. was that the quiz was moved to MONDAY!! that's right!!! not tomoro, not friday, but MONDAY!!!! GOD IS GREAT. ok i reallly rreally gootta study and learn this stuff for monday!!! anyone wanna help me with data/calc this weekend?!

thank you again everybody..for your help and prayers..it means soo much. thanx.
eyen: i miss u !!! 12 more days..

burn // everything edit dying....

2005-09-27T22:58:00.000-04:00

hey thnx everybody for all your comments...
stupid spammers....

let it goo now.. just gotta let it burn, alright?

i miss eyen :( // 13 more days!

today sucked. nothing special. just boring and tiring.
thnx everybody for everything
*everything* - fefe dobson.

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im dying........data and calc together are killing me!!! i try... i try and do homework..i try to pay attention to lessons...i try not to worry!! i try..but i cannot do!!!! this math is killing me..it takes forever to do. if i can even DO some of the questions.. tomoro i have a quiz and im trying to do practice questions and i cant get any!!!!!
i just read matthew 6:33-34:
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
but it's still hard..... i NEED God to help me... i nneeeed you here!! :'(
math is killing me... jaNICE, where do u work exactly..like location and everything.. im thinking of getting help. cuz this math is not getting into my brain... :'(!!!!!
IM DYING.............

rainy days

2005-09-26T17:50:00.000-04:00

poo. i hate rainy days. they always start out dark, cold and gloomy AND wet. soo i got outta bed late cuz it was just soo dark outside.. crap breakfast cuz i didnt have time to make anything good. wet and cold and miserable outside. wait awhile for the bus which was crowded but i got on luckily. then my next bus i had to get on took a while and everybody was in the shelter and i didnt wanna open up my umbrella again..so i just stood in the rain...slowly getting soaked...got on the bus...styarts raining harder...and i can see some floodiness on some streets...and then mad traffic...got to the subway at 9:15! and then 1 min into walking into the subway station. there was a blackout. compltely pitch black in the station..kinda freakey..but it was really short..and luckily the subway trains were still fine.. anywaze got to school soo late and all my classes sucked today. boring and tiring all put together. the gayest part is afterschool it was nice and drying up and a lil bit of sun. WHY? wat's the point of that? it's been such a miserable day...i had to walk in the rain to school. during lunch back and forth. and my way home is dry.... if ur gonna rain and make ppl miserable, might as well rain all day. im not even making any sense. alright. put on my contacts like half an hour ago...sooo hard to put in still! and just talkin to chraysooo at the moment. soo much math to do! notice i said "math" and not calc or data! that means a lot of BOTH. i hate homework.

in the end...

2005-09-25T23:52:00.000-04:00

in the end - linkin park video on your right...
sooo dead.
so much data and calc homework and still not done.
im falling behind! help me, please! i pray that i just stop procrastinating, and i just get my work done and really absorb all of this stuff...help me do well on these quizes this week. take away all this stress and all these worries....

im trading my sorrows, im trading my pain, im laying them down for the joy of the Lord.

today.. church. lol i started the clap and cheering for Ian and Sandra's wedding announcement!! lol. sunday school. learned a lot of good stuff bout leading a biblestudy. to be honest im pretty excited about leading bible study. doesnt seem that bad...im looking forward to it. i think i'd do alright. ate a goood lunch wit my rents came home. tried to do homework but fell asleep, then couldnt focus on doing work... then family dinner at home wit bro and his wife and wit my sis and my grandma. it's been awhile! then later..thnx chraysoo. lol. did some homework. mathew helped mea bit! thanx mat. but im dead. got soo much to do still!! 2 math quizes this week!! help me survive this week!!! i cant wait till friday and kyrios!!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!

the dearly beloved...

2005-09-25T01:31:00.000-04:00

another episode title from OC season 1, season finale!! when julie and caleb get married! but that's another story...

wow soo much to talk about...
friday. boring school.... then we got KYRIOS!! yay. highlight of my weekdays-week! we had intro to smallgroups. BUT before that!! i was trying on contacts next door at the T&T plaza....took soo long to put them in! my eyes were soo sore afterwards and the next day too! but it's pretty easy to take em out..compared to putting them in, which is mad hard!! anywaze, this lasted soo long..until about 7:15 then i went to shoppers to get some stuff for Kyrios.
kyrios. we had smallgroups. to be completely honest. im not entirely happy.. well technically we didnt even start. so yeah, i should give it time before i say anything..but i dont really talk to anybody in my group, except for jen. dont really have any friends in that group... and the counselors i talk to least? ....yeah..for me and jen it's gonna be....a....very odd year od smallgroups? i really hope things work out to be good. i hope me and jen really get to give smallgroups a chance..and just know that it IS ministry...it's not just hanging out.. and it's not all about knowing everybody in the group and being good friends with everybody..but maybe this is all part of the plan. that we reach out to ppl we dont usually talk to....

saturday. k im gonna just skip a long to today!!! YAY. eyen and sandra's wedding!!! a.k.a SEyendra!!!!! (my invention!) congrats guys!!!! this morning..woke up at around 8:30ish...but still chinesily mananged to get there at 10am and late! but yeah mike gave us some walkie talkies, so it was cool. we were like bouncers...
mike did a lotta work so big ups to mike for all the behind the scene running around and what not. twas ALL GOOD. onto the big day. eyen and sandra's wedding. congrats again. african themed wedding!!

yep! this is our sanctuary, with a tree in the middle!! supposed to recreate a scene/moment that the 2 had in their trip to kenya. i think it was! the wedding was awesome. just soooo amazing. glad i could be a lil part of it!!! [pics courtesy of tiff's blog page:)] lol.

well afternoon. went to tori's. had lunch. and watched "first daughter" some chickflick bout katie holmes being the president's daughter and stuff... soooooooooooo cheesy...and i attempted to do homework, but couldnt resist the temptation of napoleon dynamite, which we watched a bit of, before we had to go to the banquet and reception to help out with prep and stuff. got there soo late:( it was traffic!

funny story: ok soo rachel's driving us all to dinner and im like wat's the fastest uve ever driven..and rach is like 130km/h, and chun;'s like 80, and kim's like i dont remember, and then tori;s like 50km/h and then rachel's like: your bike can go that fast!?!?!? lol!!! mad jokes.. ownage! lol. and kim said, "so mastermind is like ikea....but mastermind?" lol. kim's another CB. anywaze

banquet was fun... food was good. many laffs and memories!!! EYEN!!!!! ON THE LEFT CHEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. im never washing that cheek EVER!!! lol. [Luke 6:29 If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also.] lol. room on the right side still! lol mad jokes!! crazy youth pastor... then there was the game with the animals and "geeeeee-rraaAffFFFFFFFFEE!!!!!" lol. and the coffeehouse pic with the wig!!!!! and REALLY crazy ska-ing a.k.a. skanking skills..u guys are all crazy!!!!!! luv u eyen! have the best honeymoon a guy named eyen and a girl named sandra could have together!! gonna miss u these 2 weeks man!!!! wat me gonna do? who be me?! take cares kouya! tata-eh! :)

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on a side note: everyone seems to have soo much drama these days..and for once i dont! soo yeah. imma pray for all u guys.. keep the faith strong! keep your head up. everythin's gonna be alright! FROG it. k? lates

the o.c.

2005-09-22T22:25:00.000-04:00

such a good show. good episode today.. wow it got pretty intense. like jimmy was fully getting beaten up.. oh man..soo brutal and painful....owwww.. but im sure it woulda looked even worse when they showed him the next day saying goodbye to marissa.
wow and marissa and ryan!!!! aiya.....
that stupid dean. i hate him such a jerk. and him and taylor keep messing things up! but at least seth and summer are still together. wow everyone's "together". sandy and kirsten back together, seth and summer, ryan and marissa, marissa and her mom. it was good in the end:)

as for my day...i was late again!!!! ok when i get to the bus stop tehre's already like 5 ppl lined up and there's no bus in sight so i RAN down past 2 bus stops...sooooooooo far.. and then when i get there., i still hafta wait for a bus. and i came late!!!!!!!! late everyday!!!!! but i dont think mr. raemisch took attendence cuz it was picture day., and everybody kept leaving to get their pictures taken. WOW thank God! ok..we're supposed to bring our timetable for I.D. and i thot i had everything in my pocket, but i didnt!! and the line to get your picture done was SOOOOOOOO long..and i was panicking cuz..i dont wanna hafta go get it and re line up..oh man.i dont know HOW..only God knows..but somehow the registration let me in, since i knew my student number and stuff.. omgoodness. thank YOU!!
and everything else was boring. ok. gonna sleep sup[er early today so i can get rest AND hopefully get to school on TIME tomoro!!! yay SOPPS assembly!!

che guevara

2005-09-21T17:42:00.000-04:00

wasup. i posted a new one yesterday...but the whole internet and blogger was messed..so it didnt load it.!!

i posted a lot too!!! ugh i dont wanna repeat everything!!!
anywaze pretty much everything lately, has been quite boring...

today. late for 1st agaiN!!!!!! 3rd time this week!!! (late everyday this week)
2nd. didnt really do anything in strings..we played handball and came to class late..he didnt care..and then..kinda just played around a bit..
3rd. lunch. didnt get any homework done. we talked about xmen, x2, spiderman and stuff
4th. sooooooooooooo boring..
5th. we learned about the cuban revolution was it? cuban communism. and che guevara and fidel castro. it was pretty interesting.. u know that guy with the beard and the long hair and a hat that's on a lotta t-shirts?! that's che guevara.... it's pretty interesting..a young revolutionist guy.

afterschool. mylonas and gibson armsed out justin. they said they were going northbound to finch today..so he went southbound by himself, then when the southbound train left, they went back to go south without justin. so arms but soo funny.

and now..im just soo hungry...talking to chris, chraysee and uhmanda...
and chris is lazy and wont do anything that requires physical labour..e.i. basketball.
i gotta finish up my calculus soo that i can do SOMETHING today!

les miserables and smile like you mean it

2005-09-20T22:30:00.000-04:00

wadup. i couldnt get to my blogger page!! i dont know why..but it just keeps loading till it says cannot find your page...

anywaze...
today was really boring when i think back to it. so i think this post should be rather short

manda gave me a wake up call..and i left my house at a good time.. but then i missed the bus! so i ran for so long down 2 stops.. from mcniccoll all the way to finch..and when i get there the NEXT bus doesnt show up for soo long..!!! AND there was traffic at bayview so i was LATE AGAIn!!!! luckily i had a supply teacher, but STILL. im gonna have soooooo many lates on my report!!
2nd. - boring lunch..
3rd. - lunch . went to civic. kinda boring too
4th. calculus. REALLY boring. and hard
5th. english..EVEN MORE BORING..stupid essays.....

afterschool was better..we played handball for so long. and we had so many jokes. lol. lee just RANDOMLY singing shakira-"wherever, whenever" song.. lol!!!!! i'll be here and u'll be near!!!! LOL.
and then subwayed home. got my glasses fixed . finally. contacts coming soon!!! yay.
and then just got home, msn. dinner. blog. msn.

OHHHH and i was listening to the LES MIS cds i have...my FAMILY has.. les mis is sooo good
i also started getting into jack johnson, muse, and the killers today!
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT- good song..ALSO it was played in the OC:)

alright laters!

the shape of things to come edit kyrios

2005-09-16T17:50:00.000-04:00

*edit*
well when i left my blog at the bottom of this post..i was hungry. so i went to eat dinner. then i went to pick up jen, then we went to shoppers to buy candy and lollipops for kyrios prizes..then we went to church..and there i just did some errands and stuff. then me and marie had to cut up this big kyrios banner into puzzle pieces. lol no group actually FINISHED putting it together!!! ahhhhh well. the painting kinda took a while..took a long time to clean up and move on..so i felt bad for the ppl that were done and bored.. and then there wasnt much time for cranium so we kinda modified it, so there was only 2 teams and just 1 person from each team comes up to do what the card says... i think we coulda prepared a bit better.. cuz it was moving a lil slow ..and some ppl were bored. i tried to get new ppl up..by specifying what kinda ppl to go up..like someone from gr.9 or 10. or 11. or counsellor. but yeah... aw man.. i hate when i screw up. i SO couldve done better overall for this program..but ..i dunno.. it just couldve went a lil better. but thank you to everyone that helped out and everyone that offered to help. it's greatly appreciated. good job jen for sharing and leading.. just keep doin it, and u can only go up from here. afterwards. chris and nix came to visit. and then after alotta loitering, we went to pho.
funny story: hahahahaa ok..soo when we're loitering at church. krystal comes, driving her big red truck and chris comes from the side and bangs on her window and starts yelling and she gets freaked out she slams on the breaks...and chris feels soo proud that he scared her...so when we get to pho..i get there a lil earlier..and so he comes in.parks in his spot..so i run up from behind and then i do the same thing..i start banging on the window and yelling in a low voice "YO, GET OUT THE CAR. GIMME YOUR MONEY!!!" and his eyes are HUGE cuz he's so scared and he moves over to jen, who's in the passenger seat. hahahaha he was SOO scared. and u know it chris;) got em good!!!!!
anywaze..chill at pho..get some food.. and then we loiter outside and we see pretty much most of team LUMAS coming anywaze..loiter somemore, then i just went home.

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that's the title for yesterday's episode...

when i think back to yesterday..it was all very boring..
thursday
1st. i was just barely on time for school. boring
2nd. lunch..listening to allyson (music buddy #2)'s iPod, which surprised me cuz she had Hillsongs..not united..but had some united stuff anywaze..the red cd stuff..so that was really cool.
3rd. haha lunch AGAIN :) i think i was doin some homework and i just fell asleep in the hall.
4th. calc. i just dont get it!
5th. english. tony and mylonas kept talking and i kept getting in trouble! but boring class. she talks soo much.
played some basketball..

watched the OC..oh man i hate that dean. wat a jerk.. expells marissa then ..ryan and marissas are on the feris wheel. again. "ur getting better at this" (referring to ryan's fear of heights) "yeah.3rd time's a charm" .just when ryan and marissa are having a moment..the ferris wheel stops and the dean tells marissa to leave. and ryan says she's not even on school property, but he drags marissa out, and she's in pain, so ryan says leave her a lone, then punches the dean right in the face. then he says "i was gonna work really hard to get u outta this school, but u did it all on your own, and i didnt even hafta do anything...get outta here..ur both expelled"
i mean at least they're expelled TOGETHER. like they have each other.. but still. it's really sad.. and seth and summer cant do anything about it cuz they're up in the air on that ferris wheel looking back :(

friday. the rainy day.. woke up late. and the bus was really slow. so i came to school even later.. but mr. raemisch was nice about it. nice guy..
2nd..lunch with allyson, lee, ayana and ppl. then me, lee and yanyms(ayana) went to civic center to get food.. lol we had a huge argument about that stupid umbrella. lol came back and chilled with allyson, and she stayed with me for lunch the next period. cuz i have double lunch. and she had these funny magnets and her and emily kept making all these funny sentences.. lol. mylonas fell asleep, lee went off somewhere, allyson was sleeping and i was writing letters to spacey and tracy for their belated bdays!
4th. calc. did a quiz. didnt understand any of it. im not even joking . i think i got 0/10.
5th. we did some evaluation, where we read this essay and response and what not..i fell asleep during the thing. lol. i kept dropping things on the floor cuz i fell asleep. anywaze.

im just really hungry right now. so im gonna get some food..then gotta pick up jen, then go with her to buy prizes for tonites program. then off to kyrios! yayyyyyyyyyy i love fridays!!!!!!

worst morning ever...edit today sux

2005-09-14T23:08:00.000-04:00

read below for my worst morning story...
today just sux. started off bad, and it's ending bad too...

crappy morning..not enough sleep, tired like crazy, worrying about being late, and turns out im more than an hour early for school, crappy boring classes all day...not to mention tired all day too... get home, dont get any work done.. then i go with eyen to look at a guy's house who's givin away some furniture. and turns out there isnt anything good, and i felt bad for dragging eyen all the way there.. and then i also feel bad for the guy, cuz he's like an old man, that really wants to get rid of this stuff..and it's really not bad stuff, but just i dunno..i feel bad for the guy... went to ball and it was raining, and at first nobody was there.. then a couple ppl came, but there was only 8 of us, and we couldnt even play a full game. and i know it's not ur fault chris, but chris i dunno wat happened, but i felt something hit my face really hard..my glasses goes flying, and my nose is bloody. and then when i go to the washroom and see what happened to my glasses, it breaks! wtf. then i had to wear my old crappy old glasses where i cant see anything, and i was playing bad too. before and after switching glasses...i get home, and im just not in the mood to do stupid calculus. i hate calculus, and i just cant get into the working mode. and im feeling all moody and pms-y. really mad sad and just out of it right now.. im also having second thots about some ppl. i dunno. right now, i feel like going to a beach. maybe the one on crete, and just think... or u know in the oc, when marissa just goes to one of those lifeguard buildings, and just sits there and thinks and stares at the ocean...i just wanna doo that. just all the time in the world!
i hate school. i hate how im not getting any sleep, i hate how im not doing any work. i hate how there's homework to do. i hate having to wake up so dam early and still getting to school late, i hate all of this. i hate doing essays, and reading about them, i hate doing work in class, i hate learning, i hate listeningto lectures and lessons. i hate school. geeeeeez. i just want time to think!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask for?!

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ok..so here it goes...

7:20am Crap!!! slept in....rushed to make breakfast and lunch...brush teeth, get ready,...leave the house at 8:00am which is just a lil late..get to the bus stop...wait for 15 mins.. then a bus comes...but doesnt stop. cuz it's packed...then...wait another 2 mins..then another bus comes...ALSO doesnt stop!!! also packed...omg...wait another 10 mins..then this 3rd bus comes and it's packed too, but stops for us anywaze...then i get on, and
there's a middle aged blond lady and some middle aged brown guy. so this brown and blond are yelling and arguing with the bus driver. here's the whole convo...
*walk on the bus*
blonde: WE'RE NOT SARDINES!!!!! WHY ARE U PICKING THESE PEOPLE UP!
brown: the bus is full already!!!
blonde: we're human beings! not sardines, there's no room for these people..
bus driver: just doin my job...i pick people up...
*then this other brown guy gets on the bus. let's call him brown2*
brown2: im just trying to get to work, stop yelling. calm down
brown: nooo. you shouldnt be on the bus, it's packed.
blonde: (to the bus driver) im gonna report you! im gonna report your ass, you cant do this!!
*then the browns get into a fight, then the blonde comes in and they have an argument about racism and ffreedom of speech..*

and these ppl are swearing and yelling really loudly..and this is on a really crowded bus! i dont know how they got into an argument about being a racist and freedom of speech and stuff... soo much yelling and arguing..the bus driver was nice and calm about it tho... it's funny how i only needed to go down 2 stops, but it was a LONG 2 stops..then i finally get to finch and take the finch bus and i get on at 8:33am, which is really late. i should BE on that bus by 8:00am, anywaze this whole time, im thinking to myself how late im gonna be.. then i finally get to the subway station at around 9:15 and i walk to empress...and i see all these ppl from school. and im thinking why is everyone skipping 1st period. then im about to walk thru the doors that lead towards school. then it hits me. IT'S A LATE START. SCHOOL STARTS AT 10:20 AND IT WAS 9:15!
so tehre i am soooo mad and angry at myself. why couldnt i remember. i coulda got more sleep...i didnt hafta go thru all of that this morning...so after just thinking...i went to school early, found terrence and jessica so i just did some homework with them...at least i got to do homework that was due 1st period..and at least i was on time for schooL!? i hate mornings and school :(

the rest of my day isnt worth talking about. now to do homework, possibly meet up with eyen for a bit, then off to church for basketball...

sooo tired.

2005-09-12T23:31:00.000-04:00

oh man. im trying to sleep early. yesterday i got off msn at 11:18pm then showered and then read devos and stuff..went till 12:00..then i couldnt sleep till likle 1:45am..cuz i was just thinkin of.. yeah i couldnt sleep!!! and then this morning..felt like i just went to sleep, then 2 mins later, my alarm clock rings and tells me to wake up. felt like i went to sleep at 6:40 and woke up at 6:45am..

i was actually on time to school. it's been SOOO long since iver heard O Canada! im always late lol!

data..im starting to get now..
strings..im getting it.but ti's soo embarassing and intimidating when my string ensemble is all 1 year younger than me, and AMAZING. and there i am, i havent played viola in like 1 year, and i suck like crap. soo it's such a bad feeeling. i feel bad for them having ME in their group.
theory..i fell asleep in a practice room. while we're all trying to compose
history..we did this test which was just a really deep personal list of questions.. like if u were to meet 2 ppl dead (and then alive) (so 4 ppl in total) and language, time, safety, and money and etc was not an issue, who would u wanna meet. then if u had one wish and u cant wish for mutliple or more or future wishes..what would u wish for...and it really gets u thinking!

i came home..did some devos..then i just fell asleep for like 2 hours.. and then when i woke up, my mom called me for dinner and i was sooooo sleepy.. i talked to chraysee while eating..then i had vio lesson. found out my teacher used to play guitar too!! lol spada... shut up lee. dont make fun. then did corinthians devos with chraysee. good girl. proud of ya. then calculus, then talked to ALISON and JANICE.
alison, thnx for talkin to me, and venting. i enjoyed it. it really wasnt venting.. that was pretty weak venting. if u ask me. but yeha some good talkjs.. reminds me of some old times we useta talk and have long good convos.. i miss u, ur soo busy now. busy/ cold hearted girl. lol "im cold hearted..*cake**ranibow*sunshine*" lol
janice. thanx for talkin to me, always askin how im doin, makin sure im ok, and stuff. ur soo awesome. i hope all is well with your studies too. beat those geeks! lol. hope u can help me figure this calc out. it's killing me!!!

I HATE CALCULUS.
DIE CALCULUS DIE.
THE CALCULUS THE.

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Sideshow Bob: "Die Bart Die, is German for The BArt, The"
Woman from jury: "Surely a man that speaks German, cant be evil!"

new layout

2005-09-11T02:33:00.000-04:00

ok. it's late. im gonna keep this short.

due to comments regarding sore eyes, ive put a new layout which is actually an old one from one of my old aa pages.

anywaze, today..slept in till 2, which was soo nice. did some devos, cleaned up my room a bit, made a huge lunch of pizza, chicken fingers and fish sticks, watched wild wild west and jet li movie fong sai yuk, which apparently tracy doesnt know. then eyen calls me up and we go to his place to chill a bit first, then go to STC for a bit. then afterwards, we go to team Oompa Loompas, starring, sandra, kenric, hungling, and many others..some from t3c. just watching their game, makes me miss softball. the whole time i was craving to play. ask eyen. chilled a bit more at his place and played some nba2k5. then went home, played some basketball with some friends, then went inside, ate dinner and watched godzilla and some of waynes world 2. (such a great movie, by the way) soo hilarious. then..to msning and for a long time editing my layout. and that was my day. see. short.

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a politcal commercial done by homer simpson...

Homer: "...and there are trustworthy people, like me,.... milhouse's dad, ...gil, ....bumblebee man, ...and that guy that always goes, 'mmmmmYEEEEEeeeeSSSSssssss' "

beginnin senior year, the rainy day and oc

2005-09-08T22:28:00.000-04:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
ok let's see..gotta start blogging since tuesday.

tuesday... first day of school. but it was like 12:30 - 3:20. umm...it was alright..tech-raemischa remembers me, and is really nice..but boring sometimes... worldissues-gonna drop it. it's the most diverse class ever. it has the korean gangsters, the skaters, the rockers, some potheads, the fobs, the plastics and then me. and just the class itself., i dont need it, nor is it even interesting. even my parents gave me permission to drop it (like it is hot.) calc-teacher, ms.lee seems really nice. and i got kalun, madison, giacomo, and caileigh..gotta pull up my math marks this year.

wednesday- umm..first FULL day of school. data-i got jesse, alex.simone, brenna, kaitlin. they'll help me for sure! great! (sarcasm) teacher seems pretty nice. but i mean. her name is "ms. fingerhut" awww man....like..who comes up with last names, how did that evolve? sooo wrong. then i got strings- torok again, the class is nice and small. there's like 4 gr.11s. and like 7 gr.12s..im not counting..im just randomly coming up with a suitable number..im prolly wrong tho. lol fell asleep. we listened to some song that sounded exactly like zeitgesit, but just more wintery, since it's called "nunavut" ..thenw e got lunch then theory-mr. torok again..that class is boring..well every year it is... aww man not another year of theory!!! last we got history. "mod west" if u will. modern western history? is it called? the class itself is good. got lee, igor, miya, jasen, riho, and ppl. and it's wayy more interesting than world issues. good class to end off a day with. AFTERSCHOOL. we went to wendy's and me, allyson, lee, gordon, mylonas just chilled and talked and talked about old times at greece and italy, and just stuff. lol gary comes and buys me wendy;s then when he leaves later, he's like "im taking the subway.." and im like "im taking the internet" and he's like "ooh...ok, then cya tomoro.."
then i go home..forgot what i did...ohh i played basketball on my driveway a bit, then i talked to chraysee, then i headed off to ball at church. umm..it's funny how, everyone's like "oh ur baptized, U pray." then this time they said to me, "ur newly baptized. U pray" lol..anywaze i think i did well there. maaannnnn i suck at ball. turnovers turnovers turnovers..and i dunno.. i mean like..im tryning to have fun. but when ppl get mad or whatever. (seems like some do) like what do u want me to do? i dont know basketball...i dont know when to cut or what the heck to do. never played on no ball team, dont know no strategies or plays or whatever, what do u expect from me. anywaze..played like CRAPP until the last game. where i played .....better. we werent even that talented a team either.,..but i guess that's what u call "teamwork"? mad assists that game. i kept feeding the ball to this girl on the team, and she kept knocking them down.. and yeah. the last game was fun. went to wendy's ...got home. talked to chraysee again. and she wouldnt let me sleep. kept talking to me late, and told me if i leave she wouldnt be my friend! heheheheh :)

thursday- school. omgoodness. ok i woke up to the cloudiest, rainiest weather ever, i wake up and im wondering why it's still soo dark and just it started off soo miserably..and i slept in a tiny bit. the rainy day (women) the name of the episode in the oc, with the spiderman kiss. good episode. anywaze..when i leave my house.. it's pouring like MAD. it's raining soo heavily..and soo cold and dark. and im out for like 2 mins and im like drenched already...soo miserable..i wait like 15 mins for my first bus, which when i get on, it's packed like crazy...then i wait another 15 mins for my next bus...,and im just soo wet, miserable and LATE. but im soo tired i just falll asleep. i wake up, and guess what, it's bright and it's like drying up, and it stopped raining and the sun comes up. i get to school late. watever, later on..i look out the window and it;s dry, sunny and HOT> wat the heck!!?!?!?!!? im in track pants cuz i thot it;'d be rainy and cold all day!!!!! at lunch...i hgave double period lunch, since im planning on dropping world issues, making my lunch stacked with 2 spares. anywaze, 1st lunch i chilled with half the music majors and allyson..and we had some good laffs..second lunch i chilled with lee and the rest of the 2nd half. and other ppl. and we have the funniest convo about tv shows we grew up watching. like x-men, spiderman, beasties, reboot, samarai pizza cats, captain PLANET!! and etc.. some funny jokes and stuff. lol anywaze..
then nothing interesting happened..calc.english.wendy's(not fun) .subway.bus.home. guitar.dinner.washdishes.shower. then we get to the O.C.! soooooooo relieved they finally told us what happened..felt like soo long since marissa shot trey. anywaze. marissa's such an awesome girlfriend.. does anything and everything to help out ryan. and i hate julie cooper nichol. stupid hot mom. then i love summer as always. and just u know when all 4 go to that island or beach or whatever and the sailing trip. and yeah. the fantastic four :) i hate being single sometimes. lol. yeah soo trey helps his brother out by telling the truth. and everything's all good. yay. love the oc. and they're all MY age. all starting senior year!!! i AM seth cohen! anywaze.

i gotta finish this up fast. so chraysee can read this. what happened to spacey? she like died.. she's never around.. busy with school i guess! aiya. anywaze.. that's my blog. jo tao and ZAI JiENN. chraysee. we need one for u now.
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peter's delivering lois;' sister's baby.
lois: Come on, PUSH! PUSH!
peter: im pushing, but the baby wont go back in
lois: NO not you! you pull!!!

summer roberts a.k.a. summer breeze

2005-09-05T23:54:00.000-04:00

oooooohhhhh man.
summer is ending and school is starting. wat the gay.

this sumemr was sooo amazing. best summer ever.

my goal for this summer was to: get a job. and get some cash money. that didnt even happen!
omgoodness...this summer has been awesome tho. im glad i didnt have a job. cuz i wouldve missed out on all the chilling and fun...
plenty of times juyst chillin and playin ball at goldhawk...goin to friend's houses...chillin wit kyrios and SMT and eyen and BASIC. kyrios was fun over the summer, jaffray's amazing race, where my team won!!!! watchjed soo many movies and finished watching all of oc 1 and 2. finished a whole fun season of BASIC, baptism, helped eyen with new house and painting and such. SMT camping, BRIDLETOWNE daycamp, went to kensington and downtown, went to tori's place a lot. met tracy. had a great dinner at chun's, learned how to play the GEEETAR. and had smt come over for meeting and bbq and potluck dinner. wow if it doesnt sound like much,, just add in a whole bunch of more times of chilling and hanging out and having fun andstuff.. oh man..gonna miss it sooo much.

and now gay school is starting..dont wanna hafta deal with teachers, homework, tests, quizes, exams, traveling on the bus for an hour back AND then another hour for my ride home... waking up mad early to just be late again..being an outcast sometimes from circles of friends ands tuff..oh i just hate school.

but then on the contrary...this is my last year..and im gonna miss it.. i dont wanna deal with change and going to a new school, not knowing anyone, living a new life, studying harder and more REAL things, i dont want any of that. im gonna miss the comforts of this age, and highschool and kyrios, where it's really comfortable and i know ppl. omgoodness, even tho i hate school, i do gotta still cherish it before i leave. dang man. i dont wanna leave the ppl i know and start a new life away from everybody..ughhhhhhh...

for the grads and counselors leaving and reading this. just thanx for all you've done. really. kyrios has been a blast with u guys helping out and serving and just making it what it is today. for all the laffs and tears and ups and fears (had to make it rhyme) and the memories and just about everything else. thanx and reallly gonna miss u guys not havin u around (as much, to some of u still in town) thanx.

this is my shortest blog in a while.. well i gotta go sleep. ACTUALLY have school tomoro. bye summer. see u on thursday, at 8pm...oc season 3 yay. gonna hate this year and at the same time love it.

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Peter: "Omg, my cereal's trying to tell me something. it says , '00ooooo0o0o0o' "
Brian: "Peter.....those are cheerios."

markvlle.chunspotluck.geetar.downtown.tori's

2005-09-04T01:44:00.000-04:00

Super Intendent Chalmers: i have a question for you, 'you're crazy!'

yep. if u ever need to buy shoes or just 'athletic apparel'. dont go to markville. athlete's world is weak. sportchek is empty, footlocker is as small as a closet and champs doesnt even exist. but their old navy is alright. lol. yeah i pretty much only got some stuff from old navy. boo urns. gonna wait till spring for shoes. aw man. unlesss....

checked out best buy. oc season2 dvds is 60+ bucks. wow. anywaze. got home. made lasagna. eyen picked me up. chun's. they watched some LOTR parodies by MTV. his backyard's nice. like eyen's wedding-pix.kinda nice. i hope my backyard is alright too, eyen. um..food was really good. there was sushi. courtesy janice. really good, but cheap but good pizza-clinton, fried wonton-jen, flip food-mike, salad-mat, potatoesalad-mares, and etc. it was all really good. oh and chun-pot roast. or roast pork. or something... food good. coincidentally we sat guy's outside picnic tables, girls inside. but it was funny we had a convo about fave sayings.. then we talked about simpsons then on how RANDOM family guy is. but also how hilarious it is. lol the chicken....gave me an expired coupon! there's like a 20 min fight scene between peter and a chicken. ANYWAZE... i learned how to play the geeeeeetar. first eyen taught me a bunch of chords..then mike some and janice taught me what else can i do. so exciting. i got home and practiced for HOURS. my fingers hurt. but i can play stuff!! hahahaha.

this morning, soo early. had to go wit my parents and my aunt to clean up my grandparents' old apartment all the way downtown. soo much cleaning and stuff. it's pretty disgusting. picture this: a good solid 6 or 7 years of pigeons coming every so often and pooing. EVERYWHERE. oh man.. like feathers and fluff and bird crap everywhere and SOO MUCH of it too...and we had to move all this stuff.. clear the balcony. omgoodness. i was told we'd be done by lunch time but we finished at almost 4:30. holy.

after soo long.. got home. got ready. and drove to tori's. i get there, and it's like a couple of us kyrios, then like pacific mall. im exaggeratting. but still. i think they were playing like poker for pushups? really gay. they're very loud and annoying. kinda like me, but i dont know em. one of themwas the oliver james look alike guy. didnt like these ppl. no offense... watched simpsons..then kinda got boring. quick. so i asked jen to go play basketball outside. then we decided to wait for chris and nix to come (in 15 mins) then we'd go. but lol we never ended up going. anywaze. all of china left, and then seemed like soo little ppl were left. good. more ppl i know. chris and nix eventually come and we just kinda hang out in the living room with the piano and geetar and stuff.. then chris messes up my phone. i dont know what he does. but then my sim card is blocked and pin card # isnt working and all this stuff. it wasnt pretty. stupid gay chris. we had dinner and then we watched raise your voice. that';s right. i saw that movie again at tori's! omgoodness. such a terrible movie. but hilary's in it..
chris and nix eventually leave. then after that. we start watching napoleon dynamite, and before anything really good starts happening, nobody wants to watch it. so they change it, and im bored

so i grab guitar from upstairs and bring it down and start playing it at the back of the basement. so i can hear myself. im starting to get what else can i do. down better. yay. and yeah. geetaring is getting better..starting to remember them chords and stuff. eventually tori and then jen come and join me and we're just playing, singing and talking. then jon.n.c, mathew and pablo leave. and then we start watching mean girls..but then just some bad timing and some wrong words and such and then we had to leave. i just drove jen home and then i came home and just msn'd and blogged and such. and here i am.....once again...im torn into pieces..lol (my version: here i come....and again, etc... lol manda)

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Stewie: [speaking to a Latina maid]
"So which of the Latin countries are you from: the one with the civil war, the one with the cocaine, or the one with the fancy hats?"

hbd.trace. viet.lunch. mastermind. MTV VMA's

2005-09-02T02:11:00.000-04:00

yep...wow it's sept. 2nd already.

happybdaytracyyy.

anywaze about my day. eyen gives me a call in the bright and early morning, around 12 ish i think. and me, helen, chun and eyen go grab lunch at a viet place at midland and finch. (next to the placewhere the FAGS used to be!) (ol inside joke. mike meant to say FLAGS..if uve read previous posts...)
lunch was good. we had some good conversation and some good noodles and stuff. then we drove helen home then we went to marketvillage. and just looked at some stuff.. then we headed to mastermind near markville. that place is fun..well yeah. it's like a kids-toys-gadgets-fun stuff/games kinda place. anywaze...then dropped chun home. then eyen drove me home but then we stayed on my drive way and talked for a while.. yeah i think im gonna drop it. move forward. it's for the best.

anywaze..got home..and i just checked everybody's blogs...wow i have soo much time these days i checke evryone's blogs like 3 times a day/ EVERYONE ON THE FRIEND'S LIST OVER HERE ON THE RIGHT..yep that's right..im soo bored that when i check my blog, which is like 3 or 4 times a day, i just go thru all my friends' blogs too. yep. im just that seth coheny! and pathetic. anywaze...

cleaned up my room a bit...watched some tv, finally saw an award show..saw VMA's the mtv video music awards. finally. it was weird..the r.kelly performance... he didnt sing!!! he just ....wat's it called again?? the thing that britney spears did...LIPSING? LIPSINK? what is it..anywaze he didnt even really sing.... soo retarded.. it was pretty good. P.Diddy had a cool shirt at the end. that says "God is the Greatest!" i wanna get that. anywaze... oh i was also watching that new show prison break. which i think is cool. except this episode was kinda freaky. there were these freaky gay white guys..that are soo creepy. and then there was this crazy fight between the black guys and the white guys,,soo much stabbing and such. and at the end,, they threaten to cut the main guy's toes off, and it's obviously to be continued..but they make the cut sound anywaze...it's disgusting....

i watched some old OC episodes..which really makes me excited for this season. i love summer! and the fantastic 4 all being together all happy.. next thursday. season premiere. i think. according to amanda.
anywaze..that's about it. ppl gotta start learning how to blog regularly and have long legit posts too! good bloggers include: tiff, janice (sometimes) and mathew(sometimes...just needs to be more regularly)

PPL BLOG! according to helen..it's good for the brain.... somethin about constructing sentences and stuff from thoughts.. lol.

Stewie Griffin: "I thought this was 'Kids say the darndest things', NOT old black comdians dont know when to shut up!"

from the inside...

2005-09-01T00:45:00.000-04:00

(song from linkin park, by the way)

anywaze..today...i didnt really do that much, but it feels like a long day...

k in the morning, i SWEAR amanda called me..but i guess she didnt..ok who called me at 10:19am today!?
i woke up at like 12 somethin...went out to lunch with my parents and my aunt.. then had to buy some groceries at chinese grocerie mawket wiff mommy. some stuff for the bbq and such.. drove home... um..cleaned up my room...lol i just moved most of my stuff into my brother;s empty room. lol.. but MY room is clean! watched some tv.. fresh prince and friends.. then got ready for ccsa banquet.. lol i met up with eyen at my place, so he could tie a tie for me, cuz my dad wasnt home..then we headded off to banquet..mad ppl there.. like soo many asian ppl all dressed up..the palce was alright..decent.. worship team was good. food wasnt THAT bad as everybody said..i had everybody's left overs....mmmm..return of the "human waste basket" lol. that dessert was soo good, i finished it in like 3 sec. then there were like awards..but BASIC didnt get anything..just for MAP was mike.

oh..it was funny how for the Sr. League championship...the team that won is called "The Fellowship" but only Marty, went up to receive the award..the even funnier part was that marty's not even from that church..but he was on the team.. hahahaa. and he got the trophy..and later BASIC was taking group pictures with the trophy in it, so it seemed like we won!! hahahaha

but overall i thot it was pretty boring..not that great..

song at the moment...
All in All - Lifehouse

Standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down
Everything stays in my mind feeling in a daze on the ground
Feels like it's gonna give life's to hard to live anymore
I think I've had enough things too tough
I'm out the door

All in all it's just another day now
You're falling down
What you gonna do
Standing on top of the world tonight
No ones looking back at you

Stand tall
It's going on
It's going on
It's gonna be just fine
You're holding on
Holding on today

ok...anywaze..what's my problem? cant get it outta my head.. keep thinkin bout it..and tori's right...is it even that good? is it really worth all of that and stuff? the thing is..it ISNT but it wont leave... it's always there, but then it keeps hurting me..and it's not even anything big..see im making a big deal out of nothing again.. like...there's no interest in me at all to the point where there's like...no voluntary conversation.. i guess u can say i expect too much..but still..i mean no conversation..nothing. like i dont exist?. ok..the part i dont understand..is why is it always changing..it's never consistent. mixed msgs ALL the time. sometimes there's talk. sometimes there isnt. sometimes there's a nice msg saying all this nice stuff, and it seems like it's really good..and sometimes there's like silence.. i dont get it. and then i keep going back to it. even when it doesnt even want me. wat's my problem?! LET IT GO ALREADY!! GEEZ. why cant i? there's soo many reasons for me to drop it. what happened to your dream amanda? stop stop stop. omgoodness.. just get out (leave)..right now.. "leave" - jojo that was from a song by the way.. yep..ok somebody plz wake me up when september ends.

i cant believe this sumemr is ending already..so much has happened...but then it also feels like soo long ago when summer started.. aw man...the millions of times chillin, hangin out, basketball, BASIC, bridletowne, mid week activities wit kyrios, kyrios, amazing race, midseason mixer, baptism, smt camping, grand finale, playoffs, banquet...aw man.. school sux and it didnt even start yet.

ch.ray.see

2005-08-30T23:50:00.000-04:00

ur alive. uve finally said SOMTEHIN since goin down to florida. oh man. i miss u... esp. right now..cuz manda's off somewhere..who knows where..maybe somewhere in scarboro, cuz everything to her is scarboro, probably thinks where u are right now is scarboro too. anywaze.. u finally blog and sign comment on ppl's blogs too. just not mine :( u read everyone's blogs.. everyday every post. except these ones... oh well..it's soo depressing.. well i dont really know what to say.. just really sad. u missed kyrios grand finale.. and my slideshow.. but that's not important..cuz it has to do with me.. i guess i thot too much.. im not that important or anythin..zai jien and jo tao ...forever...

well i guess it's not just u.. it's everybody. just this summer was soo awesome..met NEW PPL. and basic was soo fun and everythin..and just school sux. i just dont like these ppl. not all but just a lotta these ppl. just really seems like they dont care.. and that's fine. cuz i dont really care about them either.. im happy i didnt really see these ppl during the summer..not like they really made plans or whatever to meet up with me.. i mean im hypocritical. i know. but just it's stupid how everybody's like OH YEAH!!! WE SOOO GOTTA MEET UP THIS SUMMER ANBD WE GOTTA HANG OUT AND CHILL and yadda yadda yadda..but nobody did. nobody called me up. no one cares. is where im getting at. remember, im not saying everybody...just a majority of ppl. and im saying yeah im a hypocrit too. i understand that. but just i dunno..school's depressing...going back today..just reminds me of how much i dont like it. and just even today.. most ppl are just like HEY HOW WAS YOUR SUMMER? and the conversation kinda just dies there.. there's not really much after that. ppl suck. and even those ppl just on msn. who give like one word answers. that annoys me soo much., u say we're soo close friends. oh we;re soo good friends and all but u never ask questions or give more than 1 word in your answer. u just kinda stay in your world. and thru out all these years.. we've been thru so much, yet nobody really cares! that's why i dont even bother msging u ppl. there's no point. u wont talk. so why force u to? and then there's you. i mean. yeah ive done some stuff to u that i dont like..but i mean like.. why? what did i do? why do u keep shutting me out but then u also say we gotta start talking again, but then u dont really do that. im tryna be there for u, but ur not even there to begin with. well it hasnt been like this all the time, in fact it was fine recently. but just like today.. this isnt even a big deal. and im making it a big deal. but i mean like sometimes ur good and we talk, but then sometimes it's not, and u just dont really show any interest in talking to me. just make up your mind. it;'s frustrating how it's not fair. u didnt really give me a chance, and u just start thinkin some stuff and come up with some conclusion, where i cant even defend myself, but u make a decision that hurts. it kills me u know. ugh........... thank you to the friends that just listen to me and understand me. and talk to me on the phone late and just listen and let me say how i feel. and thank you for just agreeing with me and pretty much sticking with me and u agree that it's there, and it's supposed to work. it's fate. it's destiny. but i dunno. thank you to u, for agreeing with me that school sux, and it's over rated, and we had some good times in the past like school and stuff. but just some ppl really are over rated and ppl change. thank you to janice for listening to me go on and on and on and i dont shut up. and im angry and sad about everything.. and despite everything u still keep giving me good advice and ur always soo cheerful and optimistic. thanx. and that's me venting or ranting or whatever u call it.

school's overrated, ball, eyen, home, nap

2005-08-30T18:45:00.000-04:00

funny story...well not really funny..but

ok amanda gives me a wake up call at 8:45...well she gave me one at 8:30 i suppose, but i slept thru those ones..anywaze..i answer..then i go back to sleep..i wake up at like 9:20...and then get ready and stuff..i leave the house at 10...then wait for the first bus for like 15 mins. and just when im about to walk all the way to the next one, the bus comes...anywaze...i go to school at 10:59 and i see terrence so we both go...and then i go to the caf..and they say "NO WE;RE NOT SERVING ANYMORE STUDENTS...IT'S NOW CLOSED.."

so then im super pissed, cuz i come half way across the world to go to school, and i dont get my schedule or anything and i'd hafta come back the next day...soo i start walking down the hall yelling THIS SCHOOL IS GAY!!! then the lady calls me back in and says ./...oh u have a cheque, soo u can come, but no more students..... so then i get my gay schedule and agenda and what not...and im out..then i see jiff and the asian one...then me, lee, igor, mylonas, jlin and calvin go to the big gym and it's open sooo we're just playing basketball for the longest time..soo fun..never really played in the big gym since gr.9 gym it was sooo fun..and at one point i was draining 3s i was 4/4 oh man...all infronta igor's face HAHAHAHAH and lee was fluking them in too..lol jks. then igor and mylonas left and we all stayed and played a bit more..then we headed out and chilled ...lee says they did nothing..but lol i was talking to roz and jas and stuff..then calvin leaves then we all go to wendy';s and we talk about all the good times in school in gr.10 and 11... u can read mike's blog about that..just stuff like gr.10history, and gritaly and mr.kettle who i almsot completely erased from MY LIFE!!!!! lol... subwayed/bussed home..talked about how school sux and it's overrated and ppl, suck. lol funny how before we';re talking about the good times, and now the bad...anywaze..yeah..im on the bus on steeles, and i'd pass by the chruch, so i call up eyen and he says he's about to head home and i live on the way home..so he gives me a ride from church to home and im just tellin him all the above.. thnx eyen! then i go home...msn, go upstairs and clean up my school stuff from last year, and i just fell asleep on the floor i was soo tired... woke up..and came down and msned and blogging..

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AMANDA THE SPACE STATION...WOW THE TRUE MEANING OF C.B.
first of all, she thot the holocaust centre, was a space station cuz she thot holo sounded like apollo...!?!?
then she thot hitler's first name was ..A.....Arnold!

and now...she thinks thornlea and our church, t3c is in scarboro!!!!!!!
im tellin her all these street names trying to prove my point..but it just goes flying past her, cuz she doesnt understanbd...WHAT A C.B!

OK ALL THE MAIN STREETS....
east/west
...mccowan,brimley,midland,kennedy,warden,pharmacy,vic park //scarboro ends// woodbine,donmills, leslie,bayview,yonge...

north/south
......sheppard,finch,mcniccoll/cummer,steeles //scarboro ends// denison, 14th/JOHN,407, hwy.7, 16th

ok the church is at warden and north of steeles, making it markham...
and thornlea is soooo far away...it's farther than my school. and my school is in the middle of north york..
thornlea is SOOO much west and north from scarboro, it's not even funny...
manda, PLz DONT TELL ME U THINK YOU LIVE IN SCARBORO TOO
..................omigooodnessss.................................

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michael lee, 7-1 is the new "NO FINISH"

basic playoffs, church, lunch, tori's

2005-08-28T23:35:00.000-04:00

hello telepone - mr.eyensan

[sat.aug.27,2005]

wadupp..yeah BASIC made playoffs...i think we were's 6th seed? we played genesis, first round and no offense, but we smoked them...just killed it. that was a fun game tho.. i hit pretty well that game..and i finaly played pretty well in Leftfield-outfield.. im soo bad with coordination up in the air..but i managed to catch 2.. fun..second game..against the pink seraphs.... at first, we werent scorin runs and they were...and it wasnt lookin that great..then it rained and rained then we kinda paused the game..then we continuedplaying after liken 10 mins.. we started making a run..but it was too late..and we fell short by JUST 2 runs!!! oh man..it was SOOO close..i swear.. i made a good double play..that was about it...dang..i thot we would make it farther into the playoffs, not only were we only down by 2 runs, but we also beat them before..and we gave them their only loss of the season! we SOO coulda made it! awww man.

later went to montana's where mike bought us all appetizers... and before the game, i got my dad's old cell phone..and i got the new sim card and soo it works..and K let me transfer a whole bunch of ringtones and themes and stuff...yes..,.i FINALLY have good ringtones, steada those stupid nokia ringtones.. yes im soo happy i have this new phone.... sooooooo much better..and it has le camera! after that we fit 7 ppl in chris' car and nixon sat on juanita and then she started gagging, then she puked, and i moved just before she did.. and when i did i closed the door just as she stuck out her head to vomit. lol

[sun.aug.28,2005]

today..in the morning, eyen picked me up and i had a cup of chocolate milk and he hit a curb when he was parking and it went everywhere, and i told everybody i pooed myself, cuz it was like stained everywhere..even my pants..then eyen had a great sermon about the internet..lol.. and ppl like me just stuck to the computer a lot... then me and marie had to share for bridletowne..and i completely forgot to share about the kids!!! i had all this stuff i was gonna say but i forgot to write it down so i forgot to say it..omg

i was gonna show the slideshow to ppl before sunday school in eyen's office, but i realized i left the CD with the slideshow on it with mike! so we didnt watch.. just saw pics from bridletowne..sunday school was really pointless.and in a way kinda stupid...nobody CLEARLY has any interest in it..yet he goes on like, we do have interest... and then we had to debate on some topic...those gr.9 punk guys...are..wow.... one swears soo much, and the other wont stop talking..kinda like me. but a lil different.. we ended up winning the debate even tho we were against what we were saying..lol, we won by a point, but then we lost cuz that kid swore! anywaze...

after that a couple of us just kinda hung out in the room for a bit signing cards for the counsellors and grads and stuff, then me and tiff went out for lunch to T&T and my pants already had chocolate milk stains..then i spilled my soup all over the front..so i peed AND pooed my pants.... oh man... but me and tiff we had a good talk just about stuff.. it was good.. like church, baptism, school, university, scholarships..sounds a lil weird, but no it was good.. good talks wit tiff.. lol we both ended up spilling our soup. just i spilled more. sooo clumbsy!

met up with tori at metro where there was some smelly festival with these ppl that couldnt sing..lol..it literally smelled soo bad.. then i tagged along wit tori';s family and we went to her house, and we played boggle for a long time, and i almost beat u tori, but then u cheated :) i was soo close!! anywaze then we watched i, robot, which was not that bad...soo it was pretty good. we had to watch it twice cuz i fell asleep and missed some of it, and marie came later, so she missed the beginning.. then we watched raise your voice with hilary duff :) it was a really stupid movie...really stupid.. i wont talk about it..we had dinner while wtaching it, then we just watched YTV shows for some reason...YTV sucks! except for smallville. and reboot, i dont care what U hafta say about that. lol and that ends my sunday pretty much.

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Lionel Huts: "I accidentally, ran over his dog..."
Marge: "U RAN OVER HIS DOG!?"
Lionel Huts: "...well replace "accidentally" with "repetitively" and replace "dog" with "son". "

baptism, camping, slideshow and kyrios grand finale

2005-08-27T02:45:00.000-04:00

[sunday aug 21 2005] woke up bright and early...did devos and...went to church super early at 9, to get baptized with ada and gen!!! up to that day i wasnt really nervous, but like that morning, was pretty scary. pastor kinson was sooo encouraging and nice about everything. anywaze...ada went first and did her testimony. and it was good. next up was me..i was soo nervous..i was kicking around in the tank! to be honest i got a bit teary when i was thanking kyrios counselors and pastor eyen, thanx u guys. then i very..badly sung out LOUD, by mySELF, King of Majesty...apparently a bunch of me talked to me and told me they were singing too, but i didnt actually hear anybody.. i saw like the first 2 rows singing..like mike, nadine, ryan, mares, jen, nat, and ppl. soo thanx.. i didnt hear ANYBODY singing the "HEY-HEY-HEY-HEY" part... but yeah..i got dunked..it was...uplifting? is that the word...felt..good..anywaze dried off and listened to gen's testimony wit ada, and we had a good service, and just EVERYBODY there was soo nice and soo caring and thotful to me..
after service.. i got soo many gifts and cards.. JUST THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR ALL THAT. u didnt have to..but u did, and it means a lot! thanx everybody.. even just everybody that went up to me and congratulated me, thanx..
best baptism lunch ever! eyen "treated" me out to lunch, upstairs on the 3rd floor with the newcomers luncheon, well kenric said there was alotta extra food... so we werent mooching! that was good.. then we went to york mills to ump a softball game..pyros vs. oracles..

ok, on the pyrios there was this older dude, and he wasnt there for the intro, but he came in and his first at bat, he hits a homerun over the fence, and he runs all the bases and when he comes home, mike ejects him for wearing a watch..anywaze, he accepted that call, but later when i made some calls at 1, some REALLY REALLY close calls...that same guy comes up to me and disagrees with my calls and starts talkin to me and stuff.. well i didnt let it get to me..i was just like.."yeah-ok-whatever!" (thanx mike for backing me up on those calls)

anywaze later..we played our game, and we won pretty...distinctively..but we played well..i think i played really well.. i only played 3 innings at the beginning, but i think i did good...not well, but good. alison and carrie came out to watch our game!! yay thanx guys for comin out! and alotta ppl came out. pastor kinson, ben, and the usual "entourage" lol. sam. we had a fun game...

afterwards..i just went home to pack for camping and to look at all those cards and gifts and stuff from my baptism. thanx again to everybody who gave me stuff and wrote me stuff. i relaly preciate it. :) anywaze i was like stressing out and stuff..cuz like i didnt have some stuff for camping..and i was packing too much, and i didnt have enough room..and it was just really stressful...instead of going to eyen's at like 7ish...i went at 10:30! oh man....soo hectic..and thanx to mymom, who helped me out with the chicken for dinner and for packing me some stuff i forgot to bring... anywaze.. thanx to eyen and tori and kim for listenin to my problems that night and "sharing" mymcdonalds! lol... that night,m i was soo hyper, couldnt sleep..and i was linking EVERYTHING to like christian songs "he died..........AND ROSE AGAIN......AMAZING LOVE...." man., sorry guys, i mustve been soo annoying, and all..yeah to prevent me from keeping u guys all awake, i isolated myself so i wouldnt disturb.

[monday aug.22,2005]
monday morning, oh man..sorry guys..for being soo stupid... ugh... just terrible time management on my part... i was the last to get ready and last to pack and last to put stuff in the car..and i just held everybody up..soo sorry...i'd be pissed off at me! but yeah..after a long time of ME, we managed to get goin, and we all went up. Me, mike, rach, chun and mares, we all had some good discussions in the car goin up...remmeber! everything stays in that van!! lol hahaha everybody else wnated to know what we were talking about hahahaa... we got there..and we had to make the tents ourselves with no instruction manual. and it was soo oldschool.... soo complciated too...but we managed after a long time..and with the help of chun we got it together...

we have such a ghetto tent..we just threw tarps on it..it';s not even palced nicely. lol it just kinda droops over the tent..soo ghetto. lol. ok, after tents, we had some NICE filipino food made by our filipinos, minus me, so that's mike and eyen. that was some good food, then we just kinda chilled and went to the beach and i talked with eyen , and there;s a good pic of mike fishing by himself, it looks like a professional pic, like somethin from a calendar or somethin ....

anywaze...we skipped stones and stuff..i got one stone from eyen, and i skipped 9!!!!!!!! and i couldnt do it again.... :( but we played tag later on this playground and it was soo fast...eyen, gay and mat are soo fast..i think im just too tall, i got hurt soo badly, cuts and bruises but soo fun..i gotta tell ub bout the next day with tag!

ok soo then we came back and i thot chun and rach were cooking..but then when it got late, i found out me and gary were cooking..so it was really late...and dark..but after a long time, we finally finished and for dinner we had fried macaroni made by tori, and we had fried chicken, and rice. thanx everybody for helpin out... we then had campfire and stuff... we had some good talks bout just everything...we made stories up where everybody would say a word and nesxt person say a word, and come up with a story, but it became too random and not comprehensible... i forgot what else we talked about..anywaze we went to go take showers..and i realized i didnt bring my towel. like rachel forgot hers too.. but i did what i could and just listened to music.. lol went to sleep and next morning it was freeezing..

[tues aug.23,2005]
soo cold in the morning....anywaze, we had scrambled eggs, bacon, danishes, waffles, and fried alfred (fish that they caught that morning, mixed with the bacon grease) this is SOO not camp food..but still good .. we played this game where we hafta choose 1 or the other based on how it describes you.. like lake or river, mickey or donald, diet coke or diet pepsi, picture or video..etc.. and we really got to go deep and we got to know everyone a lot better...kim doesnt know mike at ALL! lol it felt like it was 3pm but it was only 1, and we had tacos for lunch...then i dont remember what we did, i think some of us planned for kyrios, then we all went to the beach and stuff.. me and mares played football and chilled with eyen, while others went fishing and others just did some music...we later went to play tag again at the playground....

ok soo the first one, there's just a bunch of tires in a hole and i went in and i was stuck.. ok the other picture..ok soo there i am...eyen teaches me how to get on the slide..so i get up and i get tagged..so i go up there and tag eyen who's on the top... then im just lying there helplessly, then eyen says u can tag anybody within 3 secounds right? and im like yeah...then he counts to 3 in his head,, then he PEEPS OUT AT ME WITH 1 EYE while im just lying there..and it was both freaky and both funny cuz if he comes and tags me i cant really move away...sooo i just laffed soo hard for the next 20 mins....i died laffing..my abs of steel hurt.. lol eyen. lol

went back...and chun and rach made hot pot...sooo good...dumplings and meat and all this other good stuff... then afterwards we looked at stars..oh man... when we were just laying there and looking up. the thig is, there were soo many stars our eyes couldnt even see em all, like u had to turn your head just to see ALL the stars cuz there were just soo many...how did ppl study these things and come up with constellations!? u could say the stars looked like ANYTHING.. anywaze we before campfire...we were doin all these funny things with shadows, it was just too hilarious... pretending to fight, sacking ppl, oompa loompa stuff, synchronizd dancing, and a guy with like 8 arms...lol sooo funny.. then we talked about alotta stuff and we played with sparklers and stuff..

[wed. aug24,2005]
next morning, we had some brunch-grilled cheese sandwiches and chicken noodle soup.sooooo good. anywaze we had to pack and stuff :( and it was sad leaving.. we went to the beach just before we left, and some random guy that looked like syndrome from the incredibles came and wanted to take a picture WITH us.... anywaze, we had a good time coming back..this trip i learned a lot about mike, and eyen and their crazy knowledge of 80s and 90s music. and we had some funny times goin back to eyen;s place, like the walkie talkies and stuff.. got to eyen's...and janice owned in nba 2k5! sooo good with ps2 stuff..(ddr) lol..went home and worked hard on the slideshow..

[thurs.aug.25,2005]
thursday....more slideshow..talked to nat on the phone and then went to softball practice... soo sad that it was our last practice.. anywaze later on..mike invited me to go eat kbbq with the rest of them, aaron, amanda, sam, josh, k, nadine and nat. so we had soo much food...it's where ., u know, it's where the fags usedto be! mike meant to say "FLAGS" :) lol good times..anywaze got home worked on that slideshow till like 4...then i was soo tired,

[friday aug.26,2005] i woke up at 1:30, and i was supposed to be at church at 2 OMG.. i was freaking out..anywaze i needed to finish that slideshow, so i didnt eat all day...i just worked on the slideshow looking at my stupid computer screen for like almost 6 hours straight.. yeah...my parents forgot i had kyrios and they just kinda left..and i didnt have a ride..and omg.it was soo hectic and my slideshopw wasnt working..and just chaos..i was having a mental breakdown and stuff..cuz it was 8:00 and kyrios already started and i was supposed to be at church at 2pm..omg..i was soooo frustrated...eyen to the rescue..thank God for eyen.. sooo optimistic and cheerful and came to pick me up..and just stuff..and talked to me and was soo nceia bout everything..i got to church and just needed to fix up the slideshow...so kenric helped me out..but then we tried fixing it soo long, that when we were showing the slideshow to everybody, the laptop had no more batteries and it was like 80% done! worked soo hard and it just stopped everything right there and then...i was sooo angry...omg....but just everyone was soo nice about it and suggested just inviting everyone to go to mike's and wathcing it there..soo that happened and it was good..everything was better...and most of kyrios got to watch it..still wished everybody saw it..but it was still good... i hope it was alright...kinda sucks, i missed MOST of the KYRIOS GRAND FINALE , cuz either i wasnt there yet, or i was working on the slideshow..wow im really gonna miss u grads and counselors...like mike. uve been there for me thru soo many times. ups and downs...gonna really miss u.. and the grads too..kyrios will definitely not be the same without u guys.
thank you to everybody who helped me out today and just to those who just cheered me up. JANICE, MARES, TORI, GARY, CARMEN, MIKE, KENRIC, EYEN!!!!, NIX, NAT, PHILA, RACH, KIM, GEN, TIFF, ADA, and AMANDA.. if i missed anybody., im sorry..thank you to u too

so i was feelin a lil down that soo many ppl are leaving..so i talked to tori on the phone for a bit when i got home, and then i called up eyen and then i chatted wit manda and janey a bit on msn.. and that sums up about everything up until now.. thnx for reading... wow long blog.

update

2005-08-24T22:15:00.000-04:00

kk i got a lot to do right now..but i really wanna write a long blog right now bout everything since ...the last time i posted..which alotta stuff happened.. but i gotta hold that off for a bit..i gotta do kyrios last program stuff, and stuff. so yeah. sorry..

will post soon

MCBC,BASIC,church,practice,kensington and downtown

2005-08-18T00:32:00.000-04:00

ahhhh well... here we are.
watve i done since...saturday? oh wait that was friday night...wow ok a lot to cover.

[saturday].....did NOTHING...got my new layout. THANX TORI.
oh that day..i was soo bored..and i just found out tori's friend was havin a coffeehouse at MCBC
soo since amanda was bored too, i dragged her with me there, and we went and met up with tori there..
i HATE going to palces where everyone knows each other, but u dont know anybody, and noboddy knows u.
i HATE that feeling...anywaze met a couple ppl at our coffeehouse table. but they just introduced for the sake of awkwardness..they really didnt care about us. well the coffeehouse..was...different from ours...
me and amanda got ther elike 5 mins late. and we never saw the MCs once! we saw them at the very end! lol what did they even do?! they had an intro video..but u couldnt even hear the audio. the setup was nice.. dim with xmas lights and candles and such. there was like pizza and sandwiches, but the pizza was pretty gross. so i ate like 5 of them. ther was candy juice. like it tasted lkike gummy bears if they were squished into a juice. pretty nasty. and i ehard the coffee was quite nasty as well.

the drama was very confusing. i didnt understand ANYTHING. soemthing about camping... but the different music and lighting and stuff was interesting. there was like a part where it was like splinter cell the video game, or was it metla gear solid. one of those games.. like one of the guys was sneaking around and he hid under a box and walked around inside the box.

the speaker was cool. like a young guy. like york univ. and he was really good. spoke like a comedian..really friendly, not shy at all, funny too and u wont lost interest when he's talking. overall it was good. message was good. didnt really apply to me..well sorta..with the problems just really leave it to God and have your friends really help u out and stuff or somethin. the worship team...kinda seamed like they werent prepared and the 4 guitarists seemed like theyve never seen that music before so theyw ere staring at the music soo hard.. but it was alright. then the coffeehouse kinda ended.. didnt really no anybody. saw like a couple ppl i knew.. but didnt really talk to anybody.. then i just drove amanda and tori home. thnx for tellin me about it tori, and thnx amanda for keepin me company!

[sunday] came on time again!! oh yeah that';s 2 weeks in a row!! service was good. the message was about sex. to be honest, it was good but i dont remember any of it at this moment. well later, i had an interview with kinson, and it was really short but it was good, so i got to go to sunday school. then afterwards... i 3rd wheeled with eyen and sandra.. we went to T&T for cheap food!and talked and then just chilled at the church..

when i got to beverly glen for our basic game it was raining.. but God is awesome..He's provided for us every game. and he dried everything up and even gave us warmth and sunshine. and we played in great weather. we had a fun game against SOCS jr. we had sooo many fans.. the bleacher was FULL. like there's no room some ppl had to sit on the grass on the side man! thnx to the fans!! great game.. and afterwards, due to some great complaining by me and OTHERS we decided to go to pho, cuz jap food was too expensive for me. juanita figured out that u can read my "encoded" phone if u turn it upside down and look thru a mirror! then u can read what my phone says.. then later the guys bought a fake dvd from these kids that looked like rats with cardboard signs and table and they bought wedding crashers. and we watched it at mike's. the sound was soo bad we just didnt watch it, cuz it was sdoo hard to hear! sooo we just played alotta video games... read SAM'S BLOG FOR DETAILS! [RE: CONDO CRASHERS]

im gonna skip monday so onto [tuesday] went to church..hung out at eyen's office. me and chris ordered delivery pizza for lunch and played some ball at church. then the grads had their meeting for kyrios. kim, rach and chris showed up and later chun. what a meeting!lol anywaze just hung out with them and pam and gord and eyen. then later we had BASIC practice.. was alright..didnt seem like i got much out of it, so at the end, me, K, rinku and ron decided to just keep getting grounders..and that was fun. thnx ron. then i got home.. and i met tracy! well i didnt really meet her.. we just talked for the first timeon msn. we talked for soo long..but if u think about it, there was alotta breaks of silence.. good job. hahahaha.. sent her like SOOO many songs!!! yeah but it was fun. cool girl. got to know her a bit. yay.

[wednesday] well onto today... got picked up from eyen, and we went to his house and chilled and played some video games.. hahahah STILL beat u!!! but we met up with jen at scarboro town centre..then we met up with kim then chris, nix, derek and rich.

lol.."hey derek, do u remember the episode of futur-..."I DONTWATCH FUTURAMA!"
HAHAHAHAA...mad arms.. punked out richard not even finishing his sentence!

yeah today was mad funny..we subwayed to bloor then we met up with gord. and we went to kensington market and we looked at a whole bunch of stuff...then we walked down spadina then down queen street and nathan phillips square (lol jks) then to eaton centre.. sooooo much walking.. but fun.. then me, eyen, jen and kim left to town centre, and then we all split up from there and eyen drove me home, so i ate dinner and drove to ball.
MADDDDDDDDDDD TURNOVERS.. yeah i suck at basketball.. holy!!! turnovers and bricks. geeez.
then afterwards, me, nix, stevens and derek didnt wanna go to wendy's so i just drove em all home.

yeah and that ends my day and blog. sooo tired.. yesterday i couldnt sleep till 4:30 and last night i couldnt sleep till 5:30!!! omg...i keep thinking..and i just cant sleep!!! ahhhh..well i gotta go to bridletowne tomoro wit marie and jen. aw man. gotta wake upp sooo early.. im starving!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more than words..

2005-08-13T01:41:00.000-04:00

[song] "more than words" - Extreme
good song. old school as well. recap of recently....

[thursday] um...stayed home helped my parents do some work, then helped my sis do some of her work..then met up with eyen and some kyrios ppl at church...then me, eyen, and terrence went to T&T for some cheap chinese food. eyen: hoi mei shing lol. went back to church. where eyen bounced a basketball at me when i was eating.. but luckily God provided me with a shirt where the designs are kinda random so it helps cover whatever mess there was from the food. lol no worries eyen. then we headed off to good sheppherd church for sam and gord's praise and prayer - for they will be fed. i think that's what it was called. it was a praise and prayer BASICALLY. (ok that was gay.) well the worship was amazing.. like i really felt...compelled? i never use that word.. i dunno.. God was really there... yeah too bad we were sitting in the back.. cuz me, eyen, tori and some ppl stood up for some worship songs, but since we were at the back, nobody saw us..soo we couldnt peer pressure anybody lol. it was good. and prayer was good..really opened our eyes to what's out there.. but it was a lil draggy as sam said. but still good. wow i really need to start watchin the news. man i dont know ANYTHING goin on in the world.. yeah that was good prayer time. just opportunities like that..recently,. have been makin me pray out loud, and im a lot less scared of praying out loud now.. i remember they asked me to close off a kyrios program with a prayer and i spent 10 mins brainstorming and figuring out what i gotta say in my prayer.. lol. things have been changing for the better. yeah.. tthursday was good.

[friday] that's today... umm.. oh YEAH. iun the morning, eyen picked me and kim up to go to bridletowne, then we went to t3c to pick up tori. they sent me out into the church to find her to go to bridletowne..but then i took so long that eyen came in too.. and we went all over the church. then i accidentally interrupted t3c daycamp staff devos and they told us that tori bussed to bridletowne or something..soo we left t3c, toriless. lol oh yeah thanx for makin my layout :) yeah so we get there, and yeah. today we went to the science center. it was kinda fun..kinda boring.. like there was alotta new stuff which was interesting, but then there was also alotta stuff that just didnt interest me, and ive seen before... but today was still good. my kid elijah stuck with me the whole day. i was in his group..and him and vicky always came to me and wanted me to hold their hand. lol vicky the whole day kept wandering off to find jack. in the morning, vicky was yelling stuff about BUSES. and then on the bus. jack says, "i love you vicky" and vicky says "i love you jack" lol. cute kids. man hahaha soo jokes.. anywaze yeah.. it was fun chillin wit elijah. he's a good kid. lol today he wore his new jordans and his headband.. hahaha luv that kid. anywaze...bussed home..havent bussed home in soo long.. i dont miss it. was supposed to eat dinner wit some family friends, my grandma , my bro and his wife. but they all took so long. i just ate early cuz i had to go to kyrios.. went to kyrios.. had good worship time.. and good biblestudy. then um... when we were loitering. nixon tells me there's waterballoons in the bushes and we're gonna get chris...doesnt end up happening. so when he's walking awya, i whip a balloon at nix in the back.. and he chases me and gets me back.. but it was soo worth it. lol then i drove gen to magic 2 to eat wit the rest of em,then i just went home.

[melo, iverson, wade n marbury]
feelin a lil down.. dont relaly know why... nothing really happened today, but feelin a lil blue.. i dont know how it's ever goin back. dont think it will.. ive made alotta stupid decisions in my past..and the only thing i can do is apologize...i do wish it didnt happen. i wanna take it back. believe me, i wanna take back alotta things ive done, esp to u, 'wish i could turn back the hands of time' 'impossible as it may seem, but i wish i could...soo bad' but unfortounately i cant... i ask God to fix all of this.. but i guess time will tell, cuz so far there's no quick fix. i hope there'll be some sorta fix in the future... i dont wanna lose u like this. ur awesome. and ur like one of my closest friends..i hafta make things right, esp. as christians, and since i might get baptized.. we really gotta figure somethin out.. please.

more than words...

2005-08-13T00:06:00.000-04:00

[song] "more than words" - Extreme

good song. old school as well.
recap of recently....
[thursday] um...stayed home helped my parents do some work, then helped my sis do some of her work..then met up with eyen and some kyrios ppl at church...then me, eyen, and terrence went to T&T for some cheap chinese food. eyen: hoi mei shing lol. went back to church. where eyen bounced a basketball at me when i was eating.. but luckily God provided me with a shirt where the designs are kinda random so it helps cover whatever mess there was from the food. lol no worries eyen. then we headed off to good sheppherd church for sam and gord's praise and prayer - for they will be fed. i think that's what it was called. it was a praise and prayer BASICALLY. (ok that was gay.) well the worship was amazing.. like i really felt...compelled? i never use that word.. i dunno.. God was really there... yeah too bad we were sitting in the back.. cuz me, eyen, tori and some ppl stood up for some worship songs, but since we were at the back, nobody saw us..soo we couldnt peer pressure anybody lol. it was good. and prayer was good..really opened our eyes to what's out there.. but it was a lil draggy as sam said. but still good. wow i really need to start watchin the news. man i dont know ANYTHING goin on in the world.. yeah that was good prayer time. just opportunities like that..recently,. have been makin me pray out loud, and im a lot less scared of praying out loud now.. i remember they asked me to close off a kyrios program with a prayer and i spent 10 mins brainstorming and figuring out what i gotta say in my prayer.. lol. things have been changing for the better. yeah.. tthursday was good. [friday] that's today... umm.. oh YEAH. iun the morning, eyen picked me and kim up to go to bridletowne, then we went to t3c to pick up tori. they sent me out into the church to find her to go to bridletowne..but then i took so long that eyen came in too.. and we went all over the church. then i accidentally interrupted t3c daycamp staff devos and they told us that tori bussed to bridletowne or something..soo we left t3c, toriless. lol oh yeah thanx for makin my layout :) yeah so we get there, and yeah. today we went to the science center. it was kinda fun..kinda boring.. like there was alotta new stuff which was interesting, but then there was also alotta stuff that just didnt interest me, and ive seen before... but today was still good. my kid elijah stuck with me the whole day. i was in his group..and him and vicky always came to me and wanted me to hold their hand. lol vicky the whole day kept wandering off to find jack. in the morning, vicky was yelling stuff about BUSES. and then on the bus. jack says, "i love you vicky" and vicky says "i love you jack" lol. cute kids. man hahaha soo jokes.. anywaze yeah.. it was fun chillin wit elijah. he's a good kid. lol today he wore his new jordans and his headband.. hahaha luv that kid. anywaze...bussed home..havent bussed home in soo long.. i dont miss it. was supposed to eat dinner wit some family friends, my grandma , my bro and his wife. but they all took so long. i just ate early cuz i had to go to kyrios.. went to kyrios.. had good worship time.. and good biblestudy. then um... when we were loitering. nixon tells me there's waterballoons in the bushes and we're gonna get chris...doesnt end up happening. so when he's walking awya, i whip a balloon at nix in the back.. and he chases me and gets me back.. but it was soo worth it. lol then i drove gen to magic 2 to eat wit the rest of em,then i just went home. feelin down.. dont relaly know why... nothing really happened, but feelin a lil blue.. i dont know how it's ever goin back. dont think it will.. ive made alotta stupid decisions in my past..and the only thing i can do is apologize...i do wish it didnt happen. i wanna take it back. unfortounately i cant... i ask God to fix all of this.. but i guess time will tell, cuz so far there's no quick fix. i hope there'll be some sorta fix in the future... i dont wanna lose u like this. i hafta make things right, as christians, and since i might get baptized.. we really gotta figure somethin out.. please.

music on my mind...

2005-08-11T00:17:00.000-04:00

good songs to listen to these days...

fix you - coldplay ('under the o.sea' prom song)
wonderwall / champagne supernova - oasis
let me go - 3 doors down
everything / you and me - lifehouse
hold you down - fat joe and j-lo
slipped away / fall to pieces - avril
wake me up when september ends - green day
angel - amanda perez
cater 2 u - DC
crazy / all my life - kci and jojo
playas only - r.kelly and the game
outta control - 50 feat. mobb deep
my baby - kanye feat. janet jackson
anytime - brian mcknight
end of the road - boyz II men
more than words - extreme
go - common feat. kanye

cant think of any more... ok
fun day today..mid week kyrios at markville and tori';s place and then ball at church which was really really really fun/. yeah that's about it.... lates.

read the previous post before this one.

2005-07-31T01:02:00.000-04:00

these are just pictures... relating to the ones from the previous post.

a week at bridletown and some BASIC teens

2005-07-30T23:58:00.000-04:00

i love this kid... by the way, im in this picture, but SOMEBODY cut me out of it.....jerk.... "flip" a.k.a. JEN. im right there, but she dooesnt take me in the picture...

this week has been sooo tiring.. honestly, i went into this week thinking it wouldnt be that fun, but it actually was kinda fun...and the camp was cool, and ok, i NEVER say "cute" but at the camp, there were a couple REALLY REALLY cute kids man!!

yeah i liked this week at the camp..and yeah the kids were really cool., and the staff that was there, the counsellors were really cool too.. so it was really easy to get into transition wise in the beginning, and i think it was very successful and we all had tons of fun.. i already miss the kids... yo these 2 kids were like togheter all the time, and they like danced withb each other and gave each other hugs and stuff... youngest couple ever...

this kid over here with the purple hat, is a cute kid too, he has hops for a kid too and he likes ball and he';s flip..and he wore my headband and looked like a lil me, i swear that's like my kid! hahaha

but yeah...friday, we had an awesome dinner at pastor vic's place...best steak EVER. yeah it was sooooo good.. that was an aweosme dinner... then that nite at kyrios...honestly again, i didnt look forward to it, but it was really awesome too.. sam, rachelle, amanda and kim did a great job... the songs were soo good too...yeah i liked it at the end..it was fun.. good time of worship...and after that i went home with eyen and nat, and we had a long convo on my driveway, that was really cool. and we just had a good talk about everything.

today i woke up at like 2pm cuz the past week had to wake up at like 7 everyday....went out for lunch wit my parents, had a BASIC game today...i stayed positive the whole game which was good.. we played Judges but we lost, but it was still fun, and we went to moxie's afterwards for dinner, that was kinda fun...talked and chilled, then i just drove jen home then i went home... and yeah..that's about it.. this week went by sooo fast...but it really felt like soo much happened and i havent seen everybody for sooooo long.. but yeah...tired..so i'll end it here...

peter griffin: if you could be with any girl in the world who would it be..?
quagmire: taylor hanson!
peter: taylor hanson's a guy...
quagmire: hehehe..ur just pullin a joke on ol' quagmire..heheheheh..but...wait..but....oh GOD..OH GOD>.....but all the...pictures...and..magazines...and..OH GOD!!!!!!

wow it's been almost a month

2005-07-19T23:24:00.000-04:00

'hello telephone' -Eyen

it's been a while as it says above.. and yet i still have not accomplished that much..wait, whatve i done since the last time i blogged.... ok

um..well lotsa BASIC practices, couple of games.. got some Bridletowne (park church)Project (daycamp), that's starting to get exciting..my camp nickname is ecko... it was a last resort, ppl couldnt think of a name for me... so watever.. oh..last friday, we had the PROJECT TDOT-amazing race, which was really fun actually..

our race...well first of all our team consisted of myself, EYEN a.k.a. frobbit, mares a.k.a marietta a.k.a. mozzerella, jenny a.k.a. lil flip and michelle. our team OFFICIAL team name was given to us, but we didnt like it at first, we were called TEAM AIMBOT, our unofficial one was TEAM WONDERWALL, so much better. lol well first our clue was to go to AFC, and there we answered a sheet of questions, next we went to toronto reference library, where EYEN knew exactly how to get there, we got there we had to look for a word on page 383 of a specific book of a specific series of books, in a specific section, then search it on the net, but the search was weird, messed and irrelevent, so our next clue told us to go to the metro convention centre to take a picture with a black snowman statue infront of woodpeckers and birds...

oh by the way, during this whole race, for every Hummer we take a pic of, our race time is deducted by 5min, mini coopers 10 min, and smart cars 15min...so our eyes were scanning the streets the WHOLE time non stop, by the end, we THOT we got soo many coopers, a hummer and 2 smart cars, but apparently other teams went to the dealerships and got like 50 cars each..but lemme continue....

then from the conventioon centre we had to go to ryerson and find a campus map and solve a code and also take a picture with some bird statue outside the school, the girls found out our next clue, which was to go to some noodle place in chinatown, so we had to sit down and eat then we'd get our next clue, so we got a plate of rice noodles, and ive never eaten that fast before, we cleared the plate in less than 3 mins. we got our clue we had to buy durian and bring it with us then go to dragon city, there we had to get 1 person, so we got eyen, and he had to drink this nasty really hot tea, but shhhh, when we bought it, we asked so it wouldnt be soo hot.. shhhh. so eyen finished it in like 5 sec. then we had to go to front, but the clue was soo stupid it told us to go to this rock climbing place which was SOOO irrelevent, anywaze turns out the place we were supposed to go to, there was nobody present to tell us our next clue, so we wandered around, and found a lamborghini dealership and got a couple of GREAT pics.. (we were supposed to get pics with nice cars for extra points) and the lamborghini dealership ppl were soo nice, but they didnt know anything about the race, so they couldnt help, anywaze we finally found the place and there we had to finish our durian that we bought, it was soo nasty, THANX to all u guys who finished it, cuz i only took 2 small pieces, and gagged the second piece....hahaha im such a wuss when it comes to eating nasty things.. anywaze then we had to buy a sandwhich and give it to a homeless person, then we had to go to st. laawrence market, except we thot we were supposed to go to yorkville, so we went north like 10 subway stops, and found out we were supposed to go all the way back... anywaze, there we had to each eat an orange then for extra 45 mins off race time, someone had to eat bittermelon raw, so eyen did that fast, and we were off to CN tower, where we had to walk the SKYLINE again and walk down front street...OMG soooo much walking/running that day... there we got a map and our clue was to go to city hall and make aa call from a payphone near the "wall of nails"

FUNNY STORY : ok, so inside city hall we called the payphone , and i heard "nathan phillips square" so i went to the front desk and asked a securtiy guard, "what's the fastest way to get to nathan phillip square?" and he said "...(*pointing*) OUT THE DOOR!" sooooo embarassing...for the ones who arent so smart and dont get the joke, nathan phillips square is right outside city hall, like u open the doors to leave city hall and ur AT nathan phillips square (amanda, im assuming u didnt know that....hahaha SPACE STATION)

ok back to the race...from city hall we had to go to TCAC which was right by eyen's old church, so he knew exactly how to get there, we got the clue and we had to go back to Jaffrey alliance church, the finish line, so we finally made it thru the terrible rush hour traffic, and after some BBQ, worship and message, they announced the winners, and there's 3 winners, 1 for each different route, and for our route, TEAM AIMBOT WON!!! WITH THE FASTEST TIME TOO!!!! 4h. and 39 mins!!!!!! other winners were jordan';s team and gen's team. our prizes were a durian, some bitter melons, keychains and a banner/sash thingy... YAY

ok this is a really long post, but im not done yet....ok so next day wonderland -ccsa midseason mixer... it was really fun, the weather was humid and cloudy but the rain kinda balanced it out, got to finally try wild beast, shockwave and skyrider...i almost got to try the bat, but it was closing, oh the worship temas were good..rhcbc and t3c were AMAZING...mike sang dare u to move with sam and chris, and itr was AMAZING... non christians from wonderland were walking in thinking it was switchfoot.. that was cool..later we went to congee wong then went home..

and on to TODAY...nadine, nat and nate picked me up, we went to eyen's new house and their old house along with chris and josh and we helped paint their house today...wow very tiring and alotta work...we had japanese food for lunch, courtesy nadine, THNX NADINE, and we went back to painting, we got a lot done...and then later eyen and sandra came, and then we left, me and nadine went over to mike's, played some video games, then nadine dropped me off at softball practice, where it was optional and we pretty much just worked on batting.. it was alright...then came home, did some laundry and chatting... and now im done my blog. thnx for reading...i know u prolly just skimmed thru! to the ones that read everything, thnx. yeah and im done.

Homer: "If Marge and Artie get together, then that means i'll never be born!"

(peter, lois and a pregnant woman are in a car at a drive thru)
Lois: Peter,why are we stopped?
Peter: Yeah, I'll have three cheeseburgers...
Lois: Peter for God's sakes she's havin' a baby!
Peter: Oh that's right...and a kid's meal...

exams failed, school's done, now get a job.

2005-06-28T02:36:00.000-04:00

well it's been a while..havent had time..or havent MADE anytime.. stupid exams... well for MATH, i didnt study enough of the big stuff...so i did bad there... and PHYSICS, it was just ...physics... did bad on that too..oh man before the exam Mr.Cope, the science dope, emailed me my mark. iwasgettin a 51 before the exam... my lowest mark EVER.

anywaze whatever it's done... so is school..speaking of school i missed the marks review day..i woke up at 8...went back to sleep..called ayana at like 9:30 ish..then went back to sleep then got a call from her at like 10ish then went back to sleep, my mom asked me to do something today, then i went back to sleep, then i finally got up at like 12:45.

i went to woodside, applied to every store there ..to add to the 100s of other stores i already applied to...WHY DOESNT ANYONE WANNA HIRE ME.. (and dont tell me to call them up and wats-the-word..follow up! im workin on that already) anywaze i need some cash money.... i wanna buy but dont have anything to buy with...

OOOH i love our new BASIC jerseys.. good selection ryan and mike. they're nice. i got a jersey that fits now... who said 2XL was massive?!?

well anywaze lately, ive just been hangin out wit ppl in the hood...playin ball at goldhawk..
yesterday, i ran with some ppl my age, against these BIG guys in their 20s, ...on my team i was like the 3rd shortest guy...and i guarded the shrotest guy on the other team and he was like 3 inches taller than me...the rest were all like 6'1, 6'3, 6'4 and 6'6..but they werent that good.. we had like a series of games wit em, and we were 4-0... and our team was like 1 big guy, 1 PF and the rest of us were like pointguards.. yeah... frigg i suck at ball..no hops, no handles, no finish and just turnovers man...geez..... i kinda dont wanna find a job..just work on ball everyday 24/7

yesterday..softball practice..i wore a wifebeater to get rid of my farmer's tan... and that was the first time EVER that my skin burned..right now my shoulders and upper arms are red instead of tan and they hurt with burning....

ok ive talked well enough... oc season 1 finale was soo depressing.. ryan leaves and it causes soo much damage...right now..im at the 5th episode of season 2 and already the fantastic 4 all have their own dates.. now there's zach, alex, lindsay and DJ.. alex is soo hot and i dont seem to mind lindsay as much anymore.. well yeah...im gonna go shower then sleep...ive been goin to sleep these days at like 3am.... man i needta sleep earlier.. k lates.

Trent Steel: "...Max Power? i like that name."
Homer Simpson: "..i got it from a hair dryer"

oc season 1, and just noo homework

2005-06-06T23:43:00.000-04:00

oops..forgot bout posting in a while..cuz of stress, but...this week, no stress..no homework..no tests, no assignments, no projects...I LOVE IT.

just lately, just been playing basketball... played so well at goldhawk couple days ago...so fun
and ayana-banana lent me oc season 1 dvds, so im watchin it..i love the oc.. season 1 IS pretty good. yes..i was soo happy..i mean summer's been soo mean to seth and soo ditsy and stuff..but at caleb;s party, seth tells her of all the stuff he remembers of her as a kid.. like she her poem, "i wish i was a mermaid" and summer kissed seth!! oh man, and caleb brings his 24 year old girlfriend, who is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hot.. gabrielle, who wants some fun with ryan! blonde bombshell!!!! soooo hottt...

anywaze yeah.. again with the no stress, also no more. ive given up..there's no more.. if u know me, u'll know.. soo freee...im luvin this too. dont need her that way...friends is good enough.. hahaha life is good right now... just a lil coughy for some random reason but life is good..

"you love me, but u dont know who i am...so let me goo..just let me go.." - 3 doors down

"chino........ewww" - (the mean) summer
"i wish i was a mermaid" - Seth and Summer

smallville finale, down at the danforth & symphony night

2005-05-25T23:56:00.000-04:00

it's been such long days these past couple days... i hate school

ok well, yesterday was the smallville season finale, that was really good..

how does lana keep surviving every single accident and such..she survived that crazy helicopter crash, and she finds some random ship? and why does lionel see the krypton language at the end? so gay how clark just throws that rock at the end..sorry, stone! throws it in the direction it was pointing to.. but it was good...so action packed and so much drama, more intense than oc finale, context wise..

well today was unproductive.. rehearsal at toronto centre for the arts all morning, soo tiring and boring... afterwards, me, igor, lee and mylonas chilled at mylonas' house... went to the danforth, got some squareboys food, really good greek food....mmmmmmmmmmmm...wow these guys dont eat...anorexic guys..holy... every single one of them didnt finish their lunch and gave it to me! lol... such good food... then we played basketball at this like court in such a ghetto area.. wow that area's mad ghetto... even for me, and im from scarboro.. ok... then we just chilled at 7/11 for a bit, then me and lee went to the subway... wen i was walking home, my friends were out and about..so i played more basketball..that was fun... then got home, chilled for a bit, ate, tv, then got ready to go to symphony night..

anywaze, drove to symphony night.. ok.. within 2 mins into symphony night, right after we tune and the MC's are about to talk, the fire alarm goes off, and the whole place has to evacuate!! anywaze everyone has to go outside, after a long time we all go back in, including the audience and we start half an hour late. each piece seemed sooo long..and the whole thing ended soo late..
anywaze chit chatted with ms. goldhar, a.k.a mrs. pady, and mitchell and Doc, and kami, that was cool...i miss u ms. goldhar!! strings suck now.... every year after she left.. oh i forgot to mention, in the program, under the orchestra, IM NOT EVEN MENTIONED.. my name is not found anywhere in the list of the ppl IN the orchestra!!!!! and im in everything!!!!yeah so anywaze yeah.. im hungry..i;ll end it here

homer: "what do u have to drink, to wash down this taste?"
street vendor: "mountain dew and crab juice"
homer: "....EEEEWWWWWWWW... i'll take the crab juice."

oc finale and gym night

2005-05-21T00:01:00.000-04:00

i know it's 2 different nights,m but i didnt blog yesterday..

hey i was lookin at friendster and stuff..and i dont have any friends :( i have like 57 while other ppl have like 150+ ..poo whatever.. it's about QUALITY of friendships, not QUANTITY... oh im hopeless

oc finale wasnt that good..it was good that it was on, and sad that it ended sad, but it really wasnt that good of an episode.. i love summer.. she's such an aweosme girlfriend... seth is soo lucky.. and trey got shot..i still think marissa shoulda just pistol whipped him, or threw a lamp at him or something instead of shoot him.

anywaze..well today was ok..really warm...1st..boring physics, 2nd...finished soo much of my summative in class, 3rd, boring strings, 4th, had lunch with jif, nadeem, tonye, terrence and boyle. 5th..photog..got soo much work done, panjer loves my prints... and there was an extension for the slide film assignment..im SOO happy..

afyterschool..went to justin's ..with igor, calvin and later kalun, and we played ball... that was kinda fun..got some pics for tech magazine project.. nice shots too

got home, ate dinner ...oh i was watching um...Wheel OF Fortune..ok the hint is Rhyme and the answer so far was ...

DADS / A_D / _R_DS it's supposed to rhyme..and one guy guesses "DADS AND GRASS" and there's a D right there!!! what an idiot... the answer was DADS AND GRADS.. someone shoot him

kyrios gym night..at first not very many ppl were there when we just started worship..but when we got to the gym, alotta ppl trickled in..i dunno..i know it was disorganized, but i thot it was fun..a little too many big group games..my bad.. just wanted to stall more time.... we played atom...which went horrible cuz no one can count, then octopus then another time of octopus, then some running game where i call out numbers, if ur that number u hafta go and get a ball and shoot the bal or do a layup or dunk and score..lol. i wanted to play that.... then we played duck duck goose.. and a BIG huge game of volleyball. yo jen's sooooooooooooooooo good and vball and ball. schoolin everyone in vball. i still got my serve. but i lost everything. (jif, if ur reading this..stupid mini claude, took away all our athletic ability cuz of lack of gym at claude watson, esp vball skills) but that was fun, and i played some ball.. and then we just lotiered and played hacky sack and stuff..

then i got home and i just played ball outside for like half an hour..then just chatted to ppl,, check email, go around aa and friendster and just eatin food right now, that's right. infront of my computer..ok well im just gonna end it here... later

"All Night GYM? (pernounced GUY-M) wat's a GYM?..*walks in*...OH a gym!!" - Homer Simpson

...school/strings/school/ball/strings/ball

2005-05-18T23:59:00.000-04:00

hey.

well at least im geting less sick each day... less coughing and runny nose etc..

school..
late again for 1st period...boring, 2nd...went to strings rehearsal.... nothing special..just kinda intimidating..when a whole choir is standing directly over u playing violin and u dont know the piece very well..nor can play it well.. anywaze..3rd..boring..4th..THE BEST ENGLISH CLASS EVER

it was mr. stewart (our cool student teacher's last day) so we watched episodes of the Simpsons, and he brought us cookies and stuff..and we just learned cool things about him.. he's such a cool guy.. he used to breakdance, play ball, be in the music business, met Puff Daddy, got stabbed, and stuff.. wat a cool guy. and he even says himself that his capital letters look like graffiti, which is also very cool. ive said cool like 1000 times in the past paragraph, havent i??
anywaze 5th..kettle exploded today. he got soo pissed and just full out angry and it's always directed at the most innocent of them all, iven. kettle's soooo weird sometimes..

afterschool..got home, played some streetball.. ate some dinner then left for choral nite..

drove miya and boyle to sheppard and yonge, and we saw the star wars junkies outside waiting for STARWARS to open midnight today..that's now! so many guys in like storm trooper costumes or boba fett costumes, and ppl have cool light sabers..anywaze that was coolprobably had the fastest drive ever.. from yonge and sheppard to church..warden and steeles, it only took me like 10 mins.. soo fast.finch was empty, so that was fast, took the 404 that was fast, and steeles whichw as also fast.. i avgeraged like 100 km/h there..ok well i might be exaggerating a lil.. got to church...not many ppl there, soo alotta playing time for me.. that was fun..less turnovers, more points, im happy.. gotta work on everything still..
and then..not much..

well got stupid orch. rehearsal tomoro morning, dont want torok to yell at me again..
lates

woman in the jury - "don't u have a tatoo that says 'Die Bart, Die?"
Side Show Bob - "Of course not...it's German. it means "The Bart, The"
woman - "surely a man who speaks german isn't evil!"

lol

smallville-"school's out forever"

2005-05-17T21:40:00.000-04:00

song of the moment: LifeHouse - "You and Me"
(this was the prom song in smallville 2 weeks ago, i think)

such a good song..

anywaze...today ahhhh nothing special happened..but that's like almost everyday
1st..did nothing..2nd.. played ball wit igor (lee and jamie left to get food), so me and igor just played some fobs... man..chinese ppl can be annoying..
3rd...strings..boring..4th..lunch..with the asian kids..wow never heard the f word used so many times in a period.. 5th..boring photog.
afterschool....nothing happened....um..got home..actually this girl who lives across the street..kristin. i chill with her brothers..but ive never actually talked to her..well anywaze she got on the bus..and we got off same stop..walked down the hydrofield home.. she was nice to talk to..since i havent talked to her ever..really...talked bout school, driving, and stuff.. that was cool.
um..played ball wit her brother ryan later, and raz and faraz. ate dinner..

and watched smallville. man i love that show. i dont wanna explain it, but the jistt of it...
it's the last day of their sr. year of highschool, so everyone's all excited about graduating..but then chloe and some ppl find themselves in school, but it's not really school..it's just a place that looks identical...then ppl from the real school start to be brought in to the fake school..and hafta pretend like school will go onforever...anywaze.. im just gonna skip to the ending.. it's just really sad that time is goin by pretty fast. and just highschool's almost over..and life's just gonna be really different after that.. ur not gonna see all the ppl u see at highschool.. gonna hafta make new friends... deal with new things... life is just gonna be soo different, and i dont think im ready for it...im scared. (i know one day i'll look back at this, and laff) anywaze, it's just really sad, that everything is going by so fast, and there's always gonna be change, and u cant do anythin about it but live it.... ahhhh

after smallville, just played some more ball, and now just talkin to jif and ppl..actually nobody. just jif.

so yeah. that's about it. oh by the way, jif walked into a bench today!!! lol hahahqhaaaha. all jks.

"they're like the LA Clippers of backyard tennis" - Lou (Sgt. of the Springfield Police)

sickkkkk

2005-05-16T19:32:00.000-04:00

feeelin soo sick the past 2 or 3 days.. coughing like crazy..runny nose and all

i hate u, sickness

well i havent posted in a while, on saturday, i failed my CCSA umpiring clinic, i dont know if i said that already...

sunday, we had basic practice and "afterparty" at mike's well, just pizza and stuff.
man i love basic. omg, i almost died yesterday. i was running from 2nd to 3rd in scrimmage, and for some reason i felt a ball was gonna come at me, so i covered my head with my arms while still running..good thing, cuz i got hit in the wrist... i woulda got a concussion, but i was saved by God thru my hand. thank the Lord!

anywaze, fast forward to now..im just plain sick and i cant eat anything, dietary restrictions cuz of chink medicine...aw man.. cant have anything fried, no chicken, no juice, no pop, not even cold water, no beef, no fruits, i cant name it all. i cant eat anything.. and im picky as it is!

i hate being sick....

Ralph: "can u open my milk, mommy?"
Teacher: "I'm not your mommy, ralph. Im Ms. Hoover"

friday13-coffeehouse!!

2005-05-14T00:37:00.000-04:00

awwww man...right now im coughing like crazy! u can even ask mares.. omg..my throat kills... i dont think ive ever coughed this much in my life before... and i only stgarted coughing like crazy in the past hour.. all day i was fine!

school first, then coffeehouse.

well we had a late start for school today which was good, but i had to go at 10 for orchestra recording..i got there late cuz i slept in, and cuz of traffic-construction, blackout at some traffic lights..and other stuff, so i got there really late...apparently it was 10seconds after miya came in. but i went in and there werent any violins left. and torok yells out, "WHOEVER YOU ARE, OVER THERE, GET OUT, WE'RE TRYING TO RECORD!!!" so i just slam the door and leave and goto class late. ahh whatever..1st sucked, 2nd sucked..stupid supply teacher, always writes riddles and trivia questions on the board, sad thing is no matter what class it is, she writes the same questions, cuz i knew all the answers cuz she wrote the same questions in my physics class some time ago.. anywaze, 3rd..poker, 4th, english.... oh man, i seriously have problems. today was our second class working on our english exam thing.. and while everybody pretty much finished everything, Part A last class and Part B this class, i just barely managed to finish Part A today..didnt even start the second part..im really slow... everyone's done, and i havent even started!, 5th, kettle's class was boring as usual

got home..ate some food/watched tv...went to early prep for coffeehouse

COFFEEHOUSE WAS AWESOME..well i thot so. it was fun, the turn out was crazy..soo many ppl (so many ppl ive nbever seen before) ihope ppl liked it. it was fun performing.. everything seemed good. omg. chun cut me off when i was about to do my singing.. i said lonely soo many times and ppl laughed at me, and i was thinking why they were laffing and this whole time chun thought i was done, so he cut me off! i actually wanted to do it too! ahh whatever.. we got a lotta laffs..so it was all good. good msg eyen. and good sharing mares. good music worship team., all for g-sus, and good job drama team and stage crew! and thnx mike and eyen for all your hard work. it seemed like a success.
afterwards i got to hang out with alison! that was fun, cuz i never see her ever... that was prolly like our longest chat ever. soo glad that u came. u made my day.

then after a long time of loitering we went to Pho with everybody. that was fun. came home. chatting, phone with mares. and just coughing like crazy it hurts :( ....cant continue...

Bart: "how are they, ralph? good?"
Ralph: "they taste like....burning!"

today sucked...

2005-05-11T23:22:00.000-04:00

just a bad day....

late for 1st period as usual...
2nd..just plain boring and tiring.
oh and i made my decision. i would be one of 2 ppl not going on the field trip. the stupid thing is the ppl who went to the field trip came back in time for 4th period. so might as well shouldve gone. so i wont get in trouble by the conductor. idiot me..so i had lunch with mylonas and lee ended up skipping and comnig with us. we first went to future shop, where i saw a hot cashier. mylonas and lee will NOT back me up on this, but in my opinion she was soo hot. her name was like dinara or somethin....soooooooooooo hoottttt in like a conservative, quiet, way. omgoodness she was really pretty.
anywaze, went to 4th, did my english summative, barely got any done, I FELL ASLEEP READING THE ESSAY.. and i didnt finish answering number 2. and there's 3 questions. and in fact the first question i answered wrong..but oh well, we still have friday and monday to work on it.
5th period..omg kettle seriously is crazy. when everyone's looking at someone write an answer on the board, and no one notices me go to the back of the room and around to throw away some garbage..then kettle stops the whole classs. makes a big deal and gives me a lecture about disturbing and disrupting the class..spends 5 mins just telling me how much i am stopping the process of the class, omg...wat an ass... "oh i get it, talk while im talking!" "...well lemme ask you THIS!" jerk...

ok, so nat rushes me outta school, so me, terrence, lee and her are practically jogging to the subway to get to finch station, cuz if we dont, 'we're going to be late!'...anywaze i realize im the only one taking the express bus..and everyone else is going to cenerpoint..ugh..anywaze..get home..make some KD, which was really good..go to mike';s place for CCSA umpiring study session.. had some pizza there. thanx mike..learned a lot. thanx guys.. then me and jimmy went to ball. we got there late. but fortunately we played pretty much like 4 of the 5 games there or soemthin.. not many ppl came totday which was good, but woulda been better if i came an hour before.. and not an hour later.. anywaze..i get a lotta minutes..and i just made soo many dam turnovers, missed all my shots, fumbled passes, slipped the ball outta my hands, missed layups, missed more shots, made terrible passes, bad rebounding, then finally i make one shot. wat a night..

go home..too pissed about playuing horrible i go outside and play ball wit raz... overall,..not a terrible day, and not sad or depressing, just the good things that happened, just werent thagt good.. i dunno. just a bad day....ugh...

"...i tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it....but im better off on my own.." - Sum 41

dilemma...

2005-05-10T23:14:00.000-04:00

iknow it's just complaining..but lemme break it down into relevant and irrelevant stuff in no order at all...

i have allergies, and im all sneezy, teeary eyed, runny nosed and coughing..and my throat hurts..and so overall im feeling really sick..i forgot itchy eyes
ok..i have a frankesntein essay that was due last week. that's right tomoro, will be a week late..but i dont have time to do it. then i have a new essay to do which iu havent had time to start due last monday... next.. tomoro during english class..ok

well in english class we have a summative/exam in class to do...and i have a strings field trip at that time..which is a boring and useless field trip..and i dont wanna go to the field trip.. but then i dont want to go to english, cuz idont have my essays done..BUT i'd rather get the exam over with!!!

unrelated topic overall...uchenna the black guy on the amazing race won! he seems like such a good winner, their team lost their luggage and money and everything, but kept being hopeful and optimisitc, and even tho they were last for a boit, they kept saying we're gonna push and keep gpoing no matter what... and they won!!! they beat my faves rob and amber..but i think they totally deserve it..and anywaze rob and amber each have soo much money from survivior.
so everyone wins..

plz pray for me..i dont know what im gonna do about tomoro..so dead in so many ways..i just got too much stuff goin on tomoro!!! oh man. HELP ME PLEASE.

"be hopeful, hopeful and He'll make a way, i know it aint eas-ay but, that's ok" Faith Evans in "Hope"

school, ball, paisanos, ball

2005-05-09T22:01:00.000-04:00

boring...tiring...draining monday

school...omg..so tired..1st was crap as usuall, i really hate tech now.
2nd...i failed another math test...this is REALLY draining my math and term avg. i think i got a 42% on this test..it was soo hard....why am i so bad at writing tests!!!!
3rd.. went to wendy's..hot dog stand...contact05 photo gallery...park...swings..back to school
4th...boring as usual..fun playing hang man and winning every round..im soo good at it. lol igor..
5th.. kettle ...i hate that class too. never looked so forward to that class ending...soo pointless that class
then hung around a bit afterschool, went to the spring garden church parking lot for ball, lost to the fobs..they never missed a shot! holy..then went to paisano's for unlimited pizza and unlimited coke:) and it was freeee... soo much food..and so many of ppl's food. the return of the human waste basket!! omg, there was a gritaly05 postcard thingy for everyody, one big group picture..AND im blocked out of it by hands..ok here's the story...

monica was also blocked off, but she was identifiable, so mr.panjer photoshoped her in with another picture.. i wasnt identifiable..and all the other pics i was blocked off too, so i remained blocked off and not photoshoped in!!! wtf. :(

anywaze had a long walk to sheppard with the ppl. a classen, lee, jiffy, the asian one a.k.a nat, ayanms, allison, igor and mylonas.. got home around 8:30....such a long bus ride.. then played ball at raz's house for bout an hour..then just went online and chatted..

im so tired..and omg..i dont know how im going to do my 2 essays!!! omg.. plz pray for me..

anywaze im done.

"a boat is just a boat...but the mystery box could be anything! ..it could even be a boat!" - Peter Griffin

oh sunday

2005-05-08T17:05:00.000-04:00

feels like such a long day... i'll keep this one really short, cuz i got soo much homework to do..2 essays and math and stuff

last nite..i was gonna sleep at 11pm so i'd get good sleep..but then i decided ti finish watching the rest of th OC..that was until about 12..then i saw smallville was on YTV, so i watched a bit, and guess who was the guest star, adam brody. that's right seth cohen! he was a bad guy that can use his mind to move objects, since he was hit by a car by the principle's son. soo i ended up sleeping at 1. big mistake ...barely got sleep.

woke up at 6:15 this morning to make my mom breakfast...drove my mom to church..went to pick up tori for drama filming.. wow the roads are empty at 7:30-8 IN THE MORNING ON SUNDAYS... oops sorry for the caps..

filmed a little bit....wow tori's obsessed with a groudhog and chun....ugh...
waited soo long to film...then she wouldnt stop with the groundhog so i just kinda left... had a good short lil chat wit jennifer.. that's right..she called me jonathan, so imma call her full name too. then me, jenny, chun and tori went to mcDs for breakfast...went to church..I WAS ON TIME TODAY. service..

omg..ok MAYBE THIS WONT BE SHORT AFTER ALL
ok.. omgoodness MAD ARMS HOUSE...ok so after service in the gym,, jessica was askin me questions and stuff and we were talking about somebody, and then everybody and that means everybody..probably even YOU.. were all like "STOP MACKIN!" holy... i wasnt doing anything!!
in fact she was asking me stuff ....and everyone thot i was macking :( i wasnt!!! really!!

sunday school..had lunch..came home..trying to do homework.....
thnx mares wit my essay. might as well start a new one since there's soo many corrections..

yeah well i gotta do homework..im soo tired! oh crap my hasbrowns are in the oven!

payce

"iron helps us play" Rod Flanders

clinic...1/2 oc...tyndale grad... coffeehouse rehearsal...

2005-05-07T22:57:00.000-04:00

omgoodness...woke up so early today to go to CCSA Umpiring clinic for 10am..i get there....nobody i know is there..i call up mike..he slept in....so im there by myself for a good 20 mins...soo sad..mike finally comes..im relieved...then he goes to advanced umpiring class :( alone again for the whole clinic, WHERE WAS BASIC?!?! WHERE WAS CHRIS!?!?! PUNK...happy bday man! sorry i couldnt make it to your bday dinner..

after clinic, went to A&W chilled with mike and eunice, then later chris , stevens and ryan came...went home..watched half of the OC, recorded by mike. thanx mike. went to my brother's graduation..actually the first 3/4 of it was sooo boring... turns out jen's dad was graduating from the same 2 ministries-things my bro was too.. later we took pictures and stuff..apparently our parents are friends :S! ...crazy... went to dominions with my sister to buy some groceries and flowers for mother's day..saw christine raftopoulos there... had no time, so went to mcD's for some food, came home rushed outta there to go to church for coffeehouse rehearsal...

lol..i get there, then mike needs me to go with him to his house to get a guitar and get more mcD's food... lol..so i started at 7:45..lol..supposed to be 7... anywaze turns out i forgot my drum sticks!! so everyone suggested me go to the kitchen and get chopsticks...big mistake ...noo good..so victoria gets big wooden spoons (for serving food) and those are soo good.. worship was amazing..all thanx to the spoons!! and God of course. lol the spoons... so much better than drum sticks! hahahaa... yeah.... mares helped me edit my frankenstein essay..but there's soo much to correct now i cant do it..too many things to fix.. stupid essays..i hate essays..thanx mares!
and me and jen talked a lot more today, which was good. mayhbe cuz we went to the same graduation thing before and we had something to talk about? im crazy man....

dang...tomoro hafta wake up soo early to make my mom breakfast, then go to church with her, then drop her off then go pick up tori and chun then go back to church at about 8:15 to film stupid more filming scenes... omg. so yeah..gotta wake up early..so need to sleep early..so need to go now.. payce

hmmm....i need a quote (ms.mondrow in the back: "QUOTATION!!")

lunch lady doris: "......the world at last, right fall-out boy?"
ralph: "wat's for lunch tomoro?"
director: "next!"
ralph: "chicken necks?" ( or "next?")

tgi...Friday..my crazy bus story, not so crazy

2005-05-07T00:53:00.000-04:00

hey...

friday...the end of the week..the beginning of such a busy weekend..omg.

tomoro..10am umpiring clinic for CCSA
afternoon... brother's tyndale grad... along with chun ling's cousin and jen's dad
evening... coffeehouse run thru

and i still have 2 essays and math to do for monday..omg

today..let's see... 1st.physics...boring..2nd..world religions..mr.wittman said it's "independent studies" u have a summative due may 24th, either u can work on it now, or do whatever u want..so me and flax went to play poker with the lunch crew-music majors feat. niall, jamie, ayanms and mady:) 3rd.. boring strings...4th...oh sweet..ok..we're supposed to go to thisd photog presentation..but it's my lunch..no way im missing that! ook..so me, jif, boyle, deem, this new guy mike..then madison, bobby, giacomo and laura we went to sheppard for lunch..only like 3 ppl bought food.. anywaze afterwards we went to mike's place and watched the first half of the bourne identity..or is it the bourne supremacy..well it was the first one of the two.. fell asleep 5 mins just before we went back to school..but i just decided to go home..

so i get on my finch express bus..from yonge to mccowan..but my music was soo loud and i fell asleep so i didnt hear when we got to mccowan! so turns out i wake up, i have no idea where i am.. definately past mccowan... so it turns out that i was near nielson... and it';s soo ghetto there!!! holy...the houses in the residential area are so small and run down and dutty and stuff..like in the bronx or somethin, or harlem.. and i dunno., true ghettos of scarboro..anywaze i decided to stay on the bus cuz it'll eventually turn back and go towards mccowan..so i finally get to mccowan 20 mins after i wouldve normally got off there.. see..not so crazy of a story..and that's my crazy bus story..

played ball and hockey for a bit. then jet to kyrios.. we watched some video about the columbine shooting.. those 2 shooters are seriously retarded man.. and one of the girls who got shot, rachel, is like crazy..she predicted her death that day..and she was soo like inspirational? she was very faithful... anywaze.. nixon is mad arms... yells out across the whole room "UR ARMS HOUSE!" and i didnt even tell him anything specifically...lol then im like why do u assume things when they might not be true!!! ..then i say..it might not be true!!but it is true..hahaha lol

anywaze..went to pho afterwards.. didnt eat..no money..broke..

and now just tv and poker..yes i just won with a striahgt 10 to Ace...aw yeah!! i won like 500 chips.. oh baby oh and i just won with a straight 9 - K..i won 330 chips!!! yay
anywaze crazy day tomoro..i'll leave it at that

whip guy: "dont listen, ya hear me?"
homer: "...........uhhh............no?!?!?..."
whip guy: "u just dont learn!"

missed the'oc

2005-05-05T22:34:00.000-04:00

boring thursdays...

*somebody saaaaaaaaaaaaaave me..." - smallville theme song

um..right now soo hungry..waiting for my rents to bring me home some food from magic 2
um...thursday just all collectively soo boring and tiring..i fell asleep

1st period, we watched bill Nye the science guy..that was cool.. u CANT get bored with that show, when ur learning..cuz u actually DO learn
2nd...omg..gritaly presentation to a gr.10 class, then went to the library and we had to stay wand listen to the gr.10 civics presentations....soooooooooooo boring..i almost died.
3rd.. put up posters for symph. night. may25 7;30 come
4th...lunch..lol i fell asleep at civic centre. and tony poured water on my head :(
5th... photog..where i slept again..

came home... ate some hasbrowns.. tv..basketball...church for drama rehearsal... and home now

hope everythin works out with u and your friend jen.. pray about it. and just kinda dont worry about it too much...i dont know what else there is..hmmm..

lee, stop rambling on about going or not..ur only gonna go for 1 period.u might as well not go to school at all. work on "your basketball." u need it. lol, jks

um yeah..i missed the oc.... :( thnx mikocreto for recording!! :) much much appreciated!!

that B.A.S.I.C jersey email...gettin me pumped for softball this summer... SOOO lookin forward to that.... #5...shot gun...if anybody takes that number...well then,i'll hafta attempt to kick your sass. #5's mine, punks.

anywaze im just soo hungry...my stomach is eating itself...
i'll leave it at that

homer: "sooo hungry" [written on a small chalk board]
mr. burns: "yes, the music IS from South Hungary..here's some free food"

triple SOUL five?? bored ...and ball

2005-05-04T22:34:00.000-04:00

*hate it or love it*
yo. wadup. today... actually on time for school today.. 1st period..boring tech.. we had SAC elections assembly...

pres... ali had a good speech..sean's was sorta funny..
vp... joyson did some crazy singing..i realized he was singing when he stopped..i didnt know what the heck was goin on...
social... ayanms didnt say "ajar" in her speech. (as i hold the door....open) ugh...
sopss... azza's was pretty funny. "mad chils yo!! ......that's as black as i get"
and dylan funny as usual
clubs and funds... go roz. yo that girl, sascia runnin for clubs and funds too (she's some gr10 girl in my math class) terrence told me, in Carpanatomy...her candidate picture... she's wearing a shirt that says, "TRIPLE SOUL FIVE" in big letters!! hahahaaaa hhmmm i thot it was triple five soul..prolly bought it from pacific mall or somethin. lol. fake brand names...
sec... "oh my god, becky! look at her Tong Tong..it is soooooo secretary!" lol

and the rest i cant remember..

2nd period boring, 3rd poker again... cards arent treating me very well... 4th period... boring, we got an essay about complaining.. an essay i can actually understand..cuz i understand complaining..one of my specialties.. 5th...was as always, a waste of time.. kettle doesnt stop talking and rambling on..."mumbling bafoon" (i think it was) -Kylie[riho's sister] lol

got home, had that free photo thing at church...then played ball at church.. finally..not sooo soo many ppl again.. more mins for everybody.. big ups to Gord'. thanx man. "uncle's no-effort-throw-up-swish-shot" lol
and thanx manda for pickin me up, keepin positive and bein so supportive from the bench:)

and now..im thirsty... i hate wednesday nites after ball... cuz there's stupid orch. rehearsal the next morning at 7:30.. booo-urns.

well i'll leave it at that. payce

"...they were looking at me....WITH THEIR EYES!!!!" -Marge Simpson

memory loss and scorpian king

2005-05-03T23:09:00.000-04:00

hey. thnx for reading...
school was crap.. school started at 11, but i had to write a stupid phix contest at 9:30
my teacher, mr. cope. a.k.a "douglas" lol.. says if we get at least 5 questions right, we get 100%? and there's 30 questions..and it's multiple choice..i just kinda did the eenie meenie, minie, mo...
and used the "when in doubt choose, C" hopefully i get at least 5 right..otherwise i watsed $3 and not getting to sleep in

2nd period was boring, 3rd was boring, 4th was ok. wendy';s...thnx mylonas! bought me food... um...5th was photog. lol didnt start well..i didnt see a supply teacher or a guest speaker, so i yelled some thing when i came in, and realized...oh man..that was stupid... never doing that again... at least he didnt make us do anything..that was good.. came home..actually did homework right away (cuz i wanted to watch tv the rest of the day)

i finally got to get back to my TV...been so stressed..i miss tv....
watched SMALLVILLE... so crazy..it's about everybody getting a memory loss, well there's this guy, i think his name is kevin, he can cause ppl to forget what just happened, so he robs the talon, but then when clark is about to stop him, he erases his whole entire memory somehow.... oh man....chloe's such a good friend... hel;ped him out big time.. stupid Lex, he's soo evil. he stole the drawings..from his own friend..ass. lana...wat happened to her, she used to be cool...she's soo weird..oh, so what happens at the end? the scene kinda ends...are clark and lana back toegether? lois is hot...clark should get both.. hehehee. the music at the end was really stupid..totally did not fit the whole scene of lex looking at the stolen drawings..and that whole thing...yeah. clark and chloe should just both be honest. ugh....

scorpian king! i love that movie..it's technically a terrible movie, but the rock is in it and kelly hu is in it.. she's soooooooo omgoodness hot... holy.. smoking... and the rock is my fave wrestler, so that's a good movie..i like it.. the acting is soo bad in it tho... lol

omg, philly's eliminated...stupid pistons and their D...stupid ben wallace..soo good, iverson deserves to make it, puttin up huge numbers this season..in like every category..
i like both mavs and rockets, so they
'll hafta duel it out,like they are, boston over indiana...please.. i want pistons to lose.. sacramento to come back.. chicago actually i also like washington..so they can duel it out too.. and i want denver!!! except tony parker and ginobili are soo good..

i love tv. i mss it. stupid and1mixtape tour wasnt on, cuz of stupid horse racing...wat the heck.

yay tomoro's wednesday, which means almost thursday, which means almost friday!!!!
yes..ball tomoro. ok well that's about it. gonna get some sleep while i can

payce

"trying is the first step to failure" - Homer Simpson

all falls down

2005-05-02T18:31:00.000-04:00

kanye west....

listenin right now..to my busted up iPod..omgoodness..when did it ever get soo busted up. the top is busted open a lil bit, and the buttons are starting to get a lil weird..not a good sign..and it's only been like 3 months.....uh oh. please dont break!

anywaze..stupid frankenstein essay..worked till 2:30 on this rough copy..sort of a relief now that i dont think about creating this esay about frankenstein..now i just gotta edit the rough and have the good done for the week. but at least i dont hafta make anything new..

slept in so late, in fact didnt get enough sleep too..got to school late. 1st was boring and sucked, 2nd the same. 3rd, played poker, and lost :( well i was doin well for most of the game.. i went all in with K and Q, and shakeeb hasnt won a game all lunch, he goes in, with an A and K, and he just winds with an Ace high.. poo. 4th-boring, fell asleep..5th-kettle's class. mr.kettle just has no life. he asks us to do so much extra work..and the sad thing is, he actually reads every single word u write down and then check the sources and stuff..u cant get away with anything...u actually hafta BS everything... and even that';s only 4/5 for "monody" ugh...stupid kettle.
afterschool..had some stupid mini lecture on physcis from cope. that was soo pointless and useless..i have a bad feeling about this contest. if i get 5 questions (out of 30) right, i apparently get 100% to add on..i guess? says mr. cope. but he said the questions are hard..i really hope i get at least 5. cuz i paid 3 bux and is going to school 2.5 hours earlier than the rest of the school.

anywaze not much happenin today..got a stupid vio-lesson, and hafta study for this physics thing. aw man.. anywaze yeah. that's about it.

i usually end off with some funny quote..now let's see.. what can i think of for today?.........hmmm...............this is hard.........

oh just whatever im listening to now....

"there's nothing to loothe....when no one knows your name..." - Billy Talent

it sounds like a lispe. (is that how u spell it?) sounds like loothe insteada lose. lol

english...

2005-05-02T02:25:00.000-04:00

i hate essays, english, frankenstein, novels, reading, writing...omgoodness

why do we hafta have a class for english, not like we're gonna go to england or anything...

it's like 2:30am, i know it's not relaly that that late. but just omgoodness....i hate school.

at least after this essay is all over with, cuz that was only a rough copy, i wont have anything big due anytime soon, i think...

thanks to alison[xyk'], xmanda, jano a.k.a. janey and other ppls, sorry if i forgot u..thnx for talkin to me and keepin me positive i guess...well thanx for keeping me from losing my mind..

anywaze gotta wake up at 6:30 tomoro for school.

payce

skinner: "ralph wiggum."
ralph: "i won!! i won!!"
someone: "no, u failed english!"
ralph: "me fail english? that's unpossible!"

stuff

2005-05-01T14:39:00.000-04:00

yesterday nite was pretty jokes....went to ball...played like CRAP. sorry K and josh and chris and nix too. i suck. the new king turnover. my streetball name is "NO FINISH". anywaze afterwards, we went to mcDs, cuz josh and K wanted burgers, then we chilled at DQ, where nix bought me a DQ sandwich, then 5 mins later, stevens runs out with a box of sandwiches, while ppl are in a car and they can see everything.. ate them in my van... then when i was driving away, nix friggin throws one at my car...punk. then apparently they egged some houses and cars...

yesterday driving by milliken, going to mcDs, there's some random guy just standing on the outdoor ball court. no ball...nothing, just standing at like the freethrow line....so weird.

today. service..i kept sniffing thru the whole thing, i had some random runny nose and no tissue... it was about worship. worship is a lifestyle, we need to prioritize our.."stuff"
sunday school...was listening to dancehall, reggae, rap, rock and ska -christian music. it sounded more like beenie man, linkin park rapping, marilyn manson, eminem, no doubt and maroon 5 music..but it wasnt.
nixon actually went to sunday school. lol jks man. bumba-...

shoutouts to mares for being a cool friend. mean and blunt.. but cool. hahaha
and janey, always sounds like she's gonna cry HAHAHAHAHA.

much better today. ya know.. she got some crazy iPod-like thing, but not an iPod. it';s soo much better than my iPod mini. 2500 songs, just instead of a round scrolly thing it's like a up and down scroll bar..quite cool.. we have like the same songs on.. and she ..sorta let me listen to it. a lil more talking a bit? i dunno. still kinda quiet with me, yet talks to nix a lot. mad arms house. hahaha stone..wat a funny kid. (apparently)

i have a frankenstein essay still to do and math..havent started.. but im too tired i wanna sleep. so i will.

lates (later days!?!?!) lol jks
"Oh boy, sleep! that's where im a viking!" - Ralph Wiggums

in the beginning...

2005-04-30T19:02:00.000-04:00

testing... read a bunch of ppl's blogs, thought i should get one... no one's gonna read this...except you..whoever you are. thanx. um..today sux. well some of it..actually only a bit. had a dentist appt. i really gotta floss... um..no cavities again...giggity giggity. coffeehouse rehearsal today.. tiring.. i really needta start memorizing my lines... i hate my videos cuz im in the footage.. stupid footage.... yeah
if ur reading this..come to kyrios coffeehouse may13th 6:45pm.

anywaze so yeah. she sent me an email a while ago, saying we should be friends again and start talking to each other.. way to live up to your end of it.. i think she avoided me today. (if ur reading this.. u TOTALLY didnt talk to me) why, honestly why... rach was right. sometimes ur gonna look back and question some things that happened. not trying to put myself down or anything, but she really doesnt care at all. ...punk. it's a sorta a year now too..not an actual year..but last coffeehouse in august 2004. we both did um..serving.. i was partners with her serving tables 1 and 2. ["how you gonna act like that" -Tyrese.]

yeah so not much else... NBA playoffs...
i want Denver to beat San Ant. Philly to come back 2-1 from the pistons, PHX, MIA, and BOS, only cuz i dont like reggie.. lol.

if you think this is all really stupid or that im annoying
...guess what? i DONT CARE, and i agree with u, and this is my blog so whatever.

"that was then, and this is now! ...and this is a chair... and that's a toaster..." Peter Griffin.

Peter: "Omg, my cereal's trying to tell me something. it says , '00ooooo0o0o0o' "
Brian: "Peter.....those are cheerios."